Postby Ashley » Mon Sep 25, 2006 7:44 pm
My goodness, what a great question! Hopefully my answer will help you in your search for your niche.
You'd think as a little kid I would have been one of those cute, brown-eyed, pig-tailed little darlings that could say, "I want to be a ballerina!" or "I want to be a doctor!" or even "I want to spend 5 years of my life running one of the biggest anime websites on the internet!"
But alas, that was not the case. Truth is, I was a bit schitzophrenic when it came to careers. Everything from astronaut to kindergarden teacher was thought of--in junior high I seriously wanted to be a "pastor's wife" as a career (the funny thing is I just may end up doing it! XD)
In high school I was really starting to freak out career wise because the only thing I was really great at was school. I made good grades, but I didn't feel predisposed to any one field, and time was running out. Journalism held me for a while, but I burned out pretty quickly. In my resolve to never take another typing class again, I took a digital graphics class with a teacher who really took me under her wing. She encouraged me in my art (which I thought I didn't have since I can't draw a straight line with a ruler) and told me I had the "eyes of an artist." So that pushed me into art history (originally) and then graphic design, which was my first college major. I really liked design and the field excited me, but by the middle of my freshman year I was seriously disillusioned with it. The school I went to was SO tough on the art program, plus I was in the honors college which meant I was killing myself to read all these very difficult books on top of the art homework I had.
So I was basically in a rut, academically. The one thing I felt like I could do decently for the rest of my life was driving me to insane amounts of work, and underneath all the pressure and stress was a growing dissatisfaction with working to "sell a product I don't want to sell using methods I morally object to for a secular company."
Lo and behold, that was God's perfect timing in getting to my heart. That March I went on a missions conference in Corpus Christi and felt God call me to the ministry. Knowing this was a huge change and that I was risking my scholarship for this, I prayed, fasted, and talked to many pastors about what I should do. In the end, I resigned from my college and transfered to Southwestern Seminary's college program, where I currently am chipping away at my BA.
Knowing I felt called to missions, I started praying and asking where God would have me serve Him. First it was a general feel for foreign missions, then Asia, then north Asia, then Japan in particular, which is where I currently plan on serving. God has really honored my willingness to follow Him with great friends, great professors, growing closer to my family, the support of my church, and an equally-yoked, missions-minded, anime-loving boyfriend who wants to serve with me in Japan. I couldn't be happier about my future; although yes, I still have my bad days and school here is REALLY tough.
My biggest advice to you is to pray, pray, pray. Don't be afraid of trying an elective just for the heck of it. Be open to what God may be doing in your life, no matter how crazy it sounds. Hey, I walked away from a $16,000 scholarship and a sure-fire career in one of the biggest growing industries in the world, but I wouldn't go back for it now. May God bless you richly as you search for His path. =3