Well, just to refresh everyone, she was the blue skinned princess and Heir of the planet of Tangea. <snipped link> to learn more about her.
Anyway, sometime between '01 and '02, I developed this strange infatuation with her. I thought it was love as I had her on my mind all the time. I REALLY REALLY liked her. But I always kept it a deep and dark secret from my grandma because I knew that her teasing would be endless and relentless... At the time, I had gotten this obsession about girls who wore revealing clothing that showed their stomachs. I did NOT like this and on a few message boards, I would rant and rant and rant non-stop. The thought made me very angry. I got flamed, called sexist, a whole multitude of woes. But Mira was different... She never wore any of that bimbo stuff... Always dressed like a "lady" as I put it. It was realyl sensitive onthe issue. Body peircings, esspeically belly button peircings always got me angry as well... I always got really depressed when I got flamed and almost everyone on the forum hated me. There were a few people who stood by me. I really appriciated their loyalty... I also ranted on the forums about how much I "loved" Mira Nova... People would often make fun of me, sometimes typing in about doing... things... to her... It made me mad and I would often go into my usuall berserk rage with my D&D style ALLCAPS attacks. I would often do this in political debates and people would think me really imature for it... Sometimes, people would say "Mira Nova? The porn star?" and it got me mad as usual...
(The following may violate the rules so if you must censor it, don't delete it, jsut edit it. It tooks me a long time to type this up.)
Then one day, in 2003... IT happened... I was doing my routine google search for "Mira Nova". I came to this message board saying "Does anyone know where I can find pictures of Mira Nova in errotic poses?" And I thought "You pervert! Mira Nova would never do that!"... Would she? I searched on google for "Mira Nova Nude". After skipping over a few unimportant links, I finnally came to this one. The discription I saw of the link made me cringe... I cautiously clicked on it... Sheilding my eyes from all the disney hentai, I scolled down and... No... It couldn't be... All I saw was a blue leg with a boot on it... "NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!!!!" I thought... I went into the bedroom saying "They're torturing me!!"... "Okay, calm down, maybe that was another blue leg!" I went back... Nope... There was her face, clear as day... The expression of her face burned into my memory forever... It was over... But I didn't feel as depressed as I thought I would... I actually felt glad I saw it because now, I could concentrate on my quest to get a real girl... So, I forgot about girls for a while... Now, I was still obsessed with her, but this time, hate, rather than love... I didn't even really hate her, I just kept mocking her, really...
Anyway, she slowly faded out of my attention... Went on with life for a while... Then, I started gaining interest in anime... Anime girls started to look very beautiful to me... And in the winter, my grandma driving me home through the snow, it felt peaceful and would be ncie to share it with a girl... So much so, that I went on the forums and made a character. "Just married"... Though, some guy got on and started talking about sex... I pretended to be grossed out, but was actually rather curious... Though, I still beleived that when it came down to it, I would be much too shy to have sex... And so it remained for a while... Later on, I had gotten a few big crushes on anime girls while I was 14... Fuu from Magic Knight Rayearth, Shampoo and Ukyo from Ranma 1/2... It wasn't a big obsession like that with Mira Nova...
During this time, I started going insane about no sex in heaven. I was a young man and wanted to feel close to someone, but was still a little shy when it came right down to it... Anyway, nothing changed for a few months... Then, when I was 15, I watched the actual manga of Ranma 1/2 rather than just the video game on SNES. Then, I downloaded the seiries and watched it... This is when I started thinking that I really would love romance...
Then, last october, after coming home from a trip on the greyhound, Grandpa got violent at the bus depo and when we got home, he started hitting her around, accusing her of infidelity. I called the police and he was in jail all night. Then, a month after that, the most powerful thing that had ever happened in my whole life took place... It was divided into 2 nights... The first night was nothing really special. I was chatting with my friend on MSN, a real Ranma 1/2 fan... And he showed my this fanfic of Ranma... Being a 15 year old, I was the most curious yet... He said it contained duggestive scenes... This caught my attention and I started to read... I read the first 2 chapters... Nothing special, but it did seem nice the way Ranma finnaly had it and left to find his own appartment... The way he and Akane finnaly admitted to eachother that they lvoed eachother... And esspecially the way Dr.Tofu Proposed to Kasumi... I stopped reading and went to bed with warm thoughts in my heart... But then, the next night, my life changed forever... chapter 3 was long... Very long... and it was getting bedtime so I hurried with the reading... But as I got to about the middle, I slooooooowed down... NOW it was getting really interesting. I'm not going to go into detail here, but it started to get pretty steamy... Just a little at first... But then it escalated and... Never in my life was I filled with so much desire and passion... My blood was boiling and I was overflowing with energy and power... I felt so strong and happy... And for a week, I felt invincible! MAN, what a week that was... it was great... I even had an errotic dream as a result... Well, the high went down and started getting slightly depressed again...
Then, about 7 weeks ago, I started going to the LDS church because of their believe in eternal marriage... I went up there hoping that I would find a girl who would want to spend all eternity with me... But... The girls there wern't very attractive... There was this ONE there that was pretty cute singing in the choir... So, I tried talking to her... I asked her if she liked anime... She didn't know what it was and I explained and didn't ever watch any... Infact, I had founded "LDS anime". (
http://ldsanime.proboards53.com if you want to check it out)... I had handed out slips with the address on it... But not a SINGLE PERSON from that church ever posted anything.
A few mormons from an LDS forum posted but that's about it... So, I kept gonig up to the LDS church... But every time I went up there, I felt a huge drain on my energy and my happiness... Every week, I felt more depressed than the last... Then, I found out that girls up there wern't very interested in guys who didn't go on missions... And I didn't want to go on one... I had found one girls I really DID love, though... She wasn't a mormon, though, and she lived on the opposite side of the continent... But she shared all my interests and morals and believes... And and I asked her if she wanted to meet sometime and she said sure, she'd like that... But then about a week later, she said it probably wouldn't be a good idea... Her mom watched oprah... That episode about internet stalkers... And so, I felt my very first heartbreak... She DID already have a boyfriend, though, but... it hurt when I realized that she wouldn't be the one I would marry... I REALLY wanted her... But I soon got over her... Later than night, I snapped... I wanted to see yuri for some strange reason... And I ended up seeing a couple clips of it... And then it moved on to straight hentai... But... It didn't really arouse me, though... Rather, it was almost hypnotic... And now, I've started reconcidering becoming a mormon. I feel torn between 2 worlds... And this is where I am today...
<Mod note: I snipped that link you had up there, Jon, because some of the images on the site broke CAA image posting rules. Please refer to those rules before posting links to images in the future.>