Okay, I said I would leave for a while, right? Okay, so after I was gone for a while I had a chance to clear my head like I had hoped. After praying and praying I finally found what I'm looking for and wanted to thank everyone who helped me and was concerned about me.
I'm sorry if I worried anyone, when I posted my leave it wasn't because anyone on here. Everyone here has been excellent and I felt like after a PM from a certain person I realized that maybe I should return to CAA again. Just before I returned my stress valves let go and I could hear God talking to me more and more clearly. This is exactly what I wanted! ^.^
So this thread is just to thank everyone who helped me in my times of pain and confusion!
Arigatou gozaimasu minna! ^ ~