Syaoran wrote: I have to fight the pain and gilt that is inside of me, but I can't fight it alone anymore.
ya know fighting alone is sometimes where we stumble the most. in my own life, i would fight issues in my own, and i would even ask God to help me fight. things never got better because i was fighting them under my own power instead of allowing God to do the work Himself, allowing Him to fight for me. It wasnt until i relyed on His strength to pull me through did things improve.
i'll be praying for ya ^_^