Message from Volt to CAA

[K. Ayato]

Hello. I emailed Volt last night, and this morning I found he emailed me back. Part of his message he asked me to share, so here it is.

Man i feel bad for leaving but i had too. I hate
abandoning poeple, because I know what's it like to be
abandoned myself. But You need to understand that I've
been at CAA for what? A little over 2 years. I've met
& gotten use to so many poeple. And My mistake was
opening up and becoming attached to them.

Now, 2 years later, Half of those people are gone. I
have no idea where they are. For the sake of my
over-emotional spirit, it's best for me to avoid
making anymore of these temporary freinds. I love
everyone, from the members that argue with me, to the
members that call me names. It's a message board,
that's the way things are. When people get off work or
school, and get online. They become a different
person. So argueing and namecalling are forgivable.
We're online, it's different, i know we don't mean it.

Every message board has a life span. I remember the
good ol days when I use to log into CAA everyday and
there'd be an interesting post, MANY interesting posts
to reply to. But now... I end up staying logged on for
hours, just sitting there, wasting my time waiting for
someone to post something new. I'm going to have 16
hour classes soon, I had my mid-life crisis 2 weeks
before I turned 19 and NOW i'm having it again. I feel
the need to focus on my purpose and only my purpose
and not get distracted by any other interfearances.

I hate leaving people. I hate it. But i need to move
on and let go. Besides, it's not like I'm dead. I
might be preparing myself for a death & rebirth but it
doesn't mean poeple can't IM or e-mail me. I'm
spiritually growing very fast, but my online identity
is staying the same grumpy, person it always was. I
needed to let go of that.

I'm not going to dissapear online forever. I'm
starting up my own message board geared toward my
purpose. I find it funny that so many people posted in
my Goodbye Thread, "Oh Volt we miss you, i enjoyed
this and that about you" yet only 1 person added me to
their buddy list for AIM or YahooIM or e-mailed me.
Like I said. Temporary Freinds hurt the most. The ones
at work, the ones at school, the ones online. The ones
that love being around you, because you're right next
to them, but when it comes time for them to come to
you, suddenly, they're not so freindly. The only true
freinds are the ones who have every one of your IM
usernames, just in case. And stop by with an e-mail
every now and then.

Going to the same Forum for 2 years, and all of a
sudden just quiting Cold Turkey. Yeah it hurts. But
when i think about the way things were going... What a
mess. What a waste of time. Instead of working on
important things I was wasting my time for nothing.
Working on things without recognition. My future there
is over, but I beleive God lead me to CAA so that i
may have an impact on a few people with my testimony,
make some important freinds, and learn a lot of things
about Forums so I'm not lost if I start my own. And i
did, and it's done, and it's over. Christians can
easily say good-bye because we know our time on earth
is not our last, we are all connected in a perminant
link with our Creator. To us, there's no such thing as
good-bye.

Universally, Someday, We'll all get to have a little
reunion in some desolate part of heaven. Bring as many
freinds as you can. ^_^

[Warrior 4 Jesus]

Great. Thanks for that. It was an encouraging read. Although I only didn't add Volt to my IM list yet because I don't know how and I was very tired when I posted in his thread. How do you add someone to your IM?

Thanks!

[dragonshimmer]

Thanks for sharing that, Carla.

[Yumie]

Dude, I just didn't add him to my IM list because I didn't think he'd really know who I was apart from the masses, lol. You know how that is on a message board, you may know 10 people and know a lot about them from reading their posts but they may not have read any of yours that stuck in their minds. That's why I usually wait from another person to IM me first. Plus, if none of us had said au revior in his goodbye thread, then it would have just been lame. So anyways, we may not all have just decided to forget about him to the extent that he seems to think.

[Mr. SmartyPants]

Dude, I just didn't add him to my IM list because I didn't think he'd really know who I was apart from the masses, lol. You know how that is on a message board, you may know 10 people and know a lot about them from reading their posts but they may not have read any of yours that stuck in their minds. That's why I usually wait from another person to IM me first. Plus, if none of us had said au revior in his goodbye thread, then it would have just been lame. So anyways, we may not all have just decided to forget about him to the extent that he seems to think.

yeah however He was talking to the general public ya know ^^

I mean... im sure he felt quite... lonely or brushed of my people on a number of things >_> (according to him)

[Azier the Swordsman]

He's already been on my AIM list; I just added him to Yahoo. I have yet to catch him online though.

[glitch1501]

thanks for sharing that

[K. Ayato]

You're welcome. In his message, he also said he LOVES getting email from us CAA folks, and that email is the best way to get hold of him.

[Alice]

I know what he means about getting attached to people. @.@

I didn't add him to my lists because I don't feel comfortable adding people I don't know. Unless I know they would welcome it.

(And I've added people before but their lists were blocked, or something.) xD

[Mr. SmartyPants]

^^ I IM him a lot, we talk (usually pc vs mac debates) haha

[K. Ayato]

Just talked to him again and he says he doesn't mind getting IMs or emails from strangers. So feel free to send them his way .

[Shao Feng-Li]

Volt's on my yahoo list though, he won't seem to talk to me. Maybe it's because I forgot the intro. And I forget about the buddy list anyways. XD

[teen4truth]

Wow that was a good message, I really agree! I do not mean to be the dark strangler here like Kai from Beyblade or anything like that, but it is true that we should not get to attached to internet friends.

Just talked to him again and he says he doesn't mind getting IMs or emails from strangers. So feel free to send them his way .

I was hesitant to talk to him on YIM before because I hardly knew him, but I guess now I will.