Syaoran wrote:Right now I have no dream in life.....I am fighting to stay alive right now.
Pleas don't feel sorry for me....I have to fight this on my own......as for my dream it will come to me one day.
Syaoran wrote:Right now I have no dream in life.....I am fighting to stay alive right now.
Pleas don't feel sorry for me....I have to fight this on my own......as for my dream it will come to me one day.
~Natsumi Lam~ wrote:When i posted this forum originally i was giving an idea of a future for me... but in reality i feel EXACTLY the same as you.... except one thing is different... i dont want to live, i dont want to fight, i just want to die and not fight. So you are already living more than me in your persute[sp] for a dream. You fight to stay alive, that is a noble thing... and i commend[sp] you with all my heart. I pray that you find a dream and it is the most fullfilling thing you could ever have!
Since i was little i only picked dreams out of the air that would make me money, or that would help level out the preverse medical system. But in the end i was living for others... what ever you do dont have a dream for others, let God give you that dream an fight with your whole heart for it. well as i wait for my dream of death to come true, i will be continually praying for you!
~Natsumi Lam~
Alice wrote:That's very sad. I hope things get better. Will pray for you.
~Natsumi Lam~ wrote:thanks! but everything is great. My parents are together for 26 years, i am healthy, married, no kids , my family really loves me... but ever since i was 13 i just didnt want to live anymore. Not in the goods and not in the bads. I felt i never had a purpose in life and God hasnt given me one yet. I dont really find anything worth persueing yet. On top of that God knows for a fact that if he gave me a dream i would go for it until the day i die. But i havent had one that wasnt to please others. I dont find joy in really anything[i mean other that certain things pertaining to God] but those only go so far. I like being around people but not with people. So basically all is good but i see life as pointless. I thank you for your prayers!!!
~Natsumi Lam~
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