College is near...

[Waterlillee]

I am sorry I haven't been able to be on much here
due to some problems I've been having lately~
and I don't mean to complain, since I know that everyone
goes through this too, but thinking about college can be
quite nerve-wrecking and at times, depressing...

I am kind of like the home girl where I stay with my family
most of the times^^;; Many say that I'm such a daddy's girl or
some other words that describes me being different
than normal teenage girls^^;; but truthfully,
I've never really been away from my family or home...

College sounds exciting and maybe fun too^^
but when I think of leaving my parents alone kind of
gets me worried~ and also since my sister will be going to
college the year after me, watching my daddy work his heart off
kills me...

I believe lately his failure of health is because of so much stress >_<
He goes to the hospital a lot too and one time,
he had to carry around a monitor for his high blood pressure

I think this plus all the school work, and the commotions in my church
is sometimes making me depressed lately...
I pray and pray~ I know God will hear me out someday
but sometimes, I end up alone in my tears >_<

I am sorry this was such a longgg post XP
but I truly thank all of those who read it~

If you could please~
please leave me some advice^^;;...
It would really mean a lot to me...

Thank you~

[CephasWhite]

I am sorry this was such a longgg post XP
but I truly thank all of those who read it~

Oh, Waterlillee, don't feel bad for making a long post, lots of us do that, no need to feel sorry, trust me on that.

I am kind of like the home girl where I stay with my family
most of the times^^]
Momma's little boys, and Daddy's little girls, that's the way it's suppose to be ^_^
The feeling of going to collage, being away from your family, and then missing them is mutual, believe me, I went through the exact same thing when I first started University. Besides, your parents are just a phone call away.

but thinking about college can be
quite nerve-wrecking and at times, depressing...

Collage can be nerve-wrecking at the beginning, but soon it will be one of the best times of your life because you are learning something that is your gift from God

...do you what to know what I'm doing? I'm majoring in Music for Piano and trying to get a Bachelors Degree in Theory and Composition. I love Music, and learning about it is just breathtaking. To me, Music can either relieve my stress or make me tense because it's such a big impact.

College sounds exciting and maybe fun too^^
but when I think of leaving my parents alone kind of
gets me worried~ and also since my sister will be going to
college the year after me, watching my daddy work his heart off
kills me...

I'll pray for you that everything works out alright. Remember too, your parents were alone before you were even born! So, I don't think it's much of a problem for them being alone...it's hoping that you stay safe over in Collage.

I believe lately his failure of health is because of so much stress >_<
He goes to the hospital a lot too and one time,
he had to carry around a monitor for his high blood pressure

I will definitely pray that your father will get the treatment that he needs to fight this and for God to put His healing hand on him.

I think this plus all the school work, and the commotions in my church
is sometimes making me depressed lately...
I pray and pray~ I know God will hear me out someday
but sometimes, I end up alone in my tears >_<

aww...come here \^_^/ *hug* it's okay, God does hear you, He listens to everyone, no one is shut out, especially you. Pray for help, that your work will get done, and pray for happiness. You can dry those eyes now ^_^ and yes, some churches these days are having problems, especially mine and others. I just pray for them to open their eyes and see the truth.

Thank you~

Your welcome Lillee May I call you Lillee?

My name is Cephas by the way. If you have any more thoughts or concerns about anything don't be afraid to ask.

Oh and by the way...

HOW'S THIS FOR A LONG POST!!! *o*

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Lots of love and God bless,
CephasVII

[Ashley]

Aww, freaketh not Lillee! I'm not a seasoned college veteran and I have to be constantly reminded to stick with it, but YOU CAN SURVIVE COLLEGE!

First off, do you know where God wants you to go? If not, perhaps He purposes to have you stay at home and commute; I know for me personally Freshman year alone was hard enough to adjust too WITHOUT having to move into a dorm/frat house and deal with living on campus (worrying about money, never sleeping because of roommates, tempation to always party, etc.) That's not to say you have to live at home forever, but it's an option. And there's lots to be excited about in college--the freedom, for example. Just be responsible (go to class, do your homework, etc.), buckle down and stick with it, and be prepared! Christian college life can be intensely difficult (proffs trying to brain wash you), so get plugged in! Find some Christians either at church or on campus to be a part of so they can pray with you and you for them.

My point is that while college seems this big, bad, horrible place to be (I've almost dropped out like, 4 times this semster O__o) YOU CAN DO IT if God wills it.

[Zedian]

You almost dropped 4 times...Ashley your slacking. = P

No really Waterlillee I suggest that you stick with it and set up good study habits. In college, your considered more of an adult compared to high school, so by that perspective, you get more freedom but it is also up to you to make sure you get all your homework done on time.

Also, remain true to your Christian roots but I also suggest being open to some extent of others-- yes college life means you get people of all diversity and walks of life. Try to get involved some extra curricular activites or in the student body somehow. Make friends and if there are foreigners, be nice with them --down the road they usually end up turning out to be the best study partners since they are so diligent compared to us Americans.

And there is no rush to move out and stay in a dorm, I spent pretty much all my college life commuting here in San Antonio. Although for me, I will probably go out of state for grad school or law school.

I will pray for you and choose the path that makes you happy and most importantly that God has set-up.

[Ashley]

You almost dropped 4 times...Ashley your slacking. = P

Ha. That's real funny, considering I do more work now than ever and sleep less than I ever have in my whole life. I've been known to spend 10+ hours on ONE assignment...straight.

But that's enough about me. Waterlilee, you might also want to check some of the prayer threads (like Talame's) about college;they might help you too.

[soul alive]

[Quote=Waterlillee]I am sorry I haven't been able to be on much here
due to some problems I've been having lately~
and I don't mean to complain, since I know that everyone
goes through this too, but thinking about college can be
quite nerve-wrecking and at times, depressing...[/Quote]
yeah, getting ready to go to college can be utterly nuts. have you decided what you want to major in, and where you want to go yet? that's probably the hardest thing to do, and once that is done, i won't say it gets easier from there, because it doesn't. but it's not going to be horrible, just hard, and you can do hard. ^^

[Quote=Waterlillee]I am kind of like the home girl where I stay with my family
most of the times^^;; Many say that I'm such a daddy's girl or
some other words that describes me being different
than normal teenage girls^^;; but truthfully,
I've never really been away from my family or home...[/Quote]
moving out on your own (or somewhat your own) is scary. i moved 8+ hours away from my family, never having been away from home for more than two weeks at a time. how do you cope? everyone is different. i call my family every night to talk, and even if we have nothing really to say, it's good to talk to someone, and to keep up on the news from home, and it really helps your family from missing you so much. but if you go to college somewhere close, or even in your home town, you could always commute daily, or go home every weekend. but, personally, i think it's important, no matter how much of a homebody you are, to get out and start learning how to be on your own.

[Quote=Waterlillee]College sounds exciting and maybe fun too^^
but when I think of leaving my parents alone kind of
gets me worried~ and also since my sister will be going to
college the year after me, watching my daddy work his heart off
kills me...

I believe lately his failure of health is because of so much stress >_<
He goes to the hospital a lot too and one time,
he had to carry around a monitor for his high blood pressure [/Quote]
*hug* aw, hon, hang in there. your parents want you to be happy and to succeed in life. more than likely, they don't want to see you hurt your future because of them. like i said earlier, calling every day really helps both them and you, and if you live close you can go home weekly, or you could even live at home. i'll pray that your dad's health gets better. but i'm guessing that he is working so hard because he wants the best for his family, and if you're happy about where you're going in life, he will be happy too.

[Quote=Waterlillee]I think this plus all the school work, and the commotions in my church
is sometimes making me depressed lately...
I pray and pray~ I know God will hear me out someday
but sometimes, I end up alone in my tears >_<[/Quote]
*another hug* God won't hear you someday. He hears you all the time, never endingly hears you. never forget that. He is always with you. never forget that either. He rejoices with you, goes through the hard times and the easy with you, and cries with you. when you start feeling like everything is coming down around you, take a break. just drop everything for a few minutes. go for a walk and talk with God. even if it is only for five minutes, it will make you feel worlds better, and you can pick everything back up and go at it again with a renewed mind.

[Quote=Waterlillee]I am sorry this was such a longgg post XP
but I truly thank all of those who read it~

If you could please~
please leave me some advice^^;;...
It would really mean a lot to me...

Thank you~[/Quote]
done. you're welcome. and don't worry, this isn't a long post by any means. ^_~

[Mr. SmartyPants]

jen i will definately pray for you. Youre a good friend to me. XD with all asian families, parents are such workaholics! and it can't be helped, ya know? And God isn't always instantaneous, sometimes it'll take practically FOREVER to see what he has planned for you and your family. My dad's health isn't so good either, he works like 14 hours every day except sundays. So I think its best for you too to go to college in your state ^_^ I plan on doing that too, theres a good med school in maryland. Johns Hopkins. I plan on majoring in psychology or psychaitry or some sort of neuroscience or behavioral thingy. I believe you wish to major in english, correct? I think you will make it into a good college in your state!

I got to say, keep it up, don't let ANYTHING pull you down, and for your dad, don't worry. Or try not to ^^;; because the only one in control is God right now

*hug* hang in tight there, Being a christian doesnt mean you wont suffer, but the trials will be a lot easier!

in fact, in english class, we're going over poetry and such. And we had this one poem to go over today, and it just really touched me. You oughta read it

Those Winter Sundays
by Robert Hayden

Sundays too my father got up early
and put his clothes on in the blueback cold,
then with cracked hands that ached
from labor in the weekday weather made
banked fires blaze. No one ever thanked him.

I'd wake and hear the cold splintering, breaking.
When all the rooms were warm, he'd call,
and slowly I would rise and dress,
fearing the chronic angers of that house,

speaking indifferently to him,
who had driven out the cold
and polished my good shoes as well.
What did I know, what did I know
of love's austere and lonely offices?


basically the author, whom had a father who did a bunch of labor, and kept the house warm, and shined his shoes. Yet never got any recognition for it. And the son never actually was thankful, the poem is about his regret to being bitter to his father. Of course you are not bitter to your father, i dont think. But definately show thanks to him, he's a hard working man. As well as your mom probably is too

[FadedOne]

oooh...I surely relate to this post!

lol, I'm going through the college applying process right now and if all goes well I'll be about 8 hours from home in the fall. o.o yeah....I'm scared. Also excited though. I pray that I have the strength to excel, and I suspect faith is enough. It's amazing how much has already worked out.

Everyone else has already given such great encouragement/advice, that I'm not quite sure what else I can say. Take heart though! There have been SO many reasons why I felt I could never go to college. Real, depressing, frustrating reasons. Some of them among those you mentioned....worry about family, being a homebody of sorts, etc. But it's all coming together with faith and ALOT of prayer. Sure I'm still worried, but It's all coming together anyways and I know this fall will be amazing lol. At least I sure hope so.

So yeah...dunno, if my words are worth anything but I wish you luck and blessings. ^_^ *hugs*