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Sometimes I feel as if I will explode...

Postby Destroyer2000 » Sun Oct 10, 2004 9:42 pm

Depression really sucks. Especially the kind that lingers for years, and you know it is your fault that you are depressed. I guess this is to be expected, though. It isn't the first time I've been depressed. Memories that caused me pain to think about them have risen to the surface again, yet, strangely enough, I don't want them to go away, as they could very well be the last reminder I have of some of my friends. If anyone cares to hear the full story, it's in my Xanga.
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Postby c.t.,girl » Sun Oct 10, 2004 10:09 pm

i completely understand you i to long for compainionship. i belive God is making you wait extra long because He has someone extra special for you and wants to make sure you appretiate her, at least that's what i think He's doing for me. ^_^
[color="DarkOrange"]"The way I see it, every life is a pile of good things and bad things... hey... the good things don't always soften the bad things; but vice-versa the bad things don't necessarily spoil the good things and make them unimportant." -11th Doctor

"The advice I like to give young artists, or really anybody who’ll listen to me, is not to wait around for inspiration. Inspiration is for amateurs; the rest of us just show up and get to work. If you wait around for the clouds to part and a bolt of lightning to strike you in the brain, you are not going to make an awful lot of work. All the best ideas come out of the process; they come out of the work itself. Things occur to you. If you’re sitting around trying to dream up a great art idea, you can sit there a long time before anything happens. But if you just get to work, something will occur to you and something else will occur to you and something else that you reject will push you in another direction. Inspiration is absolutely unnecessary and somehow deceptive. You feel like you need this great idea before you can get down to work, and I find that’s almost never the case." - Chuck Close[/color]
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Postby Destroyer2000 » Sun Oct 10, 2004 10:11 pm

Why make me wait? It'd be BEST to wait till I am out of college and settled down. I see no reason for him to make me wait. There is absolutely no point in a relationship at this point in my life.
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[color="Red"]Distance is to Love as Wind is to Fire...it extinguishes the small, and ignites the great. - Unknown[/color]

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Postby c.t.,girl » Sun Oct 10, 2004 10:15 pm

of course that is also what i meant to say but i just forgot to. but i do understand the whole friends thing. i too have left them unwillingly though. i won't get into that. i miss them an awful lot.
[color="DarkOrange"]"The way I see it, every life is a pile of good things and bad things... hey... the good things don't always soften the bad things; but vice-versa the bad things don't necessarily spoil the good things and make them unimportant." -11th Doctor

"The advice I like to give young artists, or really anybody who’ll listen to me, is not to wait around for inspiration. Inspiration is for amateurs; the rest of us just show up and get to work. If you wait around for the clouds to part and a bolt of lightning to strike you in the brain, you are not going to make an awful lot of work. All the best ideas come out of the process; they come out of the work itself. Things occur to you. If you’re sitting around trying to dream up a great art idea, you can sit there a long time before anything happens. But if you just get to work, something will occur to you and something else will occur to you and something else that you reject will push you in another direction. Inspiration is absolutely unnecessary and somehow deceptive. You feel like you need this great idea before you can get down to work, and I find that’s almost never the case." - Chuck Close[/color]
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Postby Destroyer2000 » Sun Oct 10, 2004 10:25 pm

...there are alot of guests here.
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[color="Red"]Distance is to Love as Wind is to Fire...it extinguishes the small, and ignites the great. - Unknown[/color]

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