Okay, here's the thing: except for the whole thing about not having a best friend, I think I can honestly say that I have may have a pretty strong idea of what you're going through. I suspect that, since you said something about "love language" that when you said you don't have a best "friend" you really meant "lady friend" (unless you're coincidentally a girl.) So, despite what some may say, I know what it's like to be lonely and isolated even in the very places you should be feeling "at home." Again, you talked about not having friends, but only acquaintances. I've definitely felt that. I don't know about you, but when I say things like that, it comes from a place of deep bitterness that threatens to swallow me up. So, long story short, I can relate to this post- not being understood even when you try explain, the alienation everywhere, the loneliness, the feeling that something is missing or even wrong, the self-medication of poisons like porn. Perhaps the projection of my own experience is totally off base. In any case, if I'm right and you and I are somewhat alike, then ultimately I unfortunately don't have any nice-sounding answers. I just choose to believe that God will make things work out in the end and that one needs to swallow one's pride and seek help from any venues necessary. I would be willing to talk about anything, btw, though I'm sure the promises of an anonymous stranger mean little. So, if I've totally misunderstood what you were going for here, then I'm sorry. I will pray for you nonetheless.
Sorry for this possibly incoherent and unhelpful wall of text.