My social life is about to have a giant makeover :)

[HetalianKatana4]

I don't blame you all if you're tired of me talking about the issues with my friends, specifically my best friend. Well, I'm tired of it, too. Something happened today that tipped me off the edge...almost literally (she shoved me into my desk today, almost causing me to fall over it when I didn't do anything wrong to her). If any of you remember, stuff like this has happened before with the same person. Thankfully that happened at the end of the day so not my entire day was ruined. She's costing me worry. She's costing me grades. My parents had told me a long time ago that they saw signs in her that showed she wasn't a true friend, but I didn't recognize them then. I even ignored the signs. Now, it's too unbearable. She treats me terribly on and off. She's rarely absent. When she is, I can think clearer. I can focus better in class. My attention span is where it should be.

What I'm saying is that I'm going to be independent starting tomorrow. I'll still keep the friends I have that are in the lower grades, including the one miracle guy friend I couldn't stop talking about before. Just the thought of independence is lifting a load of stress off me this very minute. I'm excited of the fact that I'm going to focus on nothing but my future now. Honestly, all she's good for now is a companion to conventions Besides her I have no one else to go to cons with. My best guy friend has always wanted to go to a con but his mother, a teacher at our Christian school, doesn't want him to be "exposed" to anything bad. Oh well. Metrocon will probably have to wait.

In short, please pray for me as I turn my social life on it's head in a good way.

[Makachop^^128]

I've had a Friend like that, have you told her clearly that you don't like how she is treating you? I would keep away from her for sure...I'll be praying

[HetalianKatana4]

Thank you for praying, Makachop^^128 Yes, I have told her. I have stood up for myself. I have told her sincerely that she has been childish towards me. I have told her that she doesn't act like a true friend towards me. I have brought the fact up multiple times and nothing seems to faze her. I would say she's bipolar or has a serious personality disorder but she doesn't treat her other friend terribly at all. In fact, it seems like they get along better! I think it's just me. I've checked myself over so many times. I can't seem to see anything that I need to straighten up in me. Anymore and I would be someone else!

[Makachop^^128]

Maybe shes jealous of you some how? I know that at certain ages Jealousy can be REALLY intense...I've had friends act like that and in the end I found out it was because of Jealousy, but I'm not sure I don't know her haha, before you stood up for yourself did you ask like "Hey is there anything I did that could have hurt you that is making you react this way?"

[Nate]

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=3DaXJmo9cro

[Xeno]

So basically...you finally decided to take the advice some of us gave you a while back and ditch this "friend". I'm kind of lost on the whole "feeling independent" thing though. It's not like you were married to them and now you're divorced and living all on your own.

[HetalianKatana4]

Makachop, I have actually concidered the fact that she may be jealous, but I don't know of what. I could ask her, but I know what will happen. She would deny it or shrug her shoulders like she doesn't give a crud about the situation. She's so secretive only towards me. I could pry and pry but she would deny everything. I was thinking about sitting down and talking with her but too much damage has been down. I don't even want this friendship anymore.

Xeno, I've been best friends with this person for four years. It's going to take me a lot of courage to simply "not hang out with her" anymore. I have no one else that I have a lot in common with. Just because I am just now taking everyone's advice doesn't mean I have ignored it. Courage is what I've been praying and waiting for. I need courage to not care about what other people say about her (everyone thinks she's super nice just because she's quiet). People would probably see me as a bad guy if I just "leave" her. Considering my social past, I'm shy and scared of what people will think. At the same time, I don't care. Courage is basically all I needed to follow through with everyone's advice.