stuff >.<

[Makachop^^128]

I need some pray for kinda pathetic things >.> lol My boyfriend and I are having some problems, he's kinda trying to change me, holding grudges because I feel insecure sometimes and basically I can't show how I feel very well with out him getting defense or telling me not to feel that way. basically I need pray fr Gods guidense its not going well and I'm getting hurt a ton, but if God wants me with him please pray that I will heal and we will get better. Also I've been having health problems for half a year now, I found or I have hyperthyriod and its really messing me up so I'd like prayer with that too >.<
thank you

[Xeno]

1. These things are not pathetic, so you shouldn't feel that way.
2. He doesn't have a right to "change" you. If he's holding a grudge against you because you feel insecure about something, then I'd venture to say he's feeling insecure about something himself. He's probably got his own problems he needs to work out. I know you're asking if God wants you to be with him, but you need to ask yourself an important question, if this is causing you to get hurt a lot, do you want to be with him? I've been in an abusive relationship before, and it started off sounding very much like what you're talking about; I'm not saying that to scare you or to tell you that is what will happen, but from my own personal experience I feel it's something that you should know.
3. I'll be sure to keep you in my thoughts and prayers regarding your health issues Maka, hope you start to feel better soon. =)

[Furen]

Of course we'll pray for ya Maka, we love ya [SIZE="7"][color="Red"]♥[/color][/SIZE]
you're so amazing ^^ don't change, it wouldn't be the same (well, I guess that could have gone without saying... XD)

[Makachop^^128]

I really love him >.< and one of my biggest problems is getting hurt and then forgiving way to easily and ten trusting again way too soon. I really wanna be with him, but I just want Gods will to be done :/ just things lately are going bad, even my family is saying if it doesn't stop I shoudl leave, but sometimes it really feels like I'm supposed to be with him. I feel all confused >.< Thank you fr praying >.<

Of course we'll pray for ya Maka, we love ya ♥
you're so amazing ^^ don't change, it wouldn't be the same (well, I guess that could have gone without saying... XD)

lol Thanks Furen ^.^ that helped me ^>^

[Nami]

Maka-chan. You are a beautiful, wonderful and talented girl. Everyone has insecurities, anyone who says otherwise is lying. The only way we can feel completely secure it to put everything we have, including our worries, into God's hands. And not think on them again. I know you are praying, and that's good. I do that a lot, and realize I'm not actually handing my worries over. I'm just praying for Him to fix it without actually letting Him. I hold onto it until I realize; "Oh... duh! I won't let Him fix it! I haven't let go of it yet."

It's a good question to ask, "is he really for me?" And if he is (your boyfriend), then God will show you. If he isn't, then you need to Trust God that this is the best thing. Maybe, you two should sit down and talk about your insecurities, I mean really get into it and cry. There is nothing wrong with crying to the person you love and letting him know how he is hurting you!

Miscommunication is good for breaking people up. And if you love him, you really should talk to him. Otherwise, he can't tell what's going on in your head. He can't read your mind like God can. ^_^ Open up to him, even if it's hard, and let him know what you are feeling and thinking.

Also, you are loved dearly by many people. And he shouldn't try to change you. Let him know that you think he is trying to change you. Communication is the best medicine for misunderstandings. ^^ Don't let it go unresolved.

*hugs* We love ya girl! And I'm praying for everything, including your health ^^ I hope you feel better soon. Oh and these concerns are not pathetic. ^_^

[TheMewster]

Yeah, and you're supposed to forgive others as a Christian so don't worry about being too forgiving (sorry mods plz plz plz dont kill meeeee):
Mark 11:25-26

25 Whenever you stand praying, forgive, if you have anything against anyone; so that your Father, who is in heaven, may also forgive you your transgressions.
26 But if you do not forgive, neither will your Father in heaven forgive your transgressions.”

YOU ARE NOT PATHETIC!!! God made you out to be a wonderful girl and if you have those kind of issues you should talk it over. If all else fails you should break up. God bless you and I prayed. anyway I don't really have the heart to come up with anything Nami hasn't already covered, as much as I do care.

[TopazRaven]

I'll be praying for you Maka! I don't have much to add here that hasn't been said already, so just know you're not at all pathetic and you'll be in my prayers.

[Mithrandir]

Yeah, and you're supposed to forgive others as a Christian so don't worry about being too forgiving (sorry mods plz plz plz dont kill meeeee)

I have a relative who never forgives and never forgets; it's pretty sad. I certainly don't see any reason to discourage you from posting the above.

And Maka - I'll be praying for you. Please know that everyone goes through insecurity at your age, so rest assured that most everyone on the planet understands how you feel. I know it's hard but you're doing a good job trying to separate out what you are thinking from what you are feeling. Remember, God doesn't want you to be hurt all the time. If you are in a situation that is causing you pain, be sure to think it through with your head and not your heart.

Just from looking around you can see that God loves variety in nature - and humans are no exception. Perhaps God has blessed you with the ability to be somewhat more forgiving than the average person...

Never be afraid to be who God has created you to be.

[Makachop^^128]

Maka-chan. You are a beautiful, wonderful and talented girl. Everyone has insecurities, anyone who says otherwise is lying. The only way we can feel completely secure it to put everything we have, including our worries, into God's hands. And not think on them again. I know you are praying, and that's good. I do that a lot, and realize I'm not actually handing my worries over. I'm just praying for Him to fix it without actually letting Him. I hold onto it until I realize; "Oh... duh! I won't let Him fix it! I haven't let go of it yet."

It's a good question to ask, "is he really for me?" And if he is (your boyfriend), then God will show you. If he isn't, then you need to Trust God that this is the best thing. Maybe, you two should sit down and talk about your insecurities, I mean really get into it and cry. There is nothing wrong with crying to the person you love and letting him know how he is hurting you!

Miscommunication is good for breaking people up. And if you love him, you really should talk to him. Otherwise, he can't tell what's going on in your head. He can't read your mind like God can. ^_^ Open up to him, even if it's hard, and let him know what you are feeling and thinking.

Also, you are loved dearly by many people. And he shouldn't try to change you. Let him know that you think he is trying to change you. Communication is the best medicine for misunderstandings. ^^ Don't let it go unresolved.

*hugs* We love ya girl! And I'm praying for everything, including your health ^^ I hope you feel better soon. Oh and these concerns are not pathetic. ^_^

I have been praying about feeling insecure >.< I've felt a lot better lately till last night when something happened :/

I have actually tried to do that but we end up is a dilemma that lasts like a week. When I share how I feel he tends to think I'm not thankful or something and then he gets all grudgey for a long time. Thank you for praying >.<

Thank you all for praying >.<

[K. Ayato]

Hey, Maka, send a PM my way . I second what has been stated here but maybe I can give you a few extra tips.

[Xeno]

I have actually tried to do that but we end up is a dilemma that lasts like a week. When I share how I feel he tends to think I'm not thankful or something and then he gets all grudgey for a long time.

This makes me want to share a few choice words with this guy....

[K. Ayato]

I wouldn't be too quick to draw a conclusion, Xeno. There might be a lot more going on, there might not. Still praying, Maka.

[SincerelyAnomymous]

I think you're great just the way you are. Don't let anyone, even someone you love, try to change you. Praying for you as well.

[K. Ayato]

You're stronger than you give yourself credit for, Maka . Took me a long time to realize that myself, and that's what I'd like to share with you via PM.

[MrKrillz0r]

Prayin' for you Maka.

[Makachop^^128]

Thank you all for praying >.< tomorrow I'm going on vacation to meet My boyfriends cousins, please pray that there wont be much tension between us sense we wont be able to talk at all by ourselfs. the Aunt has made pretty strict rules so it might be awkward while all this is going on :/

I think you're great just the way you are. Don't let anyone, even someone you love, try to change you. Praying for you as well.

Thank you ^.^

You're stronger than you give yourself credit for, Maka . Took me a long time to realize that myself, and that's what I'd like to share with you via PM.
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Thank you Ayato ^.^ I sent a P

[Makachop^^128]

random request gonna do photography for a wedding tomorrow, please pray the pictures come out well and that I wont be too nervous. also some of the couples relitives get really defense when I take pics, please pray that wont happen >.<

[SincerelyAnomymous]

Prayed for that too, hoping for the best.

[Makachop^^128]

thanks >.< pretty nervous, hopefuly it goes well

[Furen]

I bet the photos will turn out lovely!

[Nami]

I'm praying!! I know you'll do well. ^_^ *hugs*

I have been praying about feeling insecure >.< I've felt a lot better lately till last night when something happened :/

I have actually tried to do that but we end up is a dilemma that lasts like a week. When I share how I feel he tends to think I'm not thankful or something and then he gets all grudgey for a long time. Thank you for praying >.<

Thank you all for praying >.<

Oh dear. >>; Well, keep praying, insecurity isn't easily lost. I know, I still have it even after years of screaming to be free of it. ^_^ I know you can do it.

Not thankful? o.o for what? For him? for God? Interesting that he should be so upset about it. You should ask him why he gets upset when you share your feelings. It might help. *hugs* I'm praying girl!

[Makachop^^128]

Oh dear. >>; Well, keep praying, insecurity isn't easily lost. I know, I still have it even after years of screaming to be free of it. ^_^ I know you can do it.

Not thankful? o.o for what? For him? for God? Interesting that he should be so upset about it. You should ask him why he gets upset when you share your feelings. It might help. *hugs* I'm praying girl!
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He thinks when I'm upset that I'm not thankful for him.
Anyway Things have kinda gotten worse over the trip we went on >.< he has two new attitudes towards me that are really hard to deal with. I told him we should be praying and that I need to back up a bit and work on my self confidence and that we need to focus on God more. I'm gonna be praying for Gods will too >.< Thank you for all that prayed for this and the wedding the wedding went well I'll have photos up on DA soon of it.

[Atria35]

You know, this doesn't sound like a healthy relationship. He's very.... self-centered. Just make sure that you're listening to God and not your feelings.

[Makachop^^128]

You know, this doesn't sound like a healthy relationship. He's very.... self-centered. Just make sure that you're listening to God and not your feelings.

Yea >.< He is more and more :/ Its sad I miss how he was a ton >.< but anyway I'm praying for Gods will.

[K. Ayato]

I'm right there with Atria. From what you've shared, it doesn't seem that he truly cares about you as a person, especially if he's wanting you to change to fit his portrayal of the ideal girlfriend, and it's not healthy at all. I strongly urge you to take a step back and really take time to look at the big picture here. I understand your feelings and attachment to this guy are strong, but if he's only tearing you down and not building you up, it's not going to go well. Praying.

[Frodolives]

Makachop,

I'm going to tell you something that I feel every young person, boy or girl, who is aiming for God's will should hear:

If you take everything away, strip off the fake happiness you live day to day, throw away the anger and the fear, you find your true self...the "self" that is content with God. When you have reached a point in your life where you are content with God, and only God (and I say content, because the true meaning of the word is: 1. mentally or emotionally satisfied with things as they are & 2. assenting to or willing to accept circumstances, a proposed course of action, etc) and can find true happiness within Him, only then will you be able to love someone else, selflessly, unconditionally, because then it is God shinning through you and you will no longer have to fear yourself, or hurting others. Sure, people and feelings get hurt, but remember that pain makes us human - which is exactly what God created us to be! God bless, and know that you have a sister in Christ praying for you.

[Makachop^^128]

yes >.< i decided I'm gonna take a step back and just work on myself for a bit, like praying and reading the bible, I have self esteem problems and I think I need to work on that so I'm gonna be praying for Gods will on the relationship and work on my own problems. I told him the other day we both should be doing this, but he doesn't wanna pray for Gods will cause he's scared its not Gods will for us to be together....anyway please pray I can get through this >.<

Makachop,

I'm going to tell you something that I feel every young person, boy or girl, who is aiming for God's will should hear:

If you take everything away, strip off the fake happiness you live day to day, throw away the anger and the fear, you find your true self...the "self" that is content with God. When you have reached a point in your life where you are content with God, and only God (and I say content, because the true meaning of the word is: 1. mentally or emotionally satisfied with things as they are & 2. assenting to or willing to accept circumstances, a proposed course of action, etc) and can find true happiness within Him, only then will you be able to love someone else, selflessly, unconditionally, because then it is God shinning through you and you will no longer have to fear yourself, or hurting others. Sure, people and feelings get hurt, but remember that pain makes us human - which is exactly what God created us to be! God bless, and know that you have a sister in Christ praying for you.
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thank you >.< I needed this, I do need to work more on focusing on god more, I think while all this is going on its a god time to step back and focus on God so if My boyfriend and I work I can love better and if we don't, I'll be more loving anyway as a person.