I have some sort of neurological condition (not yet diagnosed.) Part of this condition is recurring migraines. I've had them off and on since I was a teenager. But they've gotten worse since all that hospital stuff in December.
On Tuesday this past week, I had a really bad flare-up of my migraine symptoms and sensitivity to light. It has continued and hasn't let up yet. Now it is going on a week. Because I've felt so terrible all weekend, I haven't gotten any schoolwork done and now I'm afraid to tell my professors --physical ailments aren't taken as excuses in grad school --I have to get my stuff done, period.
Also, because I haven't been feeling well, I haven't been reading my Bible. I've been making myself more vulnerable to temptation and have fallen into old habits and a long-time sin that I've struggled with off and on for years. And it's my fault because I didn't take the way out that God provided, but lingered too long. I know God's grace is sufficient for me, I just wish I could finally beat this thing once and for all. I'm tired of it being a part of my life --I hate it.
I know there is a reason God gave me this body. After all, in Mark 9 it states that the man born blind was born blind so that God's glory could be shown through him. So there is definitely a reason for me being born this way.
It's just that is still sucks to have a body that is broken. I see the things my friends are able to do physically that I can't (like run) and I long to be able to do those things. I hate that I can't get as much done in a day as I'd like --my energy gives out long before my list is complete.
But the worse thing is these headaches. I can deal with the physical limitations and find ways to do what I need to (and I have.) But these headaches and migraines make it so difficult to focus and think coherently. I am hoping and praying that medicine will be found that will work or that a cure can be found.
Please pray that my referral to the specialist in Houston goes through (been waiting on it for weeks with no word.) Please pray also that God will help me to maintain a hopeful and thankful spirit within me --and remember that He has a plan and that He is bigger than all of this --and His grace IS sufficient even in all of my weaknesses and/or failures.
Thank you.
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Hang in there, Sheenar 
