Selfish request.

[Sieg9986]

I feel really selfish posting a prayer request about something like this when so many other people out there have much bigger problems than I do. It's just that I've been stressed and a little disheartened lately.

I feel like after this summer, my world is either going to fall appart or be really great. I'm not sure how I'll react to all the changes I'm going to face in the comming months.

First off, my mom wants to move across the bay from where I live now (just to let you know how far I'm talking here, it's about 30-45 minutes away from where I live now) and that means I'll need to get a car to get to school in order to finish off my senior year at high school. I'll have to drive across the bay every morning, and while that might sound nice now because of the scenery, it's definitely very different from what I'm used to. Having a car sounds like a good thing also, but I'll need a job to be able to pay insurance on it. Which means I'll probably have to make some sacrifices as far as how much time i can spend at church with my friends. I don't really have a choice in this matter at all, and that upsets me because not only will I not be able to spend as much time with my friends during senior year, but (was working my way up to this) I'll be switching schools again and I'll have to adjust all over to the new school, right after I had adjusted to this one. See, this switching schools thing is really common in my school history. I've in total had to switch schools 10 times during my entire education; 6 times in elementary, then the switch to middle school, and 3 times in high school so far. Next school year, i'll have to switch again and I'm still nervous about doing it. Every time I switch I tend to lock myself up in a bubble and don't let anyone in for a while. So with the changing of schools, moving across the bay, and sacrificing time with my friends at church, I am going to be pretty alone next year.

I've been that way before and I couldn't stand it, I met some really great friends 2 years ago though and they worked on me and converted me into a Christian again. Now though, I may have to say good bye to that support because of all the changes happening and honestly I don't think I'm ready.

Not only that but being as this is my last year of high school and of being a kid pretty much, I am worried about my future. I want to be a graphics designer/3d modeler and work for Pixar or Universal or Disney, but the way things are looking now, I think that will be a path I also have to take alone. The school I want to go to is about 2 hours away from where I live and my friend who has up till now been planning on going to college with me thinks he is going to take a different course and stay a little more local.

I just remember so well back in freshman year when I met my 3 best friends in the world; Brad, Judd, and Kyle and how we wanted to start our own freelance web design company "Caffien Driven Web Design". I remember how real it seemed that our dreams could accomplish such things as we took our first jobs and made some sites for people in our church. Now it just seems like that's all falling appart as Kyle is heading off to Junior College ahead of us, and Brad (the one I wanted to go to college with) and Judd are taking their own paths.

Like I said, I feel really selfish for posting such a request for prayer, but I'm worried and stressed and I just need prayer.

[shooraijin]

What's selfish about that? It's a prayer request as valid as any other, and I'll keep you in prayer, too.

[Daiko-chan]

it's not selfish to say,
"I need help, I'm not sure of how I can deal with this"

that's actually good
humbling even

that one would admit such a thing
-I can see where you're coming from,
and I will pray...

-Daiko~
(pray for me too!)

[Sieg9986]

thank you

[Rogie]

Indeed, there's nothing selfish in asking others to pray for you. And I will be praying for you. Don't worry about being alone, because not only will God be there, I'm sure He'll send friends to you, as well.

[Uriah]

Indeed, it's not selfish to ask for help.

I will pray for you, and I have a few words of encouragement.

As for moving, I'v lived in the same house for all my life, so I can't really relate to that. But, I have been homeschooled since 4th grade, and never did see my friends every day, usually only once on a weekend, and at one point, not even that often, and it was indeed very hard for me. But, I wasnt saved then, and everything was pretty hard. I got some online friends, wich, if you choose them wisely, can be a great help. I see my friends more often now, and have more, we merged with another church, and the Lord sent me some new friends, just about as I became a christian. But God won't abandone you, he knows us better than anyone, and if we can't handle it, it is doubtful that he will allow it to happen, he's got it all figured out.

As for the future thing, I can totally relate to that, as I too have had and probably still do have worries about the future. I want to be an artist, and feel called to it, but I have no clue how it will work. I had my own plans for college, now I don't see how any college would work, so the best thing I can do is trust God. He has it under control. The best advice I can give, is what God's word says.

Psa 37:5 " Commit thy way unto the LORD; trust also in him; and he shall bring it to pass."

Commit youself and your ways to God, and trust in him, He'll make it happen.

[Sieg9986]

thank you Uriah

[Ashley]

Having changed schools a bit in my time too (as well as being the world's most stressed-out senior) I definately understand. I'll be praying as well.

I do have a bit of a suggestion--if you're planning to get a job for summer, start looking now. Jobs go quick in the summer because everyone wants one, and on the application you can state when you'll be able to work.

[Sieg9986]

Thanks for the advice Ashley, i'm pretty sure i'm going to work at a sandwhich shop just down the street till i move, of course then i'll need to find somewhere else to work, but having a car is definitely going to improve my chances of getting a job as i'll have a much larger working range.

I'll be praying for you as well, and anyone else in mine or a similar predicament...stress over the future is a dificult kind of stress to deal with as we have no idea what's going to happen

[glitch1501]

ill pray for you

[Sieg9986]

thank you

[Spiritsword]

I will pray.