Rewin (post: 1431437) wrote:
The only other "fear" I have is I hate being in a restaraunt and having my back to either the door or middle of the room, I need a wall, preferably a corner. Don't know why, but I do.
I have that, except... I suppose it's more a mild discomfort than a fear. I just prefer to be sitting where I can see everybody.
Also, I'm with Htom. I think I'd rather die in my seventies or eighties than live into my 90's or hundreds but lose my mind (or everybody I care about. You know, whichever). I went and hung out with some people at an old folks home a few times, and it was really depressing. There was this one lady who kept talking about how her husband and daughter had both died, and the rest of her family didn't care enough to visit (although she forgot things within five minutes, so even though I heard the story about 15 times, I'm not sure I believed that her family never visited her. I think maybe she just didn't remember). And then she told me to enjoy my youth, because once I got old there would be nothing left to live for.
And then this other lady who was over 100 years old kept talking about how she wished she'd chosen to have kids instead of pursuing her career.
Oh, and we went and visited this guy who was really influential in our college's history. He was okay, but his roommate kept saying, "I want to die..."
So now I'm afraid of getting really old and ending up lonely and despairing.
Umm... yeah, some people don't have depressing experiences hanging out at nursing homes, but... that was pretty despairifying.