Im trying to get over last year, this friday (the 21st) is going to be my birthday, and like last year, im getting into a depression again.
how ever im trying to look at it from the point of view a friend of mine gave me, and take this coming as a year to be successful. and that's one of the 2 things i wish to ask you guys to pray for me about. I need this next year to be a successful one. Im not feeling or thinking suicidal or anything, but i need something to live for. and i need some progress in my life so i dont feel that im living for nothing. i know that i should be living for God, but im having alot of trouble pulling that off. Im hoping that this year will be a year where i can pull that off. I think i know what i need to do, and that is, be successful business side, so i can focus on the kingdom. The other thing im having issues about, and i need some prayer for is with relationships. Its not that i feel abandoned, i just feel left out i think. My best friend is in texas at bible college, and my other best friend is either really busy or in some diffrent state/country cause of his internship. and i dont have to many friends out side of that. I have friends online, but they rarely talk to me, so im usually feeling very alone when i get home. I guess what i need is to learn how to be a better people person. a girlfriend would be kool too
I do want to say that generally im happy, and praise God for that. some times im to happy and almost get into car accidents cause im to busy screaming/head banging due to emery - walls
Sorry for the very bad writing structure. Writing has never been a forte of mine.
