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Postby chelle0227 » Sat Feb 23, 2008 10:46 am

okay I don't know what you would seriously call this, but....

Lately I have been on this kind of emotional Roller Coaster, and it's like I can be happy for a little while, and then be upset, mad, depressed the next. lately I've been questioning stuff I do.....and God has become one od the things that I started questioning. I feel like all the stuff I do to get to heaven, and closer to god isn't working at all. I feel like I'm just a god givin waste of time. I mean even sometimes I question if my friends are really my friends or not. I mean don't get me wrong I love all my friends like brothers and sisters, but sometimes I guess I just feel like things go on around me with out anyone even caring to notice if I'm in it or not. I sometimes feel left out of conversations, and just sometimes like I shouldn't even be on this earth.

I turn to my CAA family for advice and prayer, and help! I don't know where else to turn, I've tried talking to a few of my friends about this, and I still feel like my world is crashing, and there is nothing I can do. So CAA Family please I would really appreciate prayer, advice or something.

sorry if this confused any one. I'm a very confusing person.
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One night a man had a dream. He dreamed he was walking along the beach with the lord.

Across the sky flashed scenes from his life. For each scene he noticed two sets of foot prints in the sand: one belonging to him the other to the lord.

When the last scene of his life flashed before him, he looked back at the foot prints in the sand.

He noticed that name times along the path of his life there was only one set o footprints.

He also noticed that it was at the lowest and saddest times of his life.

This really bothered him and he questioned the lord about it:

"lord, you said once i decided to follow you, you'd walk with me all the way. But i have noticed during the most troublesome times in my life, there is only one set of foot prints. I dont understand why when i needed you most you would leave me."

The lord replied:

"My son, my precious child, I love you and would never leave you. During your times of trial and suffering, when you see only one set of footprints, it was then that i carried you."
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Postby Yahshua » Sat Feb 23, 2008 11:56 am

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Postby animewarrior » Sat Feb 23, 2008 4:06 pm

haha. :sweat: I know the feeling. I'll definitely keep you in my prayers. and remember even you are having doubts doesn't make the truth any less real.
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Postby Danderson » Sat Feb 23, 2008 5:52 pm

Don't worry...I'm a confusing person too....

U have my prayers...Remember that the devil doesn't want any of us to be close to our Creator, so he will attack as hard as he can.....But also that remember that our Savior already defeated him long ago.....
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Postby GhostontheNet » Sun Feb 24, 2008 2:31 pm

gamergirl2 (post: 1202208) wrote:Uhhh....Michelle, you don't consider me your friend now?O_o
I'm always with you most the time...considering I dont have EVERY class with you.
but I'll still pray cause I still think that we are friends even if you dont see it.
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I wouldn't take it personally. Whenever anyone is in these kinds of emotional states, they tend to be accompanied by feelings of abandonment by everyone surrounding them, including God and dear friends. To further complicate matters, we often seem to have a difficult time expressing difficult emotions or being understood when we do express them, which makes the sense of isolation deepen. None of this means that you have been rejected as a friend, just that dancergirl is going through a season in which she feels severed from all meaningful things.
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Postby chelle0227 » Sun Feb 24, 2008 3:13 pm

gamergirl2 (post: 1202208) wrote:Uhhh....Michelle, you don't consider me your friend now?O_o
I'm always with you most the time...considering I dont have EVERY class with you.
but I'll still pray cause I still think that we are friends even if you dont see it.
otay.
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Kay-chan don't take it personally....it doesn't mean that you did anything.

but just saying thanks for the prayers and advice. I'm still trying to work through what ever is going totally wrong, i'll update again later possibly.
Footprints in the sand by Carolyn Joyce Carty

One night a man had a dream. He dreamed he was walking along the beach with the lord.

Across the sky flashed scenes from his life. For each scene he noticed two sets of foot prints in the sand: one belonging to him the other to the lord.

When the last scene of his life flashed before him, he looked back at the foot prints in the sand.

He noticed that name times along the path of his life there was only one set o footprints.

He also noticed that it was at the lowest and saddest times of his life.

This really bothered him and he questioned the lord about it:

"lord, you said once i decided to follow you, you'd walk with me all the way. But i have noticed during the most troublesome times in my life, there is only one set of foot prints. I dont understand why when i needed you most you would leave me."

The lord replied:

"My son, my precious child, I love you and would never leave you. During your times of trial and suffering, when you see only one set of footprints, it was then that i carried you."
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Postby Sparx00 » Sun Feb 24, 2008 5:02 pm

I'm gonna be praying for you Michelle. Remember that God will give you the answers you seek. So don't worry. :thumb:
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Postby chelle0227 » Thu Feb 28, 2008 9:30 pm

okay today I hit a low. I feel like I have nothing to live for at the moment
my mom continues to jump on my case about every little thing that isn't right......plus stress for school, dance and work. I feel like God has done nothing to help....feel like he's just ignoring me.....I thought things were getting better, but tonight I think i finally sunk lower.......i had a few suicidal thoughts a little while ago, and my bf advised against it, and it helped to know that someone was caring enough for me to advise me against it. well I'm gonna try and get to sleep now.....thanks for your prayers...I'm really really in need of them right now. thanks. :?:
Footprints in the sand by Carolyn Joyce Carty

One night a man had a dream. He dreamed he was walking along the beach with the lord.

Across the sky flashed scenes from his life. For each scene he noticed two sets of foot prints in the sand: one belonging to him the other to the lord.

When the last scene of his life flashed before him, he looked back at the foot prints in the sand.

He noticed that name times along the path of his life there was only one set o footprints.

He also noticed that it was at the lowest and saddest times of his life.

This really bothered him and he questioned the lord about it:

"lord, you said once i decided to follow you, you'd walk with me all the way. But i have noticed during the most troublesome times in my life, there is only one set of foot prints. I dont understand why when i needed you most you would leave me."

The lord replied:

"My son, my precious child, I love you and would never leave you. During your times of trial and suffering, when you see only one set of footprints, it was then that i carried you."
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Postby Sakaki Onsei » Fri Feb 29, 2008 3:14 am

I'll be praying for you, Michi-san.

Just keep your head high, and roll with the punches. *huggle*
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Postby freerock1 » Fri Feb 29, 2008 8:59 am

Praying for you, my sister. Be encouraged. Psalm 31:24 says,
"Be of good courage,
And He shall strengthen your heart,
All you who hope in the LORD."
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Postby sango_gal0516 » Fri Feb 29, 2008 7:59 pm

Kay-chan's right Mite. You do have us no matter what. I don't have as many problems as you and Kayla but that doesn't mean I can't help even if it's just listening. Just talk to us. AND NO MORE SUICIDAL THOUGHTS, (cause if you did comit siucide I would bring you back from the dead to kill you myself.JK.) Please just talk to us no matter the problem. Love Ya.
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Postby chelle0227 » Fri Mar 07, 2008 5:14 pm

okay...
something happened yesterday,
and i really don't want to go into any details,
but it really got me down,
so I'm kind of getting back into more depressional stages,
and I really hate it, and I just want out of this emotional rollercoaster
Please I need prayer, and maybe some advice, on how i can get my self out of this depressional stage.....please and thank you, and for those who have been praying thank you, it is appreciated.
Footprints in the sand by Carolyn Joyce Carty

One night a man had a dream. He dreamed he was walking along the beach with the lord.

Across the sky flashed scenes from his life. For each scene he noticed two sets of foot prints in the sand: one belonging to him the other to the lord.

When the last scene of his life flashed before him, he looked back at the foot prints in the sand.

He noticed that name times along the path of his life there was only one set o footprints.

He also noticed that it was at the lowest and saddest times of his life.

This really bothered him and he questioned the lord about it:

"lord, you said once i decided to follow you, you'd walk with me all the way. But i have noticed during the most troublesome times in my life, there is only one set of foot prints. I dont understand why when i needed you most you would leave me."

The lord replied:

"My son, my precious child, I love you and would never leave you. During your times of trial and suffering, when you see only one set of footprints, it was then that i carried you."
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Postby K. Ayato » Fri Mar 07, 2008 5:50 pm

Praying, hon. You can hit me up any time if you need to get it out.
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Postby chelle0227 » Tue Mar 11, 2008 8:33 pm

Has anyone here hurt someone they love? well then you know exactly how I feel at the moment. I told my Boyfriend, that me and him have been together for almost 3 months now, and I still had feelings for one of my other friends, and I told my boyfriend this, because we said that trust and honesty was the most important thing to us in a relationship. And everytime he asked me if I still had feelings for the dude and I would deny it, and today I told him that I still did have feelings for the dude. And I hurt him, and I can tell everytime he looks at me, I see how upset he is, and how much I have hurt him, and I feel really really really horrible. I may have just ruined the best relationship.....and I talked this all over with my god mother, and she made me see how things really are, and not how I wish they would be. And now I'm thinking that me and robert might need some space so I can figure out how i feel.....but I still love him....but my feelings for someone else is making it really hard for me to be the girlfriend he should deserve. T_T Please I really really really need advice right now!:?: I feel like I've totally crushed him. If you know how I feel then please please please please help me!
Footprints in the sand by Carolyn Joyce Carty

One night a man had a dream. He dreamed he was walking along the beach with the lord.

Across the sky flashed scenes from his life. For each scene he noticed two sets of foot prints in the sand: one belonging to him the other to the lord.

When the last scene of his life flashed before him, he looked back at the foot prints in the sand.

He noticed that name times along the path of his life there was only one set o footprints.

He also noticed that it was at the lowest and saddest times of his life.

This really bothered him and he questioned the lord about it:

"lord, you said once i decided to follow you, you'd walk with me all the way. But i have noticed during the most troublesome times in my life, there is only one set of foot prints. I dont understand why when i needed you most you would leave me."

The lord replied:

"My son, my precious child, I love you and would never leave you. During your times of trial and suffering, when you see only one set of footprints, it was then that i carried you."
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Postby SnEptUne » Tue Mar 11, 2008 9:00 pm

dancergirl0227 (post: 1206751) wrote:Has anyone here hurt someone they love? well then you know exactly how I feel at the moment. I told my Boyfriend, that me and him have been together for almost 3 months now, and I still had feelings for one of my other friends, and I told my boyfriend this, because we said that trust and honesty was the most important thing to us in a relationship. And everytime he asked me if I still had feelings for the dude and I would deny it, and today I told him that I still did have feelings for the dude. And I hurt him, and I can tell everytime he looks at me, I see how upset he is, and how much I have hurt him, and I feel really really really horrible. I may have just ruined the best relationship.....and I talked this all over with my god mother, and she made me see how things really are, and not how I wish they would be. And now I'm thinking that me and robert might need some space so I can figure out how i feel.....but I still love him....but my feelings for someone else is making it really hard for me to be the girlfriend he should deserve. T_T Please I really really really need advice right now!:?: I feel like I've totally crushed him. If you know how I feel then please please please please help me!


Have you apologize to your boyfriend? I believe being truthful is very important, even though it may hurt someone. It is better than lying for the rest of your life. In this case, you lied about your feeling, which is probably why it makes the situation worse. But what is done is already done, I can only hope that your boyfriend can understand that being a boyfriend doesn't meant he has to be the number one.
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Postby Mithrandir » Tue Mar 11, 2008 9:14 pm

This might sound a little harsh, but please take a minute and think honestly about your emotional state right this second. Can you think rationally about things right now? If so, I might be able to offer a little consolation...

You are at a point in your life where your brain is literally drowning in weird emotion inducing hormones. Have you just been sitting there, or just woken up, and all of the sudden BAM! - you started crying and feeling horrible and having NO IDEA WHY? Most everyone goes through that. I wish I could tell you there's a quick simple cure, but there's only one cure, really: Wait. You have to be patient and let your body finish growing up. I know it's hard, and it's NO FUN AT ALL, but there *is* a light at the end of the tunnel. The trick is keeping busy for a year or two.

I know it seems like EVERYTHING is changing right now, but in actuality the thing that is changing is YOU. You'll be happy when it's over, but it's really hard when you're going through it. Do you feel like everything is just NOT QUITE RIGHT? It's because you can't *feel* correctly at this point in time.

Please know that there are lots of people here who love you and are praying for you, OK? If you find yourself feeling suicidal, please make a point to talk to someone about it.

I know hearing this is hard, and I'm not really very good at making things easier to hear, but I hope it helps...
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Postby chelle0227 » Wed Mar 12, 2008 3:04 pm

finally some good news...

Well I talked to my boyfriend today about yesterday, and he said he didn't really care if I liked someone else. and we are still together for now. which makes me happy.

Also I seem to be getting out of my depression a little I've been trying to read my bible, and praying.

I'm still scared that my boyfriend is really hurt by me liking him, and someone else. I mean don't get me wrong I love my boyfriend. but I also like someone else too

so I guess I'm taking life one day at a time, for what else can I do?

Okay well just thought I would update.
Footprints in the sand by Carolyn Joyce Carty

One night a man had a dream. He dreamed he was walking along the beach with the lord.

Across the sky flashed scenes from his life. For each scene he noticed two sets of foot prints in the sand: one belonging to him the other to the lord.

When the last scene of his life flashed before him, he looked back at the foot prints in the sand.

He noticed that name times along the path of his life there was only one set o footprints.

He also noticed that it was at the lowest and saddest times of his life.

This really bothered him and he questioned the lord about it:

"lord, you said once i decided to follow you, you'd walk with me all the way. But i have noticed during the most troublesome times in my life, there is only one set of foot prints. I dont understand why when i needed you most you would leave me."

The lord replied:

"My son, my precious child, I love you and would never leave you. During your times of trial and suffering, when you see only one set of footprints, it was then that i carried you."
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Postby Tsukuyomi » Thu Mar 13, 2008 12:42 pm

Now that you guys are still together.. what next? You keep your feelings bottled up inside and hopes they go away? Living life one day at a time isn't bad, but you shouldn't ignore what you're feeling. It'll only cause more pain and greater depression. Just make sure to take care of it before it gets out of hand ok ^_^
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Postby chelle0227 » Wed Mar 19, 2008 7:54 pm

okay quick update...gonna try and keep this short.

I'm feeling a little better, I've been trying to read my bible more....haven't had much time to read much though...but I just want some small prayers for some tests that will be happening this weekend...really don't want to go into detail though...so can you just pray that everything turns out okay with these tests. please and thank you.
Footprints in the sand by Carolyn Joyce Carty

One night a man had a dream. He dreamed he was walking along the beach with the lord.

Across the sky flashed scenes from his life. For each scene he noticed two sets of foot prints in the sand: one belonging to him the other to the lord.

When the last scene of his life flashed before him, he looked back at the foot prints in the sand.

He noticed that name times along the path of his life there was only one set o footprints.

He also noticed that it was at the lowest and saddest times of his life.

This really bothered him and he questioned the lord about it:

"lord, you said once i decided to follow you, you'd walk with me all the way. But i have noticed during the most troublesome times in my life, there is only one set of foot prints. I dont understand why when i needed you most you would leave me."

The lord replied:

"My son, my precious child, I love you and would never leave you. During your times of trial and suffering, when you see only one set of footprints, it was then that i carried you."
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Postby Tsukuyomi » Wed Mar 19, 2008 8:51 pm

Of course I will :) Just remember that everything will be fine ^^
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Postby Sohma » Wed Mar 19, 2008 9:35 pm

Okies! Will do! =)
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Postby Saint Kevin » Sat Mar 22, 2008 4:13 am

Mith makes a good point. There is a time in probably almost everyone's high school experience when they get really depressed, or have intense moods.

When I was in high school, I struggled with heavy depression, insomnia, and confusion with life. Things did stabilize though, and the biggest factor in that was time, and God-given maturity.

I'd advise you to seek wisdom from the word of God on one hand, and on the other, surround yourself with wise and Godly older people that you trust talking about anything with. If you don't have those kind of people in your life now, find some in your church or family - their perspective will come in real handy later.

Also, find friends that you can trust who know the Lord. Know that they won't be perfect, (and that it's likely you'll each hurt or offend each other in some way given enough time), but God definitely uses his sons and daughters to share each other's burdens, and make life easier (life is hard enough).

I'll be praying for you, and for those in this thread that are believers that know you in real-life. God loves you, and we do too.

Seek first the kingdom of God and his righteousness - the younger you can learn to do this - the better life will go for you - in many, many ways (not the least of which is that you won't have to experience nearly as much pain or regret).
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Postby chelle0227 » Sun Mar 23, 2008 11:57 am

well things have improved a great deal lately. thanks for all your prayers and advice

The tests that went on this weekend went good...I almost backed out out of it though, but I'm glad I didn't. but thank you for your prayers, and advice my CAA family. It means alot to me to know that people care.

Things have been improving, and now I'm trying to read my bible more, and I went to church this morning for the first time in months. So thank you again. ^_^
Footprints in the sand by Carolyn Joyce Carty

One night a man had a dream. He dreamed he was walking along the beach with the lord.

Across the sky flashed scenes from his life. For each scene he noticed two sets of foot prints in the sand: one belonging to him the other to the lord.

When the last scene of his life flashed before him, he looked back at the foot prints in the sand.

He noticed that name times along the path of his life there was only one set o footprints.

He also noticed that it was at the lowest and saddest times of his life.

This really bothered him and he questioned the lord about it:

"lord, you said once i decided to follow you, you'd walk with me all the way. But i have noticed during the most troublesome times in my life, there is only one set of foot prints. I dont understand why when i needed you most you would leave me."

The lord replied:

"My son, my precious child, I love you and would never leave you. During your times of trial and suffering, when you see only one set of footprints, it was then that i carried you."
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