General Depression Prayer Thread

[HiddenWoodchuck]

I haven't been on the forums lately, but I am still praying for all of you. I have been having problems here and there and have been worried about things... which in turn brings on sadness, but I am thankful that I have not fallen back into depression so far. God is working in my life, but I place so many roadblocks, that sometimes I get so worried that I will never do what it is I am suppose to.

[Kunoichi]

You will Hidden. God always helps us against ourselves, cuz we are our own biggest roadblock. *smiles God's with you.


Everything is going better guys!

My boyfriend is cool with everything ^_^ Praise God

[HiddenWoodchuck]

I'm glad to hear things are better! Church today was really inspiring, the message hit pretty close to home.

[Slytherine]

I kinda want to kill myself on a regular basis. But I'm not depressed, I'm bored.

How SCREWED UP is THAT folks?

Well, ok, I am always a little depressed. But in our society, how is it possible NOT to want to off yourself at least a few times? Oh wait...*looks around* Nope, just me. OH WELL. It's not like I'm dead yet.

WOW! What is WRONG with me tonite? I have NO clue. I think I might just go to bed before I sound anymore suicidal.

I'm not suicidal though. If I wanted to actually kill myself, I would be dead by now.

Ok, that's it *yanks leash* I am going to bed and coming back on here tomorrow to apologize for my weird emo-ness.

<3 Slytherine

[Bobtheduck]

I'm kind of feeling the worst I've felt in a long time... Not just depressed, but really really angry... And it's not like my normal anger that wears off, but it just simmers... I'm frustrated with my life and I want things to change, and if they don't, I... I just want them to change. I honestly, truly hate my life as it is right now.

Where most of my friends are getting drowned, I'm having little drops of water dropped on my forehead... Over... And over... and over... That's the way I feel. I'm getting mediocred to death.

I'm lonely and tired of getting rejected and tired of my own lack of self control...

Oh, and I'll probably throw up if one more girl calls me sweet, but that just goes back to the rejection thing. I want a girl that fits me and that I fit, that won't turn me down because of my current spiritual state, but will encourage me to get closer to God... One who will read my stories and reads enough to have something constructive to say about them. One who isn't creeped out by a lonely 25 year old guy who really needs a girl. One who aligns with me morally and is willing to go with me wherever God leads us, and I'm thinking Japan is part of that, but I'm not absolutely sure anymore. I'm tired of all the girls praying so desperately for me to find someone because they don't want to be that someone, and the idea makes them sick... But... I want to find that someone, ya know? Someone who can accept me as I am and push me to be better at the same time. And, yeah, someone who doesn't just want a platonic relationship.

I want to know exactly what God wants for me, and know that I haven't gone too far to go back or anything. I want self control and discipline so I can do beneficial things and build my demo reel and a portfolio, and for my skills to improve, or maybe just to find out what I should really be doing so I won't waste time in school for the wrong thing anymore, since I'm a mediocre sketcher and can't paint worth crap and reached a plateau with my modeling... I doubt that's really gonna change in a year of school, but I'd like it to, if it was possible...

But, yeah, I'm really depressed and really really angry at everything around me... I want things to change for the better for once.

[Kunoichi]

Bob and Slytherine,

I know that this situation is really ticking you off to the max right now and me saying "Well have patience," isn't going to do much so I'm not going to say that.

I know that feeling unwanted seems like God is just smacking you in the face, when you really really really want that love. One thing though, I don't think its wierd for a 25 year old guy to not have a girl and really desire a real relationship with one. Yea, frustrating more when that person that they think is for them says "Aww your so sweet but your not for me". Had similiar experiences, but well with guys obviously.

Here is the thing in my little experience of life.

One thing is when we are searching so hard to find that person, we never will. Why? Cuz that's the main focus. Yea it may sound cheesy to say, God should be your focus. But well its true.

I've suffered from depression and suicide for over seven years, alot of it revolved around rejection from family, friends and people I wanted to be close to.

Sometimes when you have nothing, and I mean nothing: God is the answer. Because then we start to learn that we truly are on this world to take hard hits. And I mean gut wrenching, want to jump off the cliff hard hits. We aren't here in life to go through nice things. God puts them there for our benefit. Life is supposed to be hard.

It took me a long, long time to learn that. Cuz if it wasn't hard, then well I would never grow and if I dont' grow, how is God supposed to use me?

I think Bob, in my own humble opinion, well I think you may just be trying too darn hard. Sounds wacky right? Maybe it would be ok to just relax.

I know the whole, I don't know what God wants me to do thing too. Switched my major about 7 to 8 times lol But it was staring me in the face, I just thought I had a better idea.

SOmetimes God allows life, see that : allows not makes, it hard because well, it points us to Him and gives us the oppurtunity to grow.

I know that this stuff, well it amy tick you off more and be of no assistance or hopefully it will help, if only for a little bit.

Personally, these are things that I have wanted to say for a while so at least I was able to get it off my chest too.

May God bless you both and keep you safe,

Kunoichi

[Blitzkrieg1701]

To Slytherine: Man, if I had a nickle for every time I emo-ed without even fully understanding... But hey, it's better to be honest about it with folks who care than to just bottle it up, ya know?

To Bob: Dude, you and me BOTH. I wish I could say something wise and insightful regarding the females, but seeing that I'm pretty constantly bumed out over the EXACT same reason as you, I'll just say that I'm praying from experience.

To Kunoichi: Well said, friend!

[Slytherine]

Yeah I guess so. I have a tendency to cut sentences into myself when I bottle up my emotions. It's nice to talk about depressing things without people threathing to lock you up in an insane asylum. Really nice, actually.

<3 Blitzkrieg1701

~Slytherine

[animewarrior]

Warning: this post may be extremely long but I really feel like I need to get this out in type. There's something comforting in knowing that other ppl have the same probs (kinda) that you do.... now...on to the outpouring of emotion and random rant....

1) I was really depressed for about 9 months (no kidding) after my very first bf broke up with me... now I know to some this may seem very shallow and worthless over getting depressed over...and w/e im tired of keeping this inside...every1 was like lighten up there's other guys out there.. but for a long time i thought he was the only one who could ever make me happy..

he was the only guy to call me beautiful other than my dad.... that still hurts to this day.. we dated steady for 3 months...My parents didn't approve but I was stubborn.... luckily we never kissed due to an overprotective mother of mine.. blush* im actually kind of glad because my first kiss is going to the guy I marry... I hope... *sigh if I ever meet him that is*

then he called me.. He said it was "distance" and we needed to break up over it. He lived half an hour away and neither of us had a driver's license so getting to see each other was hard... about 3 months later after crying and wishing it wasn't that way and we could be together forever he told me on msn that it was actually his friends that had pressured him to break up with me... they thought I wasn't pretty enough and he was better than me... that really hurt that he chose his friend's opinion over me....

and so I was depressed some more... dances were the worst... and then at a Christian Conference thing he said he still loved me and wanted to go back out with me... I was hesistant at first but then I accepted... and two days later he said he'd thought it over and I was just too serious about it ....


* G2G continue this later*

[Sheenar]

I will definitely pray for you AnimeWarrior. May God be your strength.

[Slytherine]

Anime Warrior, I can kinda relate. Except that I gotmy first kiss at age six. And my first "real" kiss at age 10. And that I was [and sickly, still am] In love with this guy Matt. He's 2 years older then me, and sexually active. And on top of that, he only dates pretty sluts. But for some reason I still want him. I have wanted him since I was 10 years old. I dated his cousin, because that's as close to dating him as I could get. And the reason I started working out and dieting is so I can get pretty and thin enough for him to want me.

So believe me when I tell you it is COMPLETELY normal to pine after someone you can't have, or lost, for months, even years. My prayers are with you. Maybe someday we will both get over our difficulties with the would-be guys in our life. I dunno.

~Slytherine

[Blitzkrieg1701]

Well, as long as we're all getting into our matters of the heart... anyone remember the girl woes I was bent out of shape over a few months ago? Well, to tell the truth, I still haven't gotten over it. I'm working hard to respect her feelings and not try and push her into a relationship she doesn't want, and frankly, this is proving all the more that I'm no where near ready for a serious relationship either. But still... I can't stop feeling this way about her and just can't imagine feeling this way about anyone else *cue sappy teenage love song* I know, I know, but I'm sure this linegring frusteration has contributed greatly to my most recent bout of depression.

So... um, yeah. That's my sad tale for now. I'll be praying for all the others

[animewarrior]

thanks Slytherine & Sheenar.... its helpful to know ppl pray for me and have the same situations (kinda)

[Okami]

See: http://www.christiananime.net/showpost.php?p=1188504&postcount=328
(I really need a better way to tie these threads together.... XD)

Happy New Year GDPT. Let's go strong!

[Blitzkrieg1701]

Indeed! God is GOOD!!! Let's always remember!!!

Actually, in the spirit of the new year, God has granted me some epiphanies about the stuff that's been depressing me so much the past few months. Going into detail would take up WAY too much space, so let me just say that there are a number of long-overdue changes in my life that I can't put off any longer. Please pray that I actually have the faith and patience to see them through!

[K. Ayato]

Thought I'd share this with you. It's my favorite song by the band Lifehouse, and it's called "Storm".

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=6o-OJWINPpE

[Sheenar]

I was kind of depressed for a while about having trouble sleeping b/c of my mouth and over stress about money, waiting to hear back from my orthopedist, etc.
But I must say that I'm feeling much better now. I slept for 10 hours last night after being up until 4 am the night before. And I finally heard from my orthopedist about my ankle surgery, but I'll wait until I have a confirmed surgery date to say anything about that. So things are finally coming together and are looking more hopeful. Praise God!

[Kamille]

Still praying for everyone on this thread, and site, and world.

Also please help me pray for my family's salvation. To date, I am the only one in my immediate family who is saved. But I have faith that this will change.

One more request. My brother has signs of depression and I occasionally think about telling him about my dark past and how I came to find the Lord. But he's always had a knack of following in my footsteps and I never, never want him to go down the suicidal path I went down. I mean, I never want anyone to go through what I went through let alone my only brother. Please join me in prayer over this matter - should I give my brother a general idea of how I found Christ or should I tell him every detail? This may seem frivolous, but it's kinda scary to me.

[K. Ayato]

I would suggest giving him the general picture. If he does ask for details, proceed at your own discretion. What I mean by that is, give him enough detail so he gets a better understanding but at the same time don't give too much that he starts getting ideas.

[Blitzkrieg1701]

So, I'm still really up and down a lot right now. All in all, things are probably getting better, but this is around the point where I usually get frustrated with something and end up in a bad way again. So, I'd appreciate prayers that the cycle doesn't continue this time.

[Kamille]

So, I'm still really up and down a lot right now. All in all, things are probably getting better, but this is around the point where I usually get frustrated with something and end up in a bad way again. So, I'd appreciate prayers that the cycle doesn't continue this time.

I will. And I thank God for you.

[Blitzkrieg1701]

Thanks a lot. True to form, I'm struggling with various frustrations, but it is better than it's been in the past. Yay!

[Sheenar]

Hang in there, Blitz. God is with you. He is definitely working in your life. Thanks for your encouragement.

[SnEptUne]

I am getting depressed again. I don't even know why, maybe it is because I have been reading a novel about happy family? What a long life.

[Sheenar]

I'm doing mostly ok --just starting to feel a bit depressed at the thought of being in a wheelchair for 6 weeks (while recovering from my surgery on Monday) --and struggling to get to classes. It's just that, being a disabled individual, I value my mobility and being able to get where I need to very highly. I'll just have a harder time getting around for a while. Praise God it's only for 6 weeks.

Maybe I'll finally learn to empathize more through this. It's going to be "fun" when it rains...

Please pray that I will think positively about this and that I don't throw pity parties...it could be a lot worse and in the end, this is a small thing to put up with to be able to walk better in the end.

[Kamille]

I am getting depressed again. I don't even know why, maybe it is because I have been reading a novel about happy family? What a long life.

I know what you mean. Things like that used to set me down a dark path as well. It is a symptom of being in a fragile emotional state. And because of that, I feel there is very little advice I can give you to make you feel better, but I will pray that you will persevere in Christ, which I believe is better than advice anyway.

Also,
Praying for you Sheenar. Thanks for your optimism.

[Blitzkrieg1701]

I can sympathize with fragile emotional states, I've been in one all week. I really need prayer right now, guys. I've been kind of drying up spiritually...

[Reba]

Okay, I can't get over being depressed... It's been over a week... Like three I'm keep the issues to myself.
So please, Pray.

[SnEptUne]

I know what you mean. Things like that used to set me down a dark path as well. It is a symptom of being in a fragile emotional state. And because of that, I feel there is very little advice I can give you to make you feel better, but I will pray that you will persevere in Christ, which I believe is better than advice anyway.

Also,
Praying for you Sheenar. Thanks for your optimism.

Thanks. I am doing better today after finishing a few projects, but I am getting dizzy just from learning Japanese with my pathetic head. >_<

[Kamille]

Sorry for the late reply, but I'm praying for you Blitz.

Also I thank God that you're doing a bit better SnEptUne, though I pray the feeling lasted longer than a day. Thanks for your reply. Arigato (I'm probably butchering that).

God bless you all.