General Depression Prayer Thread

[Blitzkrieg1701]

I really need some prayer, guys. This has been a lousy, LOUSY week emotionally, and my spiritual walk has suffered pretty severely for it.

[Kamille]

I feel kinda guilty for not posting in a long time (four months of overtime takes a lot out of you), but I'm praying in the Spirit for everyone on this thread (and site). My soul hurts when I read some posts, leaps when I read others, but in the end I ask for God to give us all abundant blessings, healing, and illumination into His Word.

On another note, two months from now I'll finally be coming off of antidepressants after taking them for six years. Please pray for me. Although I am not worried about sliding back into depression and instead concentrating on the Kingdom of God, I need all the blessings I can get. We all do. I'm also having some pretty rough financial difficulties. I'm not worried, but I'm praying for this aspect of my life as well. If you are willing, please pray with me.

[Okami]

Oh, and I forgot to add to my last post...even though this probably belongs more at the GLPT...*rubs the back of her head and ruffles her short hair*

After I was finished, I flipped through one of my Bibles and ended up turning to a page where only one verse was highlighted, in pink. It was just within the past week that I'd highlighted it, with how fresh, bold, and bright it stood out against the white.

2 Timothy 2:22. A verse I've been well aquainted with in recent months, but never really let sink in or tried to live by.

"Run from anything that stimulates youthful lusts. Instead, pursue righteous living, faithfulness, love, and peace. Enjoy the companionship of those who call on the Lord with pure hearts."

Extra, extra, extra emphasis on 'stimulates'. It never hit me before, but now it has. What does masturbation do? It stimulates youthful lust. God is definately telling me to get away from this. And this time, I need to follow through with my all.


Hopefully in turning away, it'll help the depression lessen as well. Or, so I'm praying. I need to live free ;__;

[Kunoichi]

Cheering you on Okami.

Okay guys i know I haven't posted in a while *sorry's ^_^;;;

Well got off the anti depressants - making me worse suicidal then I was already...doing alright emotionally, ups and downs but i'm not suicidal which is a plus (was for a bout eight years). Thinking about just trying to keep going and actually need prayer that I will just enjoy life. Funny, but I don't do that alot. I'm afraid to cuz then I might slip back into depression. Revolving circle.

Thanks for the prayer guys ^_^

[K. Ayato]

There's no harm in wanting to enjoy life. You have my prayers. Keep in mind that you shouldn't have to fake it or stick on a smile like a mask. Not everyone enjoys life the exact same way .

[Sheenar]

I'm still feeling kind of depressed. I just want to lie down and stay there for a while. I want to have a good cry, but I'm afraid my migraine will come back if I do. I have to do my paper. It's already a day late. I just don't want to. I want to give up on it.
I just really need the upcoming Christmas break physically, psychologically, and spiritually. A nice retreat and time to rest and recover.
Please pray that I'll make it through this last week and have sanity of mind through it all. This time of semester always makes me stressed out and depressed.

By the way, like I said before, sounds like God is working Okami!!!:grin:

[Sheenar]

Wedding Dress by Derek Webb
if you could love me as a wife
and for my wedding gift, your life
should that be all i’ll ever need
or is there more i’m looking for

and should i read between the lines
and look for blessings in disguise
to make me handsome, rich, and wise
is that really what you want

(chorus)
i am a whore i do confess
but i put you on just like a wedding dress
and i run down the aisle
i’m a prodigal with no way home
but i put you on just like a ring of gold
and i run down the aisle to you

so could you love this ******* child
though i don’t trust you to provide
with one hand in a pot of gold
and with the other in your side
i am so easily satisfied
by the call of lovers less wild
that i would take a little cash
over your very flesh and blood

(chorus)

because money cannot buy
a husband’s jealous eye
when you have knowingly deceived his wife


An awesome and convicting song. I often chase after things other than God --things that cannot possibly satisfy like He can.

Hmmm...I wonder why it ** out the word in the song. It's not a bad word. It's an illegitimate child --the song is talking about him being an illegitimate son of God --

[Kunoichi]

OKay need more prayer...I haven't gotten any restful sleep for the last two weeks.....I keep dreaming hetic dreams...and now it is starting to affect me

I have literally prolly tried everything: Prayer, not eating right before bed, hot tea, hot chocolate, meditation, muscle relaxation, massage etc.

I really need prayer, I think this is Satan's way of making me break down - I work 70 to 80 hours a week to boot so I need all the sleep, restful sleep I can get. HELP!

[Kamille]

I've been reading 1 John for a project I'm doing and I hope you don't mind if I share a word of encouragement with you (though I guess it doesn't matter, I'm going to do it anyway:)). In 1 John 3:21, the words "confidence before God" really jumped out at me. John says that if our hearts do not condemn us we have confidence before God and receive from him anything we ask because we obey His commands and do what pleases Him. That really stood out for me because during the darkest time in my life I had no confidence before God. That's like the essence of low self-esteem. So if you just read 1 John 3:21 you might get even more depressed, unless you read 1 John 3:18-20. To paraphrase, John writes that if we love each other in actions and in truth we know that we belong to the truth and can set our hearts at rest in His presence whenever our hearts condemn us.

I was excited when I read this not only because it showed me what to do in times when I have no confidence, but also it was almost like John saying I know what you're going through - here's something that'll help.

I apologize if you all have heard these verses a thousand times already. It was just the first time I've looked at them with respect to this thread.

[Denimcat]

OKay need more prayer...I haven't gotten any restful sleep for the last two weeks.....I keep dreaming hetic dreams...and now it is starting to affect me

I have literally prolly tried everything: Prayer, not eating right before bed, hot tea, hot chocolate, meditation, muscle relaxation, massage etc.

I really need prayer, I think this is Satan's way of making me break down - I work 70 to 80 hours a week to boot so I need all the sleep, restful sleep I can get. HELP!

When I can't sleep, I try reading, writing, drawing, etc - anything that'll totally wear out my eyes in the middle of the night. Worth a shot.

Hope you can get some good rest soon. Praying for you.

[Kunoichi]

I am soo tired..but I can't sleep...The dreams come no matter what! Trust me: Falling asleep isn't the issue, I can fall asleep instantly but it is because I dream that I recieve no rest

[K. Ayato]

Do you think there's a link between what's running around in circles in your mind as you're awake and what crops up in your dreams? I'm no expert, but I've heard that if you continue ruminating over some thought as you're trying to sleep, it can pop up in your dreams. This may or may not be the case in your experiencing lack of sleep, but it is something to think about.

[Okami]

I understand the restless sleep due to dreams, Kun. There are night when I wake in pure terror and cold sweats from the thoughts and things that have entered while asleep.

The best thing I could possibly think to say right now, even though it's the obvious....trust and pray, that God would remove the restlessness of your sleep and everything that comes with it.




[SIZE="1"]Count it pure joy when the world comes crashing,
hold your head up and keep on dancing...[/SIZE]

[SP1]

Mystical things aside, frequenty dreams are just your brain offloading things stuffed into it during the day. A chance for the waves in the pond to die down, as it were. I was told many years ago that a common side effect of people coming off of sleep aids is that they have a lot of nightmares. Seems like "intense" dreams (aka, nightmares) happen when your brain has lots of unloading to do. Apparently, sleep aids (and, I assume, some mood altering drugs) limit the dream state, so when "normal" sleep comes, your brain takes advantage and it seems like your dream life is freaking out. The good knews is that this will eventually work itself out.

Avoid trying to take sleep medication to fix this, since that just doesn't fix the core problem. Praying for restfulness.

[Sheenar]

Today was a restful and fun day. Just what I needed.
I went with a friend and her mom to the mall. Pebbles and I rode the carousel (her first time --I think she had fun!) and had a nice day of just walking leisurely and looking in stores. I bought an aromatherapy sheep (yes, a sheep) at Bed Bath and Beyond. It has lavender in it and is supposed to help you sleep. (Maybe worth a try, Kun?)
We ate at the Cheesecake Factory too.

After all the stress of this past week (and semester) this was just what I needed --to not think of school or finals or anything for a day. It was good.
Well, good night everyone. I hope you have pleasant dreams and good rest Kun.

[Okami]

Today was, overall, good. At church I talked to my friend Kayla for a few minutes while in greeting when she asked me "So how have you been doing?" I replied "I backslid....last week." while glancing at my sleeves. She replied "What?" (More in, I don't think she heard me, not in disbelief that I'd done it again) so I pulled up my sleeve a little, just to show the first few scars on my left arm. So she asked me if I was still getting additional counseling and I said I was, once every week and everything. She then said she'd continue prayer when we had to split to sit back down. But it was good...just telling someone.

I have sweet friends I love my youth group. Kimmie told me to "smile for me once every day this week" so that I must, because I said I would. Haha.

I think I'll go and get some sleep now....I'm exhausted.

[Kunoichi]

Hey guys,


Well My boyfriend is doing better. He can finally open up his eye...I think he is more hurt and angry than anything...pride got a hard blow too in terms that he wishes he did something more..

I still can't sleep. I haven't gotten more than 1 hour of restful night sleep in the last two weeks....I don't know what to do....I can't even close my eyes without dreaming into REM sleep. Literally, my boyfriend tried to just have me close my eyes and relax while he just talked to me about our deram house and all these things...I dream hetic dreams right away..

I don't know what to do. I can''t think. I want to cry...God help me

[SP1]

I'm sorry, but I seem to have missed something, Kunoichi. What happened to your boyfriend's eye?

Edit: Nevermind, I see the other thread now.

[Okami]

God is great. We had an unexpected (well, at least to me) ice day today. I was getting ready for school and was shaving while watching the news and the reporter comes on and says "Well, there's a lot of school closings this morning..." and my county was first up (That NEVER happens! We're usually dead-last) and so I stopped what I was doing to watch the scroll at the bottom of the screen, and at the very end of our county, ______ Public.

I almost screamed out of excitement. I'm just exhausted after this whole last week, not to mention the weekend. So I went out and wrote a note to the family and turned my cd player back on and crawled back into bed! Yay! Five hours extra sleep, well needed. It's the first time in a very long time where I don't feel restless...

...
Also, back in post #205 I had added lyrics to the song "Thorns" by Demon Hunter. At the time, I had not heard the song, but had fallen in absolute love with the lyrics (to the point of just reading them continuously made me cry) and I went out and bought that album this weekend and listened to that song. It's given me hope like none before. I will make it through this storm, and I will trust God to get me over my self-injury.
I don't feel depressed like I was before. It's not happiness, but it's not sadness, either. Contentment, maybe? I don't know, but it's better than the high-feeling I get when I'm slashing....one week clean, btw.

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Sister, don’t you sleep through your own eulogy
Don’t sever what you are for what you couldn’t be[/SIZE]

[SP1]

[Kunoichi]

Hey guys,

updated the attack on my boyfriend who praise God is doing better...

I on the other hand, still cannot sleep. Went to bed at 10:30 last night, dreamed I was in a wierd war. *sighs* Woke up numerous times throughout the night and woke up at 7:00 Am this morning

I'm so tired..and I do not know what to do....Its really getting to me. It may seem silly but think of being sleep deprived for 2 weeks and still having to work 12 to 14 hour days...OUCH ><

[Gabriel 9.0]

Right now I'm happy that God has helped with certain things, and I'm currently struggling not to hate certain people for how they have acted toward me for just being nice to them. I mean here I am doing my best to serve God (e.g. keep the Sabbath every Saturday and try to abide to the other commandments, and Jesus's testimony). And not give into carnal lusts like not saving myself before marriage, drinking, smoking. God helped me not to hate my father for what he has done, and how he got HIV and that me, my bro and mother almost got infected with it. I'm sure he'll help not me feel this way toward these particuliar people even though they have wronged me.

I'm glad I met some good people here, that I now consider as friends such as Yashua, Tsu, Kayato, Jaden Mental, Asian Blossom, Roy Mustang, 12 Praise God .

I'm praying that God will also help me overcome this certain issue as well like previous ones. I'd appreciate it if anyone could also pray. Then again.....
I don't even know why I'm wasting my time typing this its not like anybody cares anyway, except God, my family and real friends.

[Okami]

The third Sixteen is almost upon me, and right now I especially need prayer. It comes at this point I begin to let my guard down...and since the night of the sixteen (Dec 19) just so happens to be my Choir concert night and we'll be singing and walking with lit candles....I just, yeah, need prayer strengthening, for that wall of protection mentioned in Job 1:10....I want to beat this, I need to beat this....just pray the fire won't be a trigger to me! =/ I talked to my counselor about it today, thus why I'm coming here.

Thanks guys. Continued prayer for you all, too.

[Gabriel 9.0]

Mighty nice of you Kady. Praying for you Okami. I tried to keep this in as long as I could, the enemy has also tempted me to give up on my hopes and drems numerours of times.

[Okami]

I'm on a pretty nice high today. I'm slipping from the depression, some, but held back by chains of lower grades from my "best" not being as high as it once was (I'm getting a D+/C- in one class...) But had it been this way 2 months ago, my arms would be a mess from uncontrollable anger, I just know it. So my prayers are being answered, my self-control is being reinstated (Now a little help with the lust, please, Lord?) And soon, these scars of mine will be a part of my past, a testimony to the hope and healing of Christ Jesus!

[Gabriel 9.0]

That's nice and Praise the Lord for helping you Kady. Not trying to sound negative or impose in any way, but it feels like nobody even cares that I have some very bad trials atm.
I mean with my bro, my personal issues like luysting after women and not saving myself before marriage, etc. I keep praying myself, it helps but I would really appreciate extra prayer now and then from somebody.

[SP1]

That's nice and Praise the Lord for helping you Kady. Not trying to sound negative or impose in any way, but it feels like nobody even cares that I have some very bad trials atm.
I mean with my bro, my personal issues like luysting after women and not saving myself before marriage, etc. I keep praying myself, it helps but I would really appreciate extra prayer now and then from somebody.

If you are posting in this thread, you are being prayed for by multiple people.

[Gabriel 9.0]

If you are posting in this thread, you are being prayed for by multiple people.

I guess so, just the past days have been quite difficult. My faith has really been tested yet again. It felt like no-one was really paying attention ( which I'm sure is just the enemy trying to cause something else that is negative). I am grateful for those that have been praying though. And of course Happy God has helped many get through very hard situations.

[Kunoichi]

Hey Gabriel,

Well I can know what it is like for interpertations, sometimes Satan tells you know one cares or you may feel they are indifferent.

For lust, I can understand that (lusting after men though). It is easy to do that, and I have to say that I fail it time and time again.

I do not know the situation fully with your brother, from what I have gathered he is going through some things of his own.

Lord God, I pray for Gabriel and his bro. I know that you know what he is going through. Lord my heartfelt prayers go out to this brother as it is tough having faith when all is dark and there seems to be no hole to crawl out of. God, please be with him. Give him peace even if he doesn't understand it.

IN Jesus name,

Amen

I don't know if this will help. But well PM me if you ever need anything!

[Kunoichi]

I would like to add something to my own stuff:

Thank you all first of all for the prayers. God has been moving mightily in many areas.

Please pray for the strength to keep out of my depression : hitting me hard in the area of work. Also, I have not been able to sleep. Three weeks almost. Please pray, this is hitting me hard!

Thank you all! Please know that your prayers are helping!