Burh... Just some general stuff.

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I... dunno. @__@; There's gonna be a long ramble here. So... just a warning.

Well... first off, there's just been a lotta... not happy stuff in my life. Well, not that my life like.. sucks. or anything, it's just... personal things, I guess? Lately I feel like I'm really realizing how lonely I am. Like... I don't feel close to anyone, and that I don't really have anyone to go to.

Or like, I dunno, in my spiritual life and stuff I have so many ups and downs and it's like... I dunno, not good. xD; Like, right now I'm in one of my downs, and... yeah. I haven't been reading my Bible lately or going to the like. Weekly Youth group meeting things... and, I dunno, it's like... what bothers me is that God related group meeting things with other Christians or whatever make me feel really uncomfortable and isolated and stuff. Things that should make Christians feel all happy and regenerated or whatnot don't help me as much as I thought they would. Like... for example the summer camp thing? That didn't help me as much as people said it would, and it makes me feel like that odd one out.

Like... I'm doing something weird. Or I'm just really... different in general, or something. xD;

Or... lately, my view towards life is rather... lackluster. Like I don't really feel excited about much lately, and it's just... I dunno, I can't seem to get into anything. And I once again blame stuff on my thought stickies because they're annoying "what ifs," that're that and completely random and dumb and it just.. like. messes with my train of thought. Like, it's gotten to the point where it feels like I can't FUNCTION without the constant thinking.

It's... bothersome. xD;

All in all... it just... I dunno, no motivation. Really lonely and I don't really feel like I connect with anyone, Christians or not. It's.. well, bothersome, to use the word again. xD;

Prayer would be great. <3

[SP1]

Long rambling? Actually, this is one of the shorter, direct posts, so no worries there

Praying for your direction. Perhaps you should too. I mean, ask God to show you what He wants you to do. Because if you feel like you are stuck in a rut, it's maybe that you are in one, spiritually speaking. Of course, when you ask God for work, it might be difficult work...

[Blitzkrieg1701]

As someone who kind of struggles with those whole "motivation" and "connecting with others" thing himself, I don't think it's my place to offer any pearls of wisdom or anything, but I'll definately be praying.

[12praiseGOD]

I'll be praying, I understand what you mean, I felt sort off alone for a time because I didn't feel like I had any real Christian friends, only "Christians by name" if you know what I mean. Pray to GOD to help you get through this one, the downs in the Christian faith are often I think caused by us going away from GOD or GOD giving us a test so that when it is over we will have come to a greater level of faith in Him and that we may see what we were doing wronfully. Don't worry GOD is with you and HE understands all of our needs, and yet HE has a perfect plan for our lives, so hope you see the light very soon. Pray, read, and love!
GOD BLESS YOU!!!

[Danderson]

Know exactly what u means by lack of motivation....How I've gotten through it?....well, sometimes it helps if I do something that I wouldn't regularly do that I should be doing (homework, dishes, etc.)....I wouldn't call that a cure all, but it'll at least give u something "productive to do" (that's how the parents word it anyways)....

Will be praying for u.....

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@SP1: Yeah, I've been trying. @o@! But difficult work is good tho, kinda. Because it's like, progress, I guess. xD

Thanks. <33

@Blitzkrieg1701: It's must appreciated. 8D <3

@12praiseGOD: 8D Thanks! 'Twas helpful, and I'll keep that in mind. <3

@Danderson: Yeah, I know what you mean. 8D Me and my friend were doing charity work for the salvation army today, like one of those bell ringers who asked for money? xD It was nice, 'cause my mind was focused on that. (we were dancing and singing for money too. xDD) butyeah. 8D

Thanks. <33

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Well, I'm gonna go off on a bit of a ramble at the moment. So if it gets a little confusing and jumbled up, it's because I'm improv-ing at the moment. D;

Well... I dunno how to start. Like, just adding onto this thread, it feels like everything in my life is getting worse. ...Or, well, not. Everything in my life. More like... me. And my emotional state? I remember maybe about four years back is when I started getting these loneliness feelings, and now it's just getting worse and worse, to the point where I'm just... wondering. About not very happy things, to put it in nice terms.

Or like... the other day, it just seemed like... everything I did? There'd be no point in the end. And it was just kinda... depressing. Like a lot of the times I've got this thing going on where it feels like I'm never really... good at anything. Like, you know, everyone's always bad at lots of things, but in the end, they've got one thing they're really good at? I don't feel like I have anything. There're things that kinda... pop out more, but... I dunno. But yeah, just... probably why I have no motivation. I don't see a point in me doing anything.

Or like... more on the loneliness thing, it always feels like I'm keeping things to myself. I don't have anyone to go to, because I don't feel comfortable telling anyone anything. At least... not personally. Like, going up to them. Whenever I see people telling others to go talk to their parents or pastors or whatever, I can't really... Relate. Because I wouldn't be able to do that. I've rambled on journals and stuff, but... yeah. It wasn't really till lately that I even told anyone personally anything, like. Deep. And Emotional. What I was feeling, the stuff that hurt me. And I think the only reason is because all this stuff I'm holding in is starting to crack me. And even then, it was my friends over the internet. No one in real life.

And I mean... probably some of you are thinking of telling me to talk to God and everything, and it's not like I haven't. I've tried, I've prayed to Him and I've told Him what's on my plate. And maybe I'm just really bad at hearing what He's got to tell me, because I feel like... everything I'm praying for is going unanswered. And maybe some of you are telling me to read my Bible, and it's not like I haven't gone to my Bible before. But... And I dunno, I feel bad for asking this, but I really do want an answer. And what other people think.

Is it bad that I want more of an answer than just praying and reading my Bible?

Like... it's just. Lonely and stuff, and I feel like I'm starting to crack. And it hurts and stuff, and I'm starting to think about all this stuff more often and I dunno... I just want something. Like, of course I want God and Jesus and all that, otherwise I wouldn't be posting here, but I just want more of an answer than what people usually give.

I dunno. @__@;;;

Sorry for the long ramble, and I might've missed a few things, but the general gist is there. xD; Um... yeah... So it'd be great if people could... I dunno. Give their opinions? ;

Thanks. <3

[Sheenar]

2Consider it pure joy, my brothers, whenever you face trials of many kinds, 3because you know that the testing of your faith develops perseverance. 4Perseverance must finish its work so that you may be mature and complete, not lacking anything. 5If any of you lacks wisdom, he should ask God, who gives generously to all without finding fault, and it will be given to him. 6But when he asks, he must believe and not doubt, because he who doubts is like a wave of the sea, blown and tossed by the wind. 7That man should not think he will receive anything from the Lord; 8he is a double-minded man, unstable in all he does.

9The brother in humble circumstances ought to take pride in his high position. 10But the one who is rich should take pride in his low position, because he will pass away like a wild flower. 11For the sun rises with scorching heat and withers the plant; its blossom falls and its beauty is destroyed. In the same way, the rich man will fade away even while he goes about his business.

12Blessed is the man who perseveres under trial, because when he has stood the test, he will receive the crown of life that God has promised to those who love him

--James 1:2-12

The important thing to do is persevere. Just don't give up. That's what the enemy wants you to do. And keep serving. Don't stop doing the work God has for you to do now.
The pieces of God's will and direction will fit together slowly over time. Be patient and wait on the Lord. Use this time of silence and trial to grow. Hang in there, brother.

[Kunoichi]

Hey bro,

Well gone through this too. Many long years of it and well all I can offer is experience.

One, God is listening but he just may not be talking in the way your expecting. Sometimes, God doesn't answer in that prayer but rather through a person or experience. Also, there is more growth in just having faith when you have no real reason too then feeling happy go lucky all the time. And also, about being happy and joyful Christians, we have joy in the fact that one day we will be free from the pain and everything, but happiness is not always there. In fact I wasn't "happy" for close to 7 years.

But I will tell you Sheenar is right, don't give up.

Also, going to speak about purpose a bit here. (Sorry I'm rambling too lol)I put up a goals list ever year. Just something I want to accomplish. Anything from cooking three times a week to going on a cruise. Whatever.
If you don't have any goals, then simply put a goal that you will take one hour a week (15 mins a day if you wish) to just praise God for you what you do have. Even if you don't feel like it, even if you don't see what there is to praise Him for, try it. You may see some cool results.

I have always been an outcast, including in my own family. So I understand the lonliness as well. I can only say that what got me through that until I started to open up to people was my martial arts and writing stories and poetry. Prayers may seem to go unanswered but I think God may be answering them here. At least he is showing you there are people who care about you and that people are willing to get on their knees before God for YOU. That's pretty impressive if you ask me. And it's not just because we're christ followers that we do this. It's a human response because we care.

I'm not sure if this will hep but I pray it does.

May the Lord reveal himself to you more and more

If you ever need to PM me about anything, just to "ramble" for a few pages (wink) or vent, I'm here.

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Thanks all. <3 This helps, and I'm glad everyone posted. <3