It is nice that you get to see a counselor. I could never trust anyone enough to see what is in my mind. Even if I was tested, it is all an act.
My depression is getting worse these days. Even though I understand that God loves me, I cannot love myself. I often felt hopeless in this corrupted society and my broken useless self. But at any rate, life is short, so I will endure until it is time for me to die.
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SnEptUne wrote:It is nice that you get to see a counselor. I could never trust anyone enough to see what is in my mind. Even if I was tested, it is all an act.
My depression is getting worse these days. Even though I understand that God loves me, I cannot love myself. I often felt hopeless in this corrupted society and my broken useless self. But at any rate, life is short, so I will endure until it is time for me to die.
Truthfully, I don't trust many of them either. And because I'm an aspie that works even less in their favor. However, I'm trying to look for someone who understand aspie positions best so I can try to find a way to help myself better. Not only that, but because my life is now on the edge of a knife, I no longer have a choice.
Sn, would you mind if I sent you a PM? Ever since you arrived here I've felt a colder atmosphere around you. Like a chest that looks worn on the outside and has many secrets on the inside. I'd love to chat with you some time if you're available.
Also, above all else, don't stay in your depression. Believe me, it isn't worth it in any sense of the world. Yes, life is short, but time extends its reach ten times when you're depressed.
P.S. I've asked my church to pray for you Okami. Hold on to Him, as we're all trying to do.
Also, staying in depression
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Alexander - Posts: 877
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Alexander, have you looked into an Aspie support group? I am in one on my campus and it helps tremendously. We learn from each other and support each other. Maybe there is a group in your area?
Okami, know that I am still praying for you. Hang in there, friend. God is with you.
Sn, God has a plan for your life. You are valuable in His eyes. Don't give up. Keep up the good fight. I'm pullin' for ya!;)
Well, goodnight everybody. Feel free to PM or emai/Yahoo message me if you ever want someone to talk to. I'm willing to listen.
Love you guys!
Okami, know that I am still praying for you. Hang in there, friend. God is with you.
Sn, God has a plan for your life. You are valuable in His eyes. Don't give up. Keep up the good fight. I'm pullin' for ya!;)
Well, goodnight everybody. Feel free to PM or emai/Yahoo message me if you ever want someone to talk to. I'm willing to listen.
Love you guys!
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Alexander wrote:Truthfully, I don't trust many of them either. And because I'm an aspie that works even less in their favor. However, I'm trying to look for someone who understand aspie positions best so I can try to find a way to help myself better. Not only that, but because my life is now on the edge of a knife, I no longer have a choice.
Sn, would you mind if I sent you a PM? Ever since you arrived here I've felt a colder atmosphere around you. Like a chest that looks worn on the outside and has many secrets on the inside. I'd love to chat with you some time if you're available.
Also, above all else, don't stay in your depression. Believe me, it isn't worth it in any sense of the world. Yes, life is short, but time extends its reach ten times when you're depressed.
P.S. I've asked my church to pray for you Okami. Hold on to Him, as we're all trying to do.
Also, staying in depression
I don't mind if you PM me.
Indeed, there is a proverb that "passing a day is like passing a year", which is referring to the time during hardships. Hopefully, I can overcome what is ahead of me and reach my goal. Sadly, no one I know in real life is a believer, that's why they cannot understand me or making false assumption about me.
However, I don't think I would ever kill myself. Life is all about struggling afterall. Blessed are the poor in spirit: for theirs is the kingdom of heaven. Blessed are the meek: for they shall inherit the earth. Blessed are they which do hunger and thirst after righteousness: for they shall be filled. Blessed are ye, when men shall revile you, and persecute you, and shall say all manner of evil against you falsely, for my sake.
[SIZE="1"]Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. It is not rude, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs (1 Corinthians 13:4-5)[/SIZE]
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Don't read so much into this...I just really love the song.
[SIZE="1"]And if you see me losing ground
Don’t be afraid to lie
I know the pain inside my heart can’t break the fear inside of yours
And if you see me losing faith
In what it means to die
Don’t let me leave before I know what lies behind the stained glass doors
Save sorrow for the souls in doubt
Bleed every care out
Will you carry me down the aisle that final day
With your tears and cold hands shaking from the weight
When you lower me down beneath that sky of gray
Let the rain fall down and wash away your pain
For every word we never spoke
We have a tear to cry
For every silence like a wall between a better you and I
So if you see me losing sight
Of all the death in life
You’ll find the peace in every time I failed to see the death in mine
Let all the fear inside you drown
Tear out the blade and lay it down
Save sorrow for the souls in doubt[/SIZE]
[SIZE="2"]Bleed every care out[/SIZE]
[SIZE="1"]
Will you carry me down the aisle that final day
With your tears and cold hands shaking from the weight
When you lower me down beneath that sky of gray
Let the rain fall down and wash away your pain
Oh, the blood is rushing out
Oh, I’m better off without
Oh, the walls are closing in
Oh, sing for me again
Will you carry me down the aisle that final day
With your tears and cold hands shaking from the weight
When you lower me down beneath that sky of gray
Let the rain fall down and wash away your pain
(Rain down, oh rain down, no care for the flood)[/SIZE]
Don’t be afraid to lie
I know the pain inside my heart can’t break the fear inside of yours
And if you see me losing faith
In what it means to die
Don’t let me leave before I know what lies behind the stained glass doors
Save sorrow for the souls in doubt
Bleed every care out
Will you carry me down the aisle that final day
With your tears and cold hands shaking from the weight
When you lower me down beneath that sky of gray
Let the rain fall down and wash away your pain
For every word we never spoke
We have a tear to cry
For every silence like a wall between a better you and I
So if you see me losing sight
Of all the death in life
You’ll find the peace in every time I failed to see the death in mine
Let all the fear inside you drown
Tear out the blade and lay it down
Save sorrow for the souls in doubt[/SIZE]
[SIZE="2"]Bleed every care out[/SIZE]
[SIZE="1"]
Will you carry me down the aisle that final day
With your tears and cold hands shaking from the weight
When you lower me down beneath that sky of gray
Let the rain fall down and wash away your pain
Oh, the blood is rushing out
Oh, I’m better off without
Oh, the walls are closing in
Oh, sing for me again
Will you carry me down the aisle that final day
With your tears and cold hands shaking from the weight
When you lower me down beneath that sky of gray
Let the rain fall down and wash away your pain
(Rain down, oh rain down, no care for the flood)[/SIZE]
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Okami - Posts: 1771
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Hey all,
Well I'm doing alright here...got off the meds to hopefully help stop some of the mood swings and started to look up into some christian therapist that may be able to do some checks on my hormone levels to see if they are inbalanced.
Thank you all for you prayer!
Well I'm doing alright here...got off the meds to hopefully help stop some of the mood swings and started to look up into some christian therapist that may be able to do some checks on my hormone levels to see if they are inbalanced.
Thank you all for you prayer!
I am on the forefront of battle against the demons of earth. All Praise and Glory be given to God Forever and Ever!
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*sighs* alright this might seem a little dumb for me to be depressed over but I am. Well first I found out something that I can't really say until a given time. And The other thing is, the guy I like, and I mean really REALLY like, got a new girlfriend. And this is the second one that he's had this year. There's nothing wrong with him having a girlfriend, it's just...I guess I'm a little jealous. And there's nothing I can do, because this other girl makes him happy, and I would rather see him happy, but he doesn't know how hurt I feel. and I don't think he would really understand if I told him how I felt. I mean he's a nice friend, and sometimes I can feel open with him, but like stuff like this I feel like I need to keep it to myself. With his other girlfriend I got mad at him, and refused to talk to him, now I'm not gonna do that because it was no good the first time. But I feel really depressed because he knows how that I like him, and to me it's like he doesn't really care. I'm not sure if I just want to give up, because I can't. But it's just depressing that the guy I like kind of ignored my feelings, and is now dating another girl.
Footprints in the sand by Carolyn Joyce Carty
One night a man had a dream. He dreamed he was walking along the beach with the lord.
Across the sky flashed scenes from his life. For each scene he noticed two sets of foot prints in the sand: one belonging to him the other to the lord.
When the last scene of his life flashed before him, he looked back at the foot prints in the sand.
He noticed that name times along the path of his life there was only one set o footprints.
He also noticed that it was at the lowest and saddest times of his life.
This really bothered him and he questioned the lord about it:
"lord, you said once i decided to follow you, you'd walk with me all the way. But i have noticed during the most troublesome times in my life, there is only one set of foot prints. I dont understand why when i needed you most you would leave me."
The lord replied:
"My son, my precious child, I love you and would never leave you. During your times of trial and suffering, when you see only one set of footprints, it was then that i carried you."
One night a man had a dream. He dreamed he was walking along the beach with the lord.
Across the sky flashed scenes from his life. For each scene he noticed two sets of foot prints in the sand: one belonging to him the other to the lord.
When the last scene of his life flashed before him, he looked back at the foot prints in the sand.
He noticed that name times along the path of his life there was only one set o footprints.
He also noticed that it was at the lowest and saddest times of his life.
This really bothered him and he questioned the lord about it:
"lord, you said once i decided to follow you, you'd walk with me all the way. But i have noticed during the most troublesome times in my life, there is only one set of foot prints. I dont understand why when i needed you most you would leave me."
The lord replied:
"My son, my precious child, I love you and would never leave you. During your times of trial and suffering, when you see only one set of footprints, it was then that i carried you."
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chelle0227 - Posts: 163
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Actually, I'm going back to a support group I was with Sheenar. The more advice/help, the better. However, the group was so focused on just the syndrome itself that it felt like I couldn't communicate what my real concerns were to the group, and so I left. Although, if anyone can understand my problem the best, it would be them.
Sn, what you've said couldn't be spoken truer. The amount of times that verse can be used, and I've used personally, is almost innumerable.
I have a little good news now. It isn't life changing or anything, and I actually haven't gone out of my way to obtain it. I'll probably be depressed the next day in fact, but I wanted to mention this.
I smiled for the first time in three and a half weeks tonight. I finished reading a book a very close friend had suggested to me. And even though we live 800 miles apart, the fact that she was able to suggest something for me so accurately reestablished in me that, in the wired, there are people who are able to understand me.
Maybe God is still looking out for me.
Sn, what you've said couldn't be spoken truer. The amount of times that verse can be used, and I've used personally, is almost innumerable.
I have a little good news now. It isn't life changing or anything, and I actually haven't gone out of my way to obtain it. I'll probably be depressed the next day in fact, but I wanted to mention this.
I smiled for the first time in three and a half weeks tonight. I finished reading a book a very close friend had suggested to me. And even though we live 800 miles apart, the fact that she was able to suggest something for me so accurately reestablished in me that, in the wired, there are people who are able to understand me.
Maybe God is still looking out for me.
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He is, Alec. He is. *Hugs*
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K. Ayato: Perfectly.
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I'll admit that I lied about my last post.
Some of you know. Others don't. I'm not ready to disclose the details so publically.
[SIZE="1"]
I wanna believe,
I wanna believe in love again
Tired of living this way, tired of everyday...
So will You help me?
I wanna breakthrough
I wanna believe in You.[/SIZE]
Some of you know. Others don't. I'm not ready to disclose the details so publically.
[SIZE="1"]
I wanna believe,
I wanna believe in love again
Tired of living this way, tired of everyday...
So will You help me?
I wanna breakthrough
I wanna believe in You.[/SIZE]
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"We will be her church, the body of Christ coming alive to
meet her needs, to write love on her arms." ~ Jamie Tworkowski
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Okami - Posts: 1771
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Well Okami, if God could save me from being suicidal and keep me together regardless of the fact that my faith was rattled to the very center of my heart, I think He can help you make it too.
I know I'm mostly just text, this I've been reminded of day by day, and while I wish I could be there for you physically, sadly I can't. Believe me, just that reality hurts enough.
You know what in fact? If I had a choice I would take death over life. I sincerely believe I would find peace faster that way then living. But at the same time, I believe the reward of living will be much more worth it. What is that reward? I sincerely don't know. And I'll probably continue waiting for it for maybe another 10 years. But I at least have to hold on to that idea.
We're both extremely weak and broken. I myself can barely lift myself out of bed everyday and do what I'm forced to do, but somehow by God's will I keep going.
I'll keep praying and send you a PM my way. I know I can't do very much, but I can at least listen.
God bless you Okami.
Well Okami, if God could save me from being suicidal and keep me together regardless of the fact that my faith was rattled to the very center of my heart, I think He can help you make it too.
I know I'm mostly just text, this I've been reminded of day by day, and while I wish I could be there for you physically, sadly I can't. Believe me, just that reality hurts enough.
You know what in fact? If I had a choice I would take death over life. I sincerely believe I would find peace faster that way then living. But at the same time, I believe the reward of living will be much more worth it. What is that reward? I sincerely don't know. And I'll probably continue waiting for it for maybe another 10 years. But I at least have to hold on to that idea.
We're both extremely weak and broken. I myself can barely lift myself out of bed everyday and do what I'm forced to do, but somehow by God's will I keep going.
I'll keep praying and send you a PM my way. I know I can't do very much, but I can at least listen.
God bless you Okami.
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Alexander - Posts: 877
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dancergirl0227 wrote:*sighs* alright this might seem a little dumb for me to be depressed over but I am. Well first I found out something that I can't really say until a given time. And The other thing is, the guy I like, and I mean really REALLY like, got a new girlfriend. And this is the second one that he's had this year. There's nothing wrong with him having a girlfriend, it's just...I guess I'm a little jealous. And there's nothing I can do, because this other girl makes him happy, and I would rather see him happy, but he doesn't know how hurt I feel. and I don't think he would really understand if I told him how I felt. I mean he's a nice friend, and sometimes I can feel open with him, but like stuff like this I feel like I need to keep it to myself. With his other girlfriend I got mad at him, and refused to talk to him, now I'm not gonna do that because it was no good the first time. But I feel really depressed because he knows how that I like him, and to me it's like he doesn't really care. I'm not sure if I just want to give up, because I can't. But it's just depressing that the guy I like kind of ignored my feelings, and is now dating another girl.
I don't think a girl friend should be someone you should get jealous over. Afterall, he is still your friend, and in my opinion, friends certainly worth a lot more than girl friend. True friends can be forever, unlike marriage and romances. Loving someones does not have to be romantic; it is such a waste to forgo such pure spiritual relationship to something material and obligated.
Do people find true happiness in romances? For they worried whether their partners will call them everyday, whether or not they should praise or confer to them, and worried over their own emotions, which restraint their pure hearts. There are no compromises needed for friendship, there is no need to chase each other in dreams and values, in future and in belief in order to "meet" with each other.
[SIZE="1"]Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. It is not rude, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs (1 Corinthians 13:4-5)[/SIZE]
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SnEptUne - Posts: 247
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Well, nowadays Im just not feeling much energy anymore and life starts to seem so humdrum, and the fact that Im not social thus really having no friends except Jesus. I try to be social but it doesn't work out. And also the Chemistry class that Im in is really difficult. Im trying to stay in the Honor Society, but right now my Chemistry grade is a B(My other grades are like either an A or close to one) and Im starting to think it might go down more(I study really hard, but it doesn't really do anything.). All these added together is depression. Id really like to feel happier, but it doesn't seem to come that often or as easily. There just doesn't seem to be any good days anymore, so if you have the time just pray for me.
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ADXC - Posts: 2569
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Sorryr to hear that man, you'll be in my prayers.
Some of my favorite scriptures.
Psalm91
A thousand shall fall at thy side, and ten thousand at thy right hand; but it shall not come nigh thee.
Only with thine eyes shalt thou behold and see the reward of the wicked.
Because thou hast made the LORD, which is my refuge, even the most High, thy habitation;
There shall no evil befall thee, neither shall any plague come nigh thy dwelling.
Hebrews 4-4
1Let us therefore fear, lest, a promise being left us of entering into his rest, any of you should seem to come short of it.
2For unto us was the gospel preached, as well as unto them: but the word preached did not profit them, not being mixed with faith in them that heard it.
3For we which have believed do enter into rest, as he said, As I have sworn in my wrath, if they shall enter into my rest: although the works were finished from the foundation of the world.
4For he spake in a certain place of the seventh day on this wise, And God did rest the seventh day from all his works.
James 4
Submit yourselves, then, to God. Resist the devil, and he will flee from you. Come near to God and he will come near to you. Wash your hands, you sinners, and purify your hearts, you double-minded. Grieve, mourn and wail. Change your laughter to mourning and your joy to gloom. Humble yourselves before the Lord, and he will lift you up.
Revelation 22:14
Blessed are they that do his commandments, that they may have right to the tree of life, and may enter in through the gates into the city.
Psalm91
A thousand shall fall at thy side, and ten thousand at thy right hand; but it shall not come nigh thee.
Only with thine eyes shalt thou behold and see the reward of the wicked.
Because thou hast made the LORD, which is my refuge, even the most High, thy habitation;
There shall no evil befall thee, neither shall any plague come nigh thy dwelling.
Hebrews 4-4
1Let us therefore fear, lest, a promise being left us of entering into his rest, any of you should seem to come short of it.
2For unto us was the gospel preached, as well as unto them: but the word preached did not profit them, not being mixed with faith in them that heard it.
3For we which have believed do enter into rest, as he said, As I have sworn in my wrath, if they shall enter into my rest: although the works were finished from the foundation of the world.
4For he spake in a certain place of the seventh day on this wise, And God did rest the seventh day from all his works.
James 4
Submit yourselves, then, to God. Resist the devil, and he will flee from you. Come near to God and he will come near to you. Wash your hands, you sinners, and purify your hearts, you double-minded. Grieve, mourn and wail. Change your laughter to mourning and your joy to gloom. Humble yourselves before the Lord, and he will lift you up.
Revelation 22:14
Blessed are they that do his commandments, that they may have right to the tree of life, and may enter in through the gates into the city.
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Gabriel 9.0 - Posts: 736
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A-dude, your situation sounds a lot like how mine began, with school and everything. I'm known for my good grades, so when I start shifting from A's to B's, people begin to worry some.
One thing to keep in mind, just do your best. That's all you can do. And even if you have to drop from the Honor Society, just keep resting in the fact that you are doing your best.
You have my prayers. Just keep doing what you're doing. Do your best, even when things are rough. Never give up!
One thing to keep in mind, just do your best. That's all you can do. And even if you have to drop from the Honor Society, just keep resting in the fact that you are doing your best.
You have my prayers. Just keep doing what you're doing. Do your best, even when things are rough. Never give up!
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"We will be her church, the body of Christ coming alive to
meet her needs, to write love on her arms." ~ Jamie Tworkowski
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Okami - Posts: 1771
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Just more to add
dancergirl0227 wrote:*sighs* alright this might seem a little dumb for me to be depressed over but I am. Well first I found out something that I can't really say until a given time. And The other thing is, the guy I like, and I mean really REALLY like, got a new girlfriend. And this is the second one that he's had this year. There's nothing wrong with him having a girlfriend, it's just...I guess I'm a little jealous. And there's nothing I can do, because this other girl makes him happy, and I would rather see him happy, but he doesn't know how hurt I feel. and I don't think he would really understand if I told him how I felt. I mean he's a nice friend, and sometimes I can feel open with him, but like stuff like this I feel like I need to keep it to myself. With his other girlfriend I got mad at him, and refused to talk to him, now I'm not gonna do that because it was no good the first time. But I feel really depressed because he knows how that I like him, and to me it's like he doesn't really care. I'm not sure if I just want to give up, because I can't. But it's just depressing that the guy I like kind of ignored my feelings, and is now dating another girl.
well now it's mostly the fact that he keeps avoiding me everywhere. Every time I get any where neer him, or contacting him, he avoides it. I'm wondering is he think I'm mad at him. Which I'm not. But I want to know and every time I try to contact him, he makes up an excuse to leave.
Footprints in the sand by Carolyn Joyce Carty
One night a man had a dream. He dreamed he was walking along the beach with the lord.
Across the sky flashed scenes from his life. For each scene he noticed two sets of foot prints in the sand: one belonging to him the other to the lord.
When the last scene of his life flashed before him, he looked back at the foot prints in the sand.
He noticed that name times along the path of his life there was only one set o footprints.
He also noticed that it was at the lowest and saddest times of his life.
This really bothered him and he questioned the lord about it:
"lord, you said once i decided to follow you, you'd walk with me all the way. But i have noticed during the most troublesome times in my life, there is only one set of foot prints. I dont understand why when i needed you most you would leave me."
The lord replied:
"My son, my precious child, I love you and would never leave you. During your times of trial and suffering, when you see only one set of footprints, it was then that i carried you."
One night a man had a dream. He dreamed he was walking along the beach with the lord.
Across the sky flashed scenes from his life. For each scene he noticed two sets of foot prints in the sand: one belonging to him the other to the lord.
When the last scene of his life flashed before him, he looked back at the foot prints in the sand.
He noticed that name times along the path of his life there was only one set o footprints.
He also noticed that it was at the lowest and saddest times of his life.
This really bothered him and he questioned the lord about it:
"lord, you said once i decided to follow you, you'd walk with me all the way. But i have noticed during the most troublesome times in my life, there is only one set of foot prints. I dont understand why when i needed you most you would leave me."
The lord replied:
"My son, my precious child, I love you and would never leave you. During your times of trial and suffering, when you see only one set of footprints, it was then that i carried you."
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chelle0227 - Posts: 163
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Thanks Okami, that really helps. I'll try harder, and even if I drop from the HS I'll still rest in the knowledge that I did my best. And my AP Lit class isn't helping much either, I hate timed writings and I never finish on time and my paper is always worse than everybody else's.
And also in AP Lit we have been reading Macbeth and Hamlet. Not the most uplifting plays to read but I do like reading them.(They contain alot of murders and suicides.) And next we are reading The Scarlet Letter( Which is still not uplifting and depressive.) And then after that we are reading Crime and Punishment, which my teacher claims to be a very tough book to read because they still with the state of the human mind.(She says if we can't take reading Hamlet or Macbeth because of the killings and depressingness of them, then we won't stand a chance with C&P.) And this is a Christian school too you know. She says the theme of AP class this year is surrounds around all this stuff Ive mentioned. Why can't we read a comedy(Or uplifting books) for goodness sake?!
And also in AP Lit we have been reading Macbeth and Hamlet. Not the most uplifting plays to read but I do like reading them.(They contain alot of murders and suicides.) And next we are reading The Scarlet Letter( Which is still not uplifting and depressive.) And then after that we are reading Crime and Punishment, which my teacher claims to be a very tough book to read because they still with the state of the human mind.(She says if we can't take reading Hamlet or Macbeth because of the killings and depressingness of them, then we won't stand a chance with C&P.) And this is a Christian school too you know. She says the theme of AP class this year is surrounds around all this stuff Ive mentioned. Why can't we read a comedy(Or uplifting books) for goodness sake?!
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ADXC - Posts: 2569
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I hope and pray all goes well for you Animedude.
Right now I feel still feel quite frustrated about some things such as I feel like I don't even exist to anyone (which is why I rely on God in the first place), that I will fail God in serving him and taking part in his work on this current Earth, eg writing books, making video games and films that honor him . And I'm constantly being barraged with thoughts of losing my virginity before I meet my future wife >>I even heard Satan suggest suicide yet again to me. I'm glad God kept me from doing it. I would really appreciate it if anybody can say a prayer for me.
Right now I feel still feel quite frustrated about some things such as I feel like I don't even exist to anyone (which is why I rely on God in the first place), that I will fail God in serving him and taking part in his work on this current Earth, eg writing books, making video games and films that honor him . And I'm constantly being barraged with thoughts of losing my virginity before I meet my future wife >>I even heard Satan suggest suicide yet again to me. I'm glad God kept me from doing it. I would really appreciate it if anybody can say a prayer for me.
Some of my favorite scriptures.
Psalm91
A thousand shall fall at thy side, and ten thousand at thy right hand; but it shall not come nigh thee.
Only with thine eyes shalt thou behold and see the reward of the wicked.
Because thou hast made the LORD, which is my refuge, even the most High, thy habitation;
There shall no evil befall thee, neither shall any plague come nigh thy dwelling.
Hebrews 4-4
1Let us therefore fear, lest, a promise being left us of entering into his rest, any of you should seem to come short of it.
2For unto us was the gospel preached, as well as unto them: but the word preached did not profit them, not being mixed with faith in them that heard it.
3For we which have believed do enter into rest, as he said, As I have sworn in my wrath, if they shall enter into my rest: although the works were finished from the foundation of the world.
4For he spake in a certain place of the seventh day on this wise, And God did rest the seventh day from all his works.
James 4
Submit yourselves, then, to God. Resist the devil, and he will flee from you. Come near to God and he will come near to you. Wash your hands, you sinners, and purify your hearts, you double-minded. Grieve, mourn and wail. Change your laughter to mourning and your joy to gloom. Humble yourselves before the Lord, and he will lift you up.
Revelation 22:14
Blessed are they that do his commandments, that they may have right to the tree of life, and may enter in through the gates into the city.
Psalm91
A thousand shall fall at thy side, and ten thousand at thy right hand; but it shall not come nigh thee.
Only with thine eyes shalt thou behold and see the reward of the wicked.
Because thou hast made the LORD, which is my refuge, even the most High, thy habitation;
There shall no evil befall thee, neither shall any plague come nigh thy dwelling.
Hebrews 4-4
1Let us therefore fear, lest, a promise being left us of entering into his rest, any of you should seem to come short of it.
2For unto us was the gospel preached, as well as unto them: but the word preached did not profit them, not being mixed with faith in them that heard it.
3For we which have believed do enter into rest, as he said, As I have sworn in my wrath, if they shall enter into my rest: although the works were finished from the foundation of the world.
4For he spake in a certain place of the seventh day on this wise, And God did rest the seventh day from all his works.
James 4
Submit yourselves, then, to God. Resist the devil, and he will flee from you. Come near to God and he will come near to you. Wash your hands, you sinners, and purify your hearts, you double-minded. Grieve, mourn and wail. Change your laughter to mourning and your joy to gloom. Humble yourselves before the Lord, and he will lift you up.
Revelation 22:14
Blessed are they that do his commandments, that they may have right to the tree of life, and may enter in through the gates into the city.
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Gabriel 9.0 - Posts: 736
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Sorry I haven't posted in a while...school has been busy (and I've been reading the FMA manga...that accounts for some of my absence;) )
Anyway, things are going ok I guess. Just trying to figure out the "what now" of my life --like, ok, I'm on my own --what do I do?
God has provided in great ways. I have somewhere to go over Thanksgiving and Christmas. I'm starting a debt-management plan to help get my medical bills paid off. So I know God is taking care of me.
It's just that I don't feel like I'm doing any good. What does God want me to be doing? I want to be an obedient servant, not a lazy one.
I want to get a support group started for survivors of child abuse (and I've already been contacted by a guy wanting to get involved --that definitely caught me by surprise --praise God). I'm going to start a group on Facebook. I'm just nervous and scared--excited too, but mostly scared. Please pray that God will be in this endeavor--there is no hope of it succeeding without Him
Please also pray for me. I'm still having flashbacks (not frequently, but they come --I had one during church this morning). I'm having bouts of sadness (I wouldn't exactly call it depression, as I haven't been thinking suicide --I've just been having "down" days)...I pray it will pass but also that God will show me what He wants me to learn from this trial. Pray also that I will start sleeping better--I haven't been able to sleep through the night lately --probably all the stress (a lot of it unneccesary)> Pray I will learn to trust God. All my life I've had a hard time trusting --and so I don't completely trust the only One I can really trust. He won't treat me like my mom did --He's the perfect parent and truly wants what's best for His children.
It's hard because being under my mom's control (and being abused/having to be submissive) is all I've ever known. It's almost like I don't really know how to live--like I have to start learning how. I won't lie. I'm scared. But I know God is taking/will take care of me. He's already providing.
Please pray also for my mom. Last time she disowned me (I've been disowned twice), she threatened to kill herself (because I went to my aunt's house because Mom was being abusive --I just didn't feel safe at home). I haven't heard anything (it's been over a month since I last talked to Mom --as I have cut off communication). I just pray that God draws her to Himself and keeps her from making a choice she can't take back --she's lost and I want her to enter into a relationship with Christ. Please pray for her.
Anyway, things are going ok I guess. Just trying to figure out the "what now" of my life --like, ok, I'm on my own --what do I do?
God has provided in great ways. I have somewhere to go over Thanksgiving and Christmas. I'm starting a debt-management plan to help get my medical bills paid off. So I know God is taking care of me.
It's just that I don't feel like I'm doing any good. What does God want me to be doing? I want to be an obedient servant, not a lazy one.
I want to get a support group started for survivors of child abuse (and I've already been contacted by a guy wanting to get involved --that definitely caught me by surprise --praise God). I'm going to start a group on Facebook. I'm just nervous and scared--excited too, but mostly scared. Please pray that God will be in this endeavor--there is no hope of it succeeding without Him
Please also pray for me. I'm still having flashbacks (not frequently, but they come --I had one during church this morning). I'm having bouts of sadness (I wouldn't exactly call it depression, as I haven't been thinking suicide --I've just been having "down" days)...I pray it will pass but also that God will show me what He wants me to learn from this trial. Pray also that I will start sleeping better--I haven't been able to sleep through the night lately --probably all the stress (a lot of it unneccesary)> Pray I will learn to trust God. All my life I've had a hard time trusting --and so I don't completely trust the only One I can really trust. He won't treat me like my mom did --He's the perfect parent and truly wants what's best for His children.
It's hard because being under my mom's control (and being abused/having to be submissive) is all I've ever known. It's almost like I don't really know how to live--like I have to start learning how. I won't lie. I'm scared. But I know God is taking/will take care of me. He's already providing.
Please pray also for my mom. Last time she disowned me (I've been disowned twice), she threatened to kill herself (because I went to my aunt's house because Mom was being abusive --I just didn't feel safe at home). I haven't heard anything (it's been over a month since I last talked to Mom --as I have cut off communication). I just pray that God draws her to Himself and keeps her from making a choice she can't take back --she's lost and I want her to enter into a relationship with Christ. Please pray for her.
"Therefore we do not lose heart. Though outwardly we are wasting away, yet inwardly we are being renewed day by day. For our light and momentary troubles are achieving for us an eternal glory that far outweighs them all. So we fix our eyes not on what is seen, but on what is unseen. For what is seen is temporary, but what is unseen is eternal." 2 Corinthians 4:16-18
"Since the creation of the Internet, the Earth's rotation has been fueled, primarily, by the collective spinning of English teachers in their graves."
"Since the creation of the Internet, the Earth's rotation has been fueled, primarily, by the collective spinning of English teachers in their graves."
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Sheenar - Posts: 2989
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Father God, I lift up everyone who has cried out for help in this topic before You now, myself included. There are so many frustrating and even frightening situations many of us are dealing with, so many uncontrollable emotions fighting to pull us away from You, and we know that we lack the power to overcome them on our own. Father, I pray that You will protect these hearts from the attacks of the enemy who seeks to cripple them. I pray that You will heal relationships that have become broken or bring new ones where they are desperately needed. I pray that You will provide drive and direction for those of us who are struggling with the calling You have given us. I pray that You will resolve obstacles of money, jobs, school, and all the other things that wear us down and cause us to feel trapped. But above all else, Father, I pray that You will allow us to know how You love us. I pray that You will grant us even the smallest understanding of just how precious we truly are to You, of just how great a sacrifice You were willing to make so that You could bring us to Yourself, so that we might come to love ourselves as You would have us. I pray that You would take our eyes off of our own mistakes, flaws, and failures, and place them on the One who has already borne the burden of them all on our behalf. Please, God, allow us to see ourselves as You already do, remade in the image of Your Son.
[font="Book Antiqua"][color="Purple"]For the love of Christ controls us, having concluded this: that one died for all, therefore all died; and he that died for all, so that they who live might no longer live for themselves, but for Him who died and rose again on their behalf. II Corinthians 5:14-15[/color][/font]
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Blitzkrieg1701 - Posts: 1884
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Depression, is getting tiring with me. Everyday, and all day, I feel constantly sick like being under a light cold. Doing anything requires a great amount of self-will and even then I don't get very far.
I would love it to stop. I think anyone would agree with that notion. But it keeps eating away at me, and I know material objects or my interests help little.
I'm tired of my mind slipping and having to battle back and fourth with suicide. I'm a complete wreck who can barely muster up enough energy to pray let alone try to be happy.
I'd like to be happy again for more then just five or ten minutes a day. People might say I'm acting like "the hopeless romantic" but I'd like to get married in 4 or 5 years. Yes, there are a lot of people out there who don't need to get married, but I believe at least a few people do. The lonely ones at least.
I would like to smile again. And to feel the warmth of someone again. I miss those times. I miss them greatly.
Depression, is getting tiring with me. Everyday, and all day, I feel constantly sick like being under a light cold. Doing anything requires a great amount of self-will and even then I don't get very far.
I would love it to stop. I think anyone would agree with that notion. But it keeps eating away at me, and I know material objects or my interests help little.
I'm tired of my mind slipping and having to battle back and fourth with suicide. I'm a complete wreck who can barely muster up enough energy to pray let alone try to be happy.
I'd like to be happy again for more then just five or ten minutes a day. People might say I'm acting like "the hopeless romantic" but I'd like to get married in 4 or 5 years. Yes, there are a lot of people out there who don't need to get married, but I believe at least a few people do. The lonely ones at least.
I would like to smile again. And to feel the warmth of someone again. I miss those times. I miss them greatly.
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Alexander - Posts: 877
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Four days ago, I was not ready...but I am now.
I confessed this in the Chat earlier, so here goes:
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Friday night, I cut again. Mom trusted me with a razor, I abused that power. I told her to trust me, and she did....One had not been enough....
Fifty scratches, fifteen cuts, that was my damage. However, now my scratches are gone and most of the wounds healed. The deeper ones (there were five between both of my arms, three on the left, two on the right) are still healing. Soon all will scar...
Ten on my right arm, five on my left. This was the first time to cut on my left arm.
All of them bled. Unlike last time, I did not get nauseated from it. Desensitization has taken toll. I did not feel pain. But inside, I knew what I was doing was wrong....and, on the wall, in my blood, I wrote: "Jesus, save me..." and it was soon after that that I put the razor down and began washing my wounds and stopping the bleeding.
1 Corinthians 6:19-20 is so huge in my life. I need to take those verses to heart.....
I'm such an idiot.
[SIZE="1"]"We hold onto our fears,
Our regrets of the mistakes we've made,
Behind sleeves that hide the truth.
No one quite understands..."[/SIZE]
~ excerpt taken from one of my poems. 11/21/07
I confessed this in the Chat earlier, so here goes:
WARNING: GRAPHIC CONTENT AHEAD!!!
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Friday night, I cut again. Mom trusted me with a razor, I abused that power. I told her to trust me, and she did....One had not been enough....
Fifty scratches, fifteen cuts, that was my damage. However, now my scratches are gone and most of the wounds healed. The deeper ones (there were five between both of my arms, three on the left, two on the right) are still healing. Soon all will scar...
Ten on my right arm, five on my left. This was the first time to cut on my left arm.
All of them bled. Unlike last time, I did not get nauseated from it. Desensitization has taken toll. I did not feel pain. But inside, I knew what I was doing was wrong....and, on the wall, in my blood, I wrote: "Jesus, save me..." and it was soon after that that I put the razor down and began washing my wounds and stopping the bleeding.
1 Corinthians 6:19-20 is so huge in my life. I need to take those verses to heart.....
I'm such an idiot.
[SIZE="1"]"We hold onto our fears,
Our regrets of the mistakes we've made,
Behind sleeves that hide the truth.
No one quite understands..."[/SIZE]
~ excerpt taken from one of my poems. 11/21/07
~*~ Blessed to be Ryosuke's wife!
"We will be her church, the body of Christ coming alive to
meet her needs, to write love on her arms." ~ Jamie Tworkowski
"We will be her church, the body of Christ coming alive to
meet her needs, to write love on her arms." ~ Jamie Tworkowski
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Okami - Posts: 1771
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- Location: Michigan
Alexander wrote:*sighs*
Depression, is getting tiring with me. Everyday, and all day, I feel constantly sick like being under a light cold. Doing anything requires a great amount of self-will and even then I don't get very far.
I would love it to stop. I think anyone would agree with that notion. But it keeps eating away at me, and I know material objects or my interests help little.
I'm tired of my mind slipping and having to battle back and fourth with suicide. I'm a complete wreck who can barely muster up enough energy to pray let alone try to be happy.
I'd like to be happy again for more then just five or ten minutes a day. People might say I'm acting like "the hopeless romantic" but I'd like to get married in 4 or 5 years. Yes, there are a lot of people out there who don't need to get married, but I believe at least a few people do. The lonely ones at least.
I would like to smile again. And to feel the warmth of someone again. I miss those times. I miss them greatly.
I know all to well how you feel......Just hang in there and don't give up hope on Jesus no matter what. I know he'll lead you the right woman like he will with me and every other guy. God Bless and Happy Thanksgiving.
You don't give up either Kady:thumb:. You mustn't.
Some of my favorite scriptures.
Psalm91
A thousand shall fall at thy side, and ten thousand at thy right hand; but it shall not come nigh thee.
Only with thine eyes shalt thou behold and see the reward of the wicked.
Because thou hast made the LORD, which is my refuge, even the most High, thy habitation;
There shall no evil befall thee, neither shall any plague come nigh thy dwelling.
Hebrews 4-4
1Let us therefore fear, lest, a promise being left us of entering into his rest, any of you should seem to come short of it.
2For unto us was the gospel preached, as well as unto them: but the word preached did not profit them, not being mixed with faith in them that heard it.
3For we which have believed do enter into rest, as he said, As I have sworn in my wrath, if they shall enter into my rest: although the works were finished from the foundation of the world.
4For he spake in a certain place of the seventh day on this wise, And God did rest the seventh day from all his works.
James 4
Submit yourselves, then, to God. Resist the devil, and he will flee from you. Come near to God and he will come near to you. Wash your hands, you sinners, and purify your hearts, you double-minded. Grieve, mourn and wail. Change your laughter to mourning and your joy to gloom. Humble yourselves before the Lord, and he will lift you up.
Revelation 22:14
Blessed are they that do his commandments, that they may have right to the tree of life, and may enter in through the gates into the city.
Psalm91
A thousand shall fall at thy side, and ten thousand at thy right hand; but it shall not come nigh thee.
Only with thine eyes shalt thou behold and see the reward of the wicked.
Because thou hast made the LORD, which is my refuge, even the most High, thy habitation;
There shall no evil befall thee, neither shall any plague come nigh thy dwelling.
Hebrews 4-4
1Let us therefore fear, lest, a promise being left us of entering into his rest, any of you should seem to come short of it.
2For unto us was the gospel preached, as well as unto them: but the word preached did not profit them, not being mixed with faith in them that heard it.
3For we which have believed do enter into rest, as he said, As I have sworn in my wrath, if they shall enter into my rest: although the works were finished from the foundation of the world.
4For he spake in a certain place of the seventh day on this wise, And God did rest the seventh day from all his works.
James 4
Submit yourselves, then, to God. Resist the devil, and he will flee from you. Come near to God and he will come near to you. Wash your hands, you sinners, and purify your hearts, you double-minded. Grieve, mourn and wail. Change your laughter to mourning and your joy to gloom. Humble yourselves before the Lord, and he will lift you up.
Revelation 22:14
Blessed are they that do his commandments, that they may have right to the tree of life, and may enter in through the gates into the city.
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Gabriel 9.0 - Posts: 736
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I'm still praying for you, Okami. Remember you are loved tremendously by us and more importantly by God. He loves you --
It's such a comfort to know that there's nothing I can do to cause God to love me less. Remember Christ is pleading for you before the Father and through His blood, you are declared right before God.
Hang in there, friend. I will keep praying.
It's such a comfort to know that there's nothing I can do to cause God to love me less. Remember Christ is pleading for you before the Father and through His blood, you are declared right before God.
Hang in there, friend. I will keep praying.
"Therefore we do not lose heart. Though outwardly we are wasting away, yet inwardly we are being renewed day by day. For our light and momentary troubles are achieving for us an eternal glory that far outweighs them all. So we fix our eyes not on what is seen, but on what is unseen. For what is seen is temporary, but what is unseen is eternal." 2 Corinthians 4:16-18
"Since the creation of the Internet, the Earth's rotation has been fueled, primarily, by the collective spinning of English teachers in their graves."
"Since the creation of the Internet, the Earth's rotation has been fueled, primarily, by the collective spinning of English teachers in their graves."
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Sheenar - Posts: 2989
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I used to post here (mostly in the chat) about a year ago. While I don't think I will start posting on a regular basis again, I wanted to ask for some prayer from Christians.
I've had issues with depression and anxiety for years, but recently it has only become worse and worse. I've been seeing a great counselor for a year, and have tried three different medications, all of which have been unsuccessful. I can't control my emotions anymore, and I'm starting to feel like I'm going crazy - even the smallest things become big disasters. No matter how much I try, this isn't something I can just "snap out" of.
The worst part is that I used to really love Christ. The Bible became alive to me, preachers made sense (lol), I was given so much insight and some gifts of the spirit, etc. , but it has recently become dead to me. I've tried to read the Word, but it doesn't hit me like it used to. I've nearly lost any hope of knowing/ talking to God like I used to.
To be honest, I'm afraid to die, but I'm starting to care less. I'd really appreciate prayer.
I've had issues with depression and anxiety for years, but recently it has only become worse and worse. I've been seeing a great counselor for a year, and have tried three different medications, all of which have been unsuccessful. I can't control my emotions anymore, and I'm starting to feel like I'm going crazy - even the smallest things become big disasters. No matter how much I try, this isn't something I can just "snap out" of.
The worst part is that I used to really love Christ. The Bible became alive to me, preachers made sense (lol), I was given so much insight and some gifts of the spirit, etc. , but it has recently become dead to me. I've tried to read the Word, but it doesn't hit me like it used to. I've nearly lost any hope of knowing/ talking to God like I used to.
To be honest, I'm afraid to die, but I'm starting to care less. I'd really appreciate prayer.
"The grass withers, and the flowers fade, but the word of our God stands forever." ~Isaiah 40:8
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Gooseberry - Posts: 48
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Praying, Goose. Nice to see you again. *Hug*
K. Ayato: What happens if you press the small red button?
*Explosion goes off in the movie*
mechana2015: Does that answer your question?
K. Ayato: Perfectly.
Prayer sister of kaji, sticksabuser, Angel37, and Doubleshadow --Love you guys!
*Explosion goes off in the movie*
mechana2015: Does that answer your question?
K. Ayato: Perfectly.
Prayer sister of kaji, sticksabuser, Angel37, and Doubleshadow --Love you guys!
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K. Ayato - Posts: 3881
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goose i am praying for you
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procastinators unite.......................tommorrow
[color=palegreen]So in times when all your hope is gone
And you go through life afraid
In your heart there lies a hopeful song
That is there to guide the way
And all the hurt and all the pain
You soon will learn was not in vain
For all your prayers, they will be heard
They'll come to pass through faith [/color]
[color=palegreen]~When you Believe from Prince of Egypt
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procastinators unite.......................tommorrow
[color=palegreen]So in times when all your hope is gone
And you go through life afraid
In your heart there lies a hopeful song
That is there to guide the way
And all the hurt and all the pain
You soon will learn was not in vain
For all your prayers, they will be heard
They'll come to pass through faith [/color]
[color=palegreen]~When you Believe from Prince of Egypt
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Althaia - Posts: 229
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Gooseberry: I knew someone that took some serious stress control medication, the side effect of which was that his emotions were, well, flat. He used to say that if someone came up to him and deliberately stomped on his foot, his most intense response would be "please don't do that." He could not get angry, or happy, or anything.
This makes me wonder if the dry spell you are experiencing might be a medication issue. If so, you are in one of those periods where you have to pray and read the Bible and attend church like it was a duty, not because it makes you feel good. Just keep working with these tools God has given us one day at a time. Praying for you.
This makes me wonder if the dry spell you are experiencing might be a medication issue. If so, you are in one of those periods where you have to pray and read the Bible and attend church like it was a duty, not because it makes you feel good. Just keep working with these tools God has given us one day at a time. Praying for you.
"Those who believe will be saved...so they say. Get it?"
Sister Rosette Christopher
Sorry ladies, already married to HitomiYuriko , but it took both our efforts to come up with daughter Althaia
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Sister Rosette Christopher
Sorry ladies, already married to HitomiYuriko , but it took both our efforts to come up with daughter Althaia
Please use the Haibane Renmei Lesson Plan
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SP1 - Posts: 861
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A Prayer.
Father God, I lift up to you now all those who are hurting and broken inside...that we may find rest, hope, and peace in Your name...That those around us, friends, family, counselors and doctors can help us through these storms. You're above the storm, Lord. You showed us that long before we were born, You calmed the wind and the wave with one simple command, and You long to do the same for the storms of life. The waves will crash and the thunder may strike, but in the end, You are in control. You have a tight grip on the rains (reigns? Ha, I made a funny) and You will save us when we ask....I know from experience, Lord, You loosened my grip on the razor, made me clean my wounds. You're taking care of me when I am reckless with this precious life...
Lord, I ask this of You now....save me from myself!
When I'd rather kill myself than live, take control and direct my ways, away from self-harm and the destructive behavior I've taken up. Lord, I need You in my life, I can't live with You shoved in a box, set to the side. You need free reign as my King and Savior and Comfort....When I am weak, make me strong. Light my path, be my way. Lord, heal me. Save me. I need You. We all need You.
In Jesus' name I pray,
Amen!
Lord, I ask this of You now....save me from myself!
When I'd rather kill myself than live, take control and direct my ways, away from self-harm and the destructive behavior I've taken up. Lord, I need You in my life, I can't live with You shoved in a box, set to the side. You need free reign as my King and Savior and Comfort....When I am weak, make me strong. Light my path, be my way. Lord, heal me. Save me. I need You. We all need You.
In Jesus' name I pray,
Amen!
~*~ Blessed to be Ryosuke's wife!
"We will be her church, the body of Christ coming alive to
meet her needs, to write love on her arms." ~ Jamie Tworkowski
"We will be her church, the body of Christ coming alive to
meet her needs, to write love on her arms." ~ Jamie Tworkowski
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