phobia annoyance

[bakura_fan]

Ok...i'm sick of this. I'm pretty sure it's a phobia, what else could it be? Irrational fear right? well, it's getting worse. I think I have a phobia of loose moving things (ceiling fan chains, swings, etc) and confined moving water (ocean, pool, spa, coffe or tea being stirred, etc.) The phobia comes and goes. I don't know what triggers it, but soemtimes i'm just fine with that stuff, but then, like today...I'm at work at the moment, I'm the front desk clerk of a motel...by the water...I have to clean the jacuuzi when i get here, so there's the moving water. but...that's not what majorily gets me...it's the moving blinds (the long vertical ones...not the horizontal ones) and the fan and air conditioners move them...or doors opening, or whatever. And i'm in the middle of a panic attack. I feel like screaming, I'm twitching, and almost in tears. I've prayed. Told myself that things moving is ok. Said that to every action there is an equal and opposite reaction. =_= nothing's working. any advice?

my parents suspect it's hidden trama from when i was in CA when the big earthquake hit...i think it was '89? anyway, my mom said i was out on my swingset standing on top of the slide about to go down when it started. she tried to get up to get me but couldn't due to the earthquake. I dunno. my fear has increased steadily throughout the years...and it's finally affecting my life. ;-; please...help...anyone? I'm afraid to see a doctor cause 1) no insurance for anything, 2) i'm afraid it will limit the jobs i can get, 3) what if there's nothing that can be done.

[SolidÃ…rmor]

It's probably something you just have to work on?? My friend Dave seems to be afraid of everything. Has panic attacks all the time...and I just keep telling him that he just needs to relax, take a breath, and just not let it bother him. He's working on it, and his attacks are that bad.

I'll be praying for you though.

[Blitzkrieg1701]

Lacking any knowledge of phobias and the like, I'll be praying for you too.

[OhElk]

I know how you feel I have a deathly fear of Doctors. Iatrophobia. You may want to talk to a counciler (sp?) Or someone that can be trusted. I'll pray for you.
-Kaylin

[K. Ayato]

Same here. *Hugs*

[mitsuki lover]

I think an earthquake would make a sensible reason for being afraid of moving objects,though it wouldn't account for your unreasonable fear of the water.

[Calypsa]

I don't know very much about phobias, but I do agree that it seems like an earthquake could be the root of at least the fear of loose moving objects. If you could, talking to a councilor, therapist, or someone like that might be able to help you figure out the cause of these, and help you get past it. I'll pray for you. *hug*

[mitsuki lover]

The first thing in overcoming any phobia is to admit you have it.A lot of people that have phobias don't get treated because they won't admit to having any problems.So you have taken a good first step in admitting your fear.

[bakura_fan]

well. I've known for a few years I had a phobia...but I've never gone to a specialist. Never wanted to waste the money...and we don't have any money to spend at the moment either...