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HAPPY DAYS ARE HERE AGAIN!!!!
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Ok so lets get the situation straight.
Last night i was very depressed and lonely. I didnt get to sleep until some time around 6 am.
I had nightmares the entire time i slept. Horrible nightmares about death and crap.
So i get up today and i turn on my messengers to just see who is on. Well a person i really considered a close friend and someone i could depend on messages me. This person says all i do is hold them back and they have to get rid of me.
Being the man of pride, dignity, and honor i am. I refused to grovel or beg or anything so i simply said fine.
HOWEVER it does hurt and it hurts a lot. I depended on this person so much and cared about them very deeply and they just throw me away like some kind of trash.
Why does my life have to be full of so many burdons? Why do i have so much pain to carry?
My fiancee was raped in august and she has flashbacks. Last night i had to explain why it was not her fault. why she is still pure and a virgin in both my eyes and the eyes of God.
I have no friends to turn to in my town.
I just feel like all the heaviest burdons seems to fall on my shoulders to carry.
Man this is really just a lot at one time.