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Postby VEGETA » Tue Feb 17, 2004 1:05 pm

/sarcasm\
HAPPY DAYS ARE HERE AGAIN!!!!
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Ok so lets get the situation straight.

Last night i was very depressed and lonely. I didnt get to sleep until some time around 6 am.

I had nightmares the entire time i slept. Horrible nightmares about death and crap.

So i get up today and i turn on my messengers to just see who is on. Well a person i really considered a close friend and someone i could depend on messages me. This person says all i do is hold them back and they have to get rid of me.

Being the man of pride, dignity, and honor i am. I refused to grovel or beg or anything so i simply said fine.

HOWEVER it does hurt and it hurts a lot. I depended on this person so much and cared about them very deeply and they just throw me away like some kind of trash.

Why does my life have to be full of so many burdons? Why do i have so much pain to carry?

My fiancee was raped in august and she has flashbacks. Last night i had to explain why it was not her fault. why she is still pure and a virgin in both my eyes and the eyes of God.

I have no friends to turn to in my town.

I just feel like all the heaviest burdons seems to fall on my shoulders to carry.

Man this is really just a lot at one time.

:rant:
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You push a man too far and sooner or later he pushes back. Something wicked this way comes. Alexander Thomason at large.

Im not popular at the zboard. IM INFAMOUS!!!

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I will always place my mission first.
I will never accept defeat.
I will never quit.
I will never leave a fallen comrade.
I am an american soldier.
I live by this code.

Im good enough to die for you but im not good enough to be your friend?
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Postby blueraven » Tue Feb 17, 2004 1:19 pm

I'd love to beable to say something encouraging but I've never been good at that . I do sorta know how you might be feeling, on a smaller scale of course, too much at one time. I know this isn't the prayer requests but I do hope things will get better for you and I hope you know you will always have friends here at CAA.
"Tell me not, in mournful numbers,
Life is but an empty dream!
For the soul is dead that slumbers,
and things are not what they seem.
Life is real! Life is earnest!
And the grave is not its goal;
Dust thou art; to dust returnest,
Was not spoken of the soul."
-Henry Wadsworth Longfellow
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Postby CobaltAngel » Tue Feb 17, 2004 1:25 pm

OMG! *huggle* Sometimes, I know its very very hard, you just have to believe that God loves you no matter what, through and through. Sometimes bad things happen, but you have to use them to make you stronger. Life is hard, I know that... but you're not the only one that goes threw this type of thing, and remember there are people on here that will always listen.
I'll be praying for you ***HUG***
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Postby Zilch » Tue Feb 17, 2004 1:56 pm

Hey, we're always here(trust me, there's almost always someone on!). We'll be praying.
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Postby Hitokiri » Tue Feb 17, 2004 2:16 pm

i will be praying for you even though this is not in the prayer request forum.

I know what it's like to lose really good friends. I lost my pretty much best friend in the entire world to his girlfriend. I see him everyday at school and stuff but we're just not as close as we were, though I have made more friends.

Just have faith and keep your head up.
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Postby Mave » Wed Feb 18, 2004 6:51 am

Dear Vegeta,

I have no words best to comfort you or guide you...but I know God does. I'll pray for you and leave you with this, from today's Daily Bread since it really encouraged me.

"some Christians are surrounded by trouble—trouble to the right, trouble to the left, trouble in front, and trouble behind. At this, a man who had served the Lord for many years, shouted, "Glory to God, it's always open at the top!" - Daily Bread
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Postby Kokhiri Sojourn » Fri Feb 20, 2004 6:50 pm

Wow. I never know what to say in response to posts like this. I know so many people that hurt so deeply from wounds like this, yet none are exactly the same. Many times words are just words, and in comparison to experience, mean next to nothing. But in truth, I'm praying for you, and know that God will be with you. Only He can truly heal these kinds of wounds. I've seen so many close friends question this and look for other means of healing, and nothing does. I know this is just more words on a screen, but they come from seeing it all in others. Search ths Word of God and let Him work in you and your fiancee. Many of the Psalms are wonderful for comfort and encouragement, and if you want any specific ones, I could point if you want to ask. I don't want to get really preachy or anything. Suffice it to say, I/we are praying for you, and know that you're in good hands if your in His hands.
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Postby Fsiphskilm » Fri Feb 20, 2004 8:40 pm

Raped o_O. That's
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Postby Azier the Swordsman » Sat Feb 21, 2004 3:37 am

Hmmm... this happened with me and my best friend along time ago.... only there were no words spoken about the matter, he just stopped wanting to hang out with me. So I can pretty much understand how you feel. I'll be praying for you.
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Postby Hitokiri » Sat Feb 21, 2004 9:14 am

thiers a song called "Promise" by a band name Spoken. Here's what the chorus say and I hope it touces you in a way it touched me. It's a song I listen to when extremely down and depressed.

"Things will get better this I promise to you. And I know you won't feel this way forever. Things will get better this I promise to you and I know loneliness won't last forever."
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Postby VEGETA » Sun Feb 22, 2004 1:02 am

I appreciate everyones comments. I am moving on as far as the friend thing goes. She made her decision and she will have to live with it.

Im doing better. I got to talk to Marylou (my fiancee) tonight and it really cheered me up. She has such a gorgeous voice. Its like the song of angels. *sighs in a happy and content way*
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Im not popular at the zboard. IM INFAMOUS!!!

I am an American Soldier.
I will always place my mission first.
I will never accept defeat.
I will never quit.
I will never leave a fallen comrade.
I am an american soldier.
I live by this code.

Im good enough to die for you but im not good enough to be your friend?
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Postby JediSonic » Sun Feb 22, 2004 7:33 am

Glad to see you're starting to feel better :)

Corinthians 4:8-9 - [i]“We are hard pressed on every side. yet not crushed; we are perplexed, but not in despair; persecuted, but not forsaken; struck down, but not destroyed.â€
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