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...I have no clue anymore whats going on, I'm emotionally torn, and I'm losing the will to live. what a happy day!!

No kidding bro, I've got a headache myself after the past hour. But I know that God will honor His Word, and in more ways than one.

Woah, dude, tell us specifically what is happening? We need details.

Lochaber Axe wrote:Woah, dude, tell us specifically what is happening? We need details.

just the universe's secret plan to devour my humanity...

Okay, your joking with the whole thing. I don't like that kind of humor, it can lead to misinterpretation and all of those lovely things to talk about at night.

I'm not joking... I'm serious, I'm actually losing the will to live.
it's been building up for years but now I can't handle it anymore...

I know you don't know me very well, but care to talk about it?

ok, but I don't usually talk about my feelings to other people, including my parents.
I've lost all of my emotions, I don't feel happy, I don't feel sad, I don't feel anything anymore. I just... can't tell anything more...

Perhaps that could be the start of your problems then, it's good to get stuff out. What about making a livejournal or something that's just for you where you can just hack away at your keyboard until you feel better? It's just good to vent.

What started this melancholic mood? Knowing the cause might help.

I'd hate to say "I can help!!" and then go to bed, but man.... I'm getting sleepy. Long day tomorrow! Not that you're not important though, feel free to IM me though and I'll make time to see how you're feeling!

If you've seen some of my previous posts... you know I sympathize.

Maybe try getting some help. I haven't exactly got my help yet, but I'm close to it. I'm supposed to go in for a psych eval this month, and I'm waiting for a therapist who is supposed to call me so we can get an appointment set up.

What's helping me now is.. the future. It's simply the thought that I will get help to be better sometime soon.

So, maybe trying to set up to get some help will help you?

Um... don't do anything drastic to yourself, no matter how you feel. If you feel that way, please, call a hotline. They are out there. I'm getting the help I need because I called one.

I feel the same way sometimes. Actually, stupid as it sounds, I think boredom is a major factor in this. But, delve into God wholeheartedly, and there's no way you'll be without a will if you meet with Him eye-to-eye...and...that's all I can really say...

I don't know your situation (feel free to PM or IM me if you want to share it in detail), but I can offer some general advice that may help.

It may sound corny, but things will get better. They always do eventually. If you are in the middle of some sort of trial, or if things just haven't worked out for you lately, don't forget that the Lord will deliver you.

There are three possible situations that I can think of that could be causing this, and I will deal with each of them. The list is not exhaustive, but it is comprehensive. Even if they don't help you, perhaps they will be comforting to someone else who happens to see this:

1.Transition-Are you in the middle of a major change in your life, such as moving, parents' divorce, etc.? I know I felt pretty bad right before I left for colege, but once I got there, I found out that it wasn't so bad; and it was definitely not so bad that suicide was a viable option.

2.Work-Have you had a ton of work, activities, or other concerns weighing on you recently? I find that this is depressing, especially at the point right before you are almost finished when you are really tired. The important thing is not to stop, but to keep moving forward so that you will earn the rest that follows.

3.Relationships-Have you had "girl troubles" lately? Did you just break up with someone, or see someone that you liked start dating someone else? This can be painful, but once again, it is only temporary. Instead of being sad about the situation, be glad that the Lord has someone for you, and that he loves you enough not to let you stay with the wrong person.

Maybe it is more than one of these things affecting you right now. I don't know. What I do know is that ending your life is not the answer, and that things will get better if you just wait.