Great... I've gained aclimation (Warning: Rant)
PostPosted: Wed Oct 21, 2009 12:05 am
STUPID MISERABLE WORTHLESS BODY! Opens fire on self with a rocket launcher.
So this is a rant, I brought myself two whole cans of Vault two days ago to keep my body up TWO WHOLE CANS. My sleep cycle is a complete wreck as 10 pages of homework every two days is keeping me up till 2-3AM every morning and after a short period of time I can't get my body to bed, even with a sleeping pill.
Some moron who was apparently a morning person... they should be fed to sharks with lasers on their heads... thought it would be a great idea to place Abstract Algebra (A 400 level math course) at 9 AM in the morning and as you can tell, a conflict ensues between my body and mind.
So, after taking two cans of Vault... TWO WHOLE CANS! (What is that, 140 mg of caffeine) I was still experiencing effects from microsleep and despite thinking constantly to stay awake (which does wonders for you concentration of actually absorbing material) I was in the hell of nearly falling asleep for two and a half hours (I was spreading it out across that time period too to avoid an up down effect). By the time I got home, I was so **** with this worthless hunk of junk I was ready to take out my boken and seriously beat the living heck of out of it.
(Sorry God, I took your wonderful little gift to it's required limits and it didn't perform... I think I might just break it at this pace)
... I was quite the little sadist now wasn't I ^_^... Don't ever make me mad when I'm tired I guess .
Anyways, I have a test tomorrow and to avoid having to go to the bathroom I can't drink ten cans of vault... not that it would do any good by this point... but if I so much as blink my eyes, this is my official verbal warning to my body. IF IT SO MUCH AS BLINKS ONE EYE-LID I WILL FORCE IT TO STAY UP FOR THE NEXT TWO WEEKS STRAIGHT BY INHALING NON-STOPPED CAFFEINE TO PUNISH IT! TAKE THAT! Thus, that is my negative reinforcement... maybe a written warning will do though. IT HAD BETTER!
There isn't much I can do though, this stupid body has been running on less then 6 hours sleep a night (Generally after calming down, nearer to 3-5 hours) for the last what... the last 8-9 weeks (I generally at least get 4 hours though ^_^)? And what sleep it does get is interferred with by massive quantities of caffeine used to keep it up. The less it sleeps, the less it learns, the longer it has to stay up to get homework done. What brilliant mind came up with this schema? Yes. Probobly me. But if it's my fault, my body is responsible and it should take the blaim! So, in the future, I'm increasing my morning caffeine quantities to roughly 500 mg if possible without blowing out my bladder and using sporks to punish my arm should my body decide that shut eye is more valuable then class time! TO SELF OBLITERATION! MWAH HA HA HA!
~@_@... I JUST WANT TO SLEEP!
So let this be a lesson to all! Do not sign up for courses that require more work then you have waking hours to devote to them. You will end up like me... with the problem of explaining all the spork marks in my arm after advanced math courses... and Temmy can't be blamed for all of them! Luckily, there are insufficient people around here that would actually care, and the winter months would hide them real well with a long sleeve shirt.
If anything else though, this will be an excellent experiment in long term sleep deprivation! *Dies*
Things I never truly understood about sleep deprivation before this semester:
1) It can travel all the way to the core of your bones so that you feel like they are permiated in that fluid that makes you tired.
2) It gives you the shakes so that you uncontrollably start shaking in your arms and hands for no good reason.
3) It rapidly increases your heart rate so that you notice the increase in it's beating speed. (Let's see how high my heart rate after resting for hours is now: (Counts beats from pulse on wrist over a ten second period then multiplies by 60) about... 120ish?) Woohooo cardiac arrest here I come!
4) You put on large amounts of weight because your body tries to overcompensate for a lack of energy by telling you your are really hungry... especially if like me you're eating one meal a day.
5) Motivation and meaning lose all value and you simply act because that's what you chose!
6) Waking up describes a new kind of pain.
7) You start wondering if the room you've seen for the last several years happens to have a sink and start associating natural body pains with various colors mentally while awake.
8) You are always out of breath just from walking. There never seems to be enough oxygen in the air to breath.
9) Microsleep stinks, it uncontrollably takes over your body and causes your head to repeatedly fall forward and jerk you back awake like your neck was having mini seizures every couple of seconds.
10) You just get sick. I mean, I've had this cough from this thing that just comes off and on for the last several months, the stupid thing just won't go away. Luckily I got some meds for my tonsils though when they flared up.
But no matter what, if I die from this, it will serve as an example for all. So that whenever any teacher declares that homework never killed anyone... EVERYONE CAN POINT TO PASCAL! WOOHOO!!!!! I AM AN EXTREME ACADEMIC! EAT YOUR HEART OUT GOLDWATER SCHOLARS!
(So don't believe them if they say I died from cardiac arrest, I died from complications of academic compulsory homework disorder! But that's 'k, cause if I die before I wake, that's one lest test I'll have to take ^_^! unless Jesus made a copy T_T. >_> I REFUSE TO TAKE IT <_<!
lov yall, goodnight... for those that are allowed to sleep. I'll try, I promise and I REALLY want to keep that promise! I've given this little race this semester my all, and if I get a C (or even if I got worse) I'd of earned that grade more then any other sucker in the class. I will have truly found out what I am capable of, even if I meet my limits en route.
PS, no counter rants or OMG you can't do that statements allowed (I'm ALREADY depressed people, no need to yell at me more for this). I made this decision, I take responsibility for the actions. 1-0-0-%.
Carpe Noctem
-Pascal
So this is a rant, I brought myself two whole cans of Vault two days ago to keep my body up TWO WHOLE CANS. My sleep cycle is a complete wreck as 10 pages of homework every two days is keeping me up till 2-3AM every morning and after a short period of time I can't get my body to bed, even with a sleeping pill.
Some moron who was apparently a morning person... they should be fed to sharks with lasers on their heads... thought it would be a great idea to place Abstract Algebra (A 400 level math course) at 9 AM in the morning and as you can tell, a conflict ensues between my body and mind.
So, after taking two cans of Vault... TWO WHOLE CANS! (What is that, 140 mg of caffeine) I was still experiencing effects from microsleep and despite thinking constantly to stay awake (which does wonders for you concentration of actually absorbing material) I was in the hell of nearly falling asleep for two and a half hours (I was spreading it out across that time period too to avoid an up down effect). By the time I got home, I was so **** with this worthless hunk of junk I was ready to take out my boken and seriously beat the living heck of out of it.
(Sorry God, I took your wonderful little gift to it's required limits and it didn't perform... I think I might just break it at this pace)
... I was quite the little sadist now wasn't I ^_^... Don't ever make me mad when I'm tired I guess .
Anyways, I have a test tomorrow and to avoid having to go to the bathroom I can't drink ten cans of vault... not that it would do any good by this point... but if I so much as blink my eyes, this is my official verbal warning to my body. IF IT SO MUCH AS BLINKS ONE EYE-LID I WILL FORCE IT TO STAY UP FOR THE NEXT TWO WEEKS STRAIGHT BY INHALING NON-STOPPED CAFFEINE TO PUNISH IT! TAKE THAT! Thus, that is my negative reinforcement... maybe a written warning will do though. IT HAD BETTER!
There isn't much I can do though, this stupid body has been running on less then 6 hours sleep a night (Generally after calming down, nearer to 3-5 hours) for the last what... the last 8-9 weeks (I generally at least get 4 hours though ^_^)? And what sleep it does get is interferred with by massive quantities of caffeine used to keep it up. The less it sleeps, the less it learns, the longer it has to stay up to get homework done. What brilliant mind came up with this schema? Yes. Probobly me. But if it's my fault, my body is responsible and it should take the blaim! So, in the future, I'm increasing my morning caffeine quantities to roughly 500 mg if possible without blowing out my bladder and using sporks to punish my arm should my body decide that shut eye is more valuable then class time! TO SELF OBLITERATION! MWAH HA HA HA!
~@_@... I JUST WANT TO SLEEP!
So let this be a lesson to all! Do not sign up for courses that require more work then you have waking hours to devote to them. You will end up like me... with the problem of explaining all the spork marks in my arm after advanced math courses... and Temmy can't be blamed for all of them! Luckily, there are insufficient people around here that would actually care, and the winter months would hide them real well with a long sleeve shirt.
If anything else though, this will be an excellent experiment in long term sleep deprivation! *Dies*
Things I never truly understood about sleep deprivation before this semester:
1) It can travel all the way to the core of your bones so that you feel like they are permiated in that fluid that makes you tired.
2) It gives you the shakes so that you uncontrollably start shaking in your arms and hands for no good reason.
3) It rapidly increases your heart rate so that you notice the increase in it's beating speed. (Let's see how high my heart rate after resting for hours is now: (Counts beats from pulse on wrist over a ten second period then multiplies by 60) about... 120ish?) Woohooo cardiac arrest here I come!
4) You put on large amounts of weight because your body tries to overcompensate for a lack of energy by telling you your are really hungry... especially if like me you're eating one meal a day.
5) Motivation and meaning lose all value and you simply act because that's what you chose!
6) Waking up describes a new kind of pain.
7) You start wondering if the room you've seen for the last several years happens to have a sink and start associating natural body pains with various colors mentally while awake.
8) You are always out of breath just from walking. There never seems to be enough oxygen in the air to breath.
9) Microsleep stinks, it uncontrollably takes over your body and causes your head to repeatedly fall forward and jerk you back awake like your neck was having mini seizures every couple of seconds.
10) You just get sick. I mean, I've had this cough from this thing that just comes off and on for the last several months, the stupid thing just won't go away. Luckily I got some meds for my tonsils though when they flared up.
But no matter what, if I die from this, it will serve as an example for all. So that whenever any teacher declares that homework never killed anyone... EVERYONE CAN POINT TO PASCAL! WOOHOO!!!!! I AM AN EXTREME ACADEMIC! EAT YOUR HEART OUT GOLDWATER SCHOLARS!
(So don't believe them if they say I died from cardiac arrest, I died from complications of academic compulsory homework disorder! But that's 'k, cause if I die before I wake, that's one lest test I'll have to take ^_^! unless Jesus made a copy T_T. >_> I REFUSE TO TAKE IT <_<!
lov yall, goodnight... for those that are allowed to sleep. I'll try, I promise and I REALLY want to keep that promise! I've given this little race this semester my all, and if I get a C (or even if I got worse) I'd of earned that grade more then any other sucker in the class. I will have truly found out what I am capable of, even if I meet my limits en route.
PS, no counter rants or OMG you can't do that statements allowed (I'm ALREADY depressed people, no need to yell at me more for this). I made this decision, I take responsibility for the actions. 1-0-0-%.
Carpe Noctem
-Pascal