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Just wondering, as I was sitting here reflecting my week; what are the things we most want to change about ourselves?
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As for me, I often say things at the wrong time, most times very bluntly, which comes out as harsh and unwanted...when I might have been kidding around or trying to give good advice (or a bit of both) I've found this especially difficult to control on the internet.

I've also got a crazy pessimistic outlook on life, generally referring to myself as an "Optimistic Pessimist". I talked about that to someone the other day, and they calmly replied with "Why not try changing that to Optimistic Realist?" Too true, as I'm always pondering the many possibilities of life.

Alongside those things, I want to be a good leader. A good influence. Especially in the highschool scene, I want to look and act mature and responsible. Leadership has always been a goal I've wanted to achieve, but never really taken a stand for. Right now, with the end bits of depression wearing off, and being head of the GLPT, I need to be there for others.
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These three things I pray about quite often nowadays as I try to shift through the possibilities of what my purpose in life is. Only God can change us, ultimately, but are we going to make the first step, ourselves?

dude, I was thinking about this just earlier today.

I would change myself to be smarter becaue I'm pretty perfectionist and when I get problems wrong it makes me have a fit.

I would change myself to not be such a skank...I catch myself flirting or trying to get guys to like me, and I think that is so jerky! I mean, I do have a low opinon of boys, but still I wish I wouldn't treat thier hearts as trophies.

I would have a wonderful sense of fashion, I wouldn't eat junk food, I would do my stretches and dance practice and crutches every night, I would get more work done each day....tons of things.

Heh but don't worry I'm not depressed guys ^^` I've been getting a bit angry at myself lately...a bit 'emo,' if you will...but overall I'm a very joyful person so don't feel too bad for me lol

What would I like to change about myself... Gee, how much time do ya'll have?

First off, I wouldn't be so lazy. I'm SERIOUSLY lacking in the drive department, taking too long to start something and often giving up far too easily.

Sort of connected to that, I'd also like to be a lot braver. That is, more assertive. I'm normally a very passive, shy fellow (which isn't QUITE the same as the laziness bit) and I wish I had the confidence to speak up more and not be afraid to act.

And, as a sequel to BOTH of those, I would witness a lot more than I do now. Between the laziness and the shyness, I don't share the gospel anywhere NEAR as often as I should, so that would definitely change.

And on a far less significant note... I wish I could cook. Seriously, I can't prepare anything that doesn't come out of a box in the freezer.

...you know what, now that I look over this, the Lord has already been working on most of these things lately. How do you like that? (I'm still waiting on the cooking though, Lord)

I think I would want to be more outgoing and sociable in person.

mitsuki lover wrote:I think I would want to be more outgoing and sociable in person.

Same here. And I wish I have the ability (charisma?) to help my family in the time of crisis instead of leaving them to rub against each other.

Yeah,it be nice if we could all start over again with better personalities and be nicer persons to begin with then have to get it pounded into us
through bad expierences and end up wondering what we could have done differently.