Postby Yumie » Mon Sep 26, 2005 9:45 pm
I used to when I was between the ages of like 6 and 9 or so (I don't know if those were the exact ages, but it was in those early years.) Any time I did anything wrong I felt so guilty and thought I might not be going to heaven. Not that I thought I had LOST my salvation, I don't believe anybody is capable of that, but that I never had it in the first place. I thought maybe I wasn't sincere enough, so I prayed it over and over and over again multiple times a day. There were times when I felt OK and thought it had "worked," but then I would do something bad and begin to question it through guilt again. Finally, I realized that God is a forgiving God and that the way to deal guilt is not through repeatedly asking for salvation, but repeatedly asking for forgiveness. After I realized that, I felt forgiven for the things I'd done wrong, and because He's said He'll "never leave me nor forsake me," I don't think I've really questioned it since for any extended period of time. Occasionally I have fleeting thoughts but that's about it really.
Be Thou my Vision, O Lord of my heart;
Naught be all else to me, save that Thou art
Thou my best Thought, by day or by night,
Waking or sleeping, Thy presence my light.
Be Thou my Wisdom, and Thou my true Word;
I ever with Thee and Thou with me, Lord;
Thou my great Father, I Thy true son;
Thou in me dwelling, and I with Thee one.
Be Thou my battle Shield, Sword for the fight;
Be Thou my Dignity, Thou my Delight;
Thou my soul’s Shelter, Thou my high Tower:
Raise Thou me heavenward, O Power of my power.
Riches I heed not, nor man’s empty praise,
Thou mine Inheritance, now and always:
Thou and Thou only, first in my heart,
High King of Heaven, my Treasure Thou art.
High King of Heaven, my victory won,
May I reach Heaven’s joys, O bright Heaven’s Sun!
Heart of my own heart, whatever befall,
Still be my Vision, O Ruler of all.