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PostPosted: Fri Jul 15, 2005 11:53 am
this is very hard for me to write…but I feel that I should share this…not so long ago I was engaged and prepared to give my heart away to the man I thought would spend the rest of his life with me…I was ready and prepared to stay faithful and true to one man, but God had different plans…he did not want me to marry this man and I have accepted that…my ex-fiancée has made it clear he doesn’t want to get married right now, but I refuse to wait for him just so he can date some more…it was while I spent many hours praying that God revealed something amazing to me…something I had forgotten in all my excitement…he reminded me that I was in his hands and that I was his child…he is the ultimate father who will not give me away to just anyone…I thank god for this now…yes, my heart is still hurting and yes I am still sad for my husband…that he has made this decision…but I believe it is for the best now…for a while…sadness was my only friend and cutting was a window out…God also showed me there were others ways to cope…I am currently working on a manga series and I believe that God is going to allow me to change the world with this…even if I don’t get married right now…perhaps God knew I wasn’t ready but I am glad for what he has done…I’ll remember that no matter what he will always guide and love me…thanx for all your support…I don’t know what I would do without it…living alone is tough but I don’t feel so alone anymore…so keep praying if you would…I’m not exactly sure where I should’ve put this but I’ll stick it here anyway… God Bless!