CAA: Christian Anime Alliance

I dunno if anyone cares... but I have basically no one to talk to... so I guess I'll post here =) I have no real friends on here.... I probably never will, my online communication abilities are minimal and noobish. I wont stop trying though! You all seem so cool I wish I could be really close friends to all of you! Ok time to spill out my problems here....

Lately I've been feeling a little different. I cant eat. This is so weird, I used to eat tons, now I get full looking at a sandwich. And when I do eat it doesnt stay in very long.... if you know what i mean... I hope I'm not going to get very sick, I keep taking vitamins for fear of getting malnutrition... but I just can't eat! I don't get it.

I've also been having this weird isolated feeling. I just want to be left alone a lot. I am beginning to believe there is no one in this town I can really like. I get along with everyone, and I guess people see me as a good friend, but deep down inside I don't really feel I have anyone as a REAL close friend.

I really have the urge to leave to. I want nothing more than to go out on adventures. Here there are lots of things to do, but I've done most of it. My adventures now consist of running, going through trails through the woods, or bike riding. The other day a HUGE thunderhead was approaching, so I jumped on my bike and rode into it. It was scary but a lot of fun. Thats not good... Im usually terrified of thunderstorms.

Speaking of terror, I am beginning to fear things a lot less. My number one fear all my life has been wasps. I couldnt get near them without almost passing out, yet the other day I saw one, walked right up to it and smacked it with my hand. eesh.... and I wasnt feeling fear at all. It was so weird, because I usually hide in my bed all night afraid there are wasps buzzing around, or cautiously moving around afraid a wasp will appear.

I havent been any less happy, I'm still usually upbeat and outgoing, but I just find myself feeling more annoyed around the people I am in contact with day to day. This isn't me... I don't know whats wrong!

And to top it all off today in our town a man escaped from prison somehow, stole a minivan, drove away cause a 4 car wreck, flipped the mini van, ran out of the car and off into the woods. This normally wouldnt be a big deal but I think theres something the media isnt telling us. The whole army was practically after this guy, swat teams, snipers, helicopters EVERYTHING! All they're saying he did was break into 2 homes. So I guess he got away in another vehicle and drove off. This has happened before, but wasn't even news! I feel there is something very dangerous about this man, and I don't like him in the area. (this is kind of off subject but hey I was on a roll =)


ANYHOO does anyone know what might be wrong here? Its weird...

That's strange. What's wrong with you, I can't say...but I think you might be feeling restless. Is there something you want to do that you haven't?

I know how you feel. Sometimes, even though there are a lot of people here, it gets really lonely around CAA. -_- It's not always easy to break in because everyone has their little cliques, and inevitably, somebody gets left out.

We can band together though! We shall be...the rejects of CAA! XD

Anybody?

Madeline your so true!
CAA is full of cliques, Im not part of any myself~
Hahah lets make one!
How bout it?!

I'm not sure.

About feeling lonely on CAA. Your not alone on that, I have felt this before and their are others that have felt like that too.

Alot of us do. The board is so big and sometimes we just forget. We shouldn't but we do at times.


My problem is, I'm shy on the net. I'm starting to break the ice as being more open. Believe me, it helps, I feel alot better and stuff.

I would love to go to the CAA chat, but it will not load for me, so I'm stuck talking on IM programs.

PM me and if you want to talk.

The same goes everyone else too.

The first forum I joined, I have now been a amember for about a eyar and a half, and I still don't know anyone very well. They weren't snubbing me, I just was too passive. The people I meet here PMed me first. Shyness aside, just take the initiative.

I think I cursed myself. When I woke up this morning I just heard news that 2 people that were sort of my friends died in a car crash. curse these Fry hands!!!

I use AIM to.... dont talk to me for like a day I'll be depressed (unless you dont mind that kinda thing)

I felt exactly like you do when I first signed up. It was so big and so unfriendly, really. I thought that by posting more and being around alot I would 'get accepted', and in a limited degree that's true. The truth, is, though, that you'll have as many friends as you want.

To clarify, you'll get to know people if you initiate PM conversations, etc., and just make an effort to talk to people. Find out who shares common interests, who you seem to be able to talk most comfortably with, etc. And online presence matters, too, no matter what other people might say. Spelling, punctuation, formatting...all of that makes an impression. A lot of people are a lot less likely to talk to someone who says "HowD33! |-|o\/\/ R j00?".

I hope that helps you out a bit.

As for your 'weird' problem, I have no idea.

Madeline wrote:
We can band together though! We shall be...the rejects of CAA! XD

Anybody?

Is there a club for rejects that have been rejected by rejects?

Is there a club for rejects that have been rejected by rejects?

It's called "exile". (jk)

Your "problem" sounds alot like me. I've had alot of wierd, unexplaneable changes happen like that.

Also, I don't find myself part of any kind of "clique". If I find someone who has interests similar to mine, I'll talk to them, and maybe end up as their friend. Still, I generally prefer being friends with people who know how to talk/post correctly.

Also, I don't find myself part of any kind of "clique". If I find someone who has interests similar to mine, I'll talk to them, and maybe end up as their friend. Still, I generally prefer being friends with people who know how to talk/post correctly.

Very well put. That's exactly what I meant, only Myoti said it more concisely.

Heh, maybe we should be friends, GP.

Is there a club for rejects that have been rejected by rejects?

Madeline your so true!
CAA is full of cliques, Im not part of any myself~
Hahah lets make one!
How bout it?!

And so the Rejects of CAA was born!

*sigh* the wreck was so bad they needed dental records to identify the bodies =( its so terrible... he was apparantly speeding, the car hit trees and kind of exploded.

I feel bad in a way. I didnt talk to him much, we kind of got along, but he was always saying really bad things such as "I'm gonna skull *(^& you" and made me annoyed to be around him. His lasting impressions were kind of weak.

As for the girl who was with him. She was really nice. She was in the outing club with me, we hiked quite a bit together... and her sister is just going off into college. I feel so terrible =/

As for the friends thing, I hope I can get a lot of friends here =) Everyone seems so nice... and unlike the people I've been forced to grow up with.

I'm sorry to hear about all this stuff that's happening to you. If you need to talk to someone, I'm here to listen! (I don't mind depressed stuff, I'll live)

Whoa. I have lately been going through weird changes very similar to yours. I'm sorry to hear about your acquaintances. That sounds so sad. About the friends thing, I can relate. I sorta feel the same way, not really belonging to any particular clique, but sorta fitting in with different ones at different times. I'm all for the CAA Rejects group! Although... That would be kind-of an oxy-moron, having a club for people who are supposedly rejects. Heh heh.

I've thought about it, im not even upset, Im angry. for terrible reasons... that make me feel like a bad person. I hope I could get some good friends! how many people have AIM?

Many of us have that info up in our profiles. Just click around and see what you find!

Heh, maybe we should be friends, GP.

I'm always up for it, although I don't know how well I'd get along with a One Piece fan.

Well ya... but I hate just IMing people. Goodness knows what your doing while your on there! I'm really shy when it comes to first IMs, I never even check my buddy list...

Personally, I never sign on unless I'm going to talk. I don't just log on for the heck of it while I do other things.

You're right, though: it probably isn't a good idea to just go around IM-ing people. Might want to start out with the Private Messaging system here at CAA.

your welcome to pm me, i get kinda lonly around hear too...

I just leave AIM on hoping people will talk to me, unless I'm playing a video game on the computer. I'm usually just walking around my room playing with ferrets, watching tv, playing guitar, playing a console etc. I'm not a very... computery guy! lol

But I realize others arent like this. They get on AIM and snap at people who try to IM them, or act annoyed... like they've got much better things to do. OR so i assume =) this may not be the case lol! =)

I don't have AIM... But I have Yahoo!Messenger. Do you have it?

The best thing to do is get AIM, MSN, and YIM. That pretty much covers everything.

I have YIM. I cant stand MSN! the thing bothers me... its just not... easy! Like... its always on and i can never shut it off for some reason. And i cant figure out how to add people but yeah i have yahoo covered, i have like no friends on it so i never turn it on though =/

I have yahoo messenger, but its not working on my computer right now:(
anyways i dont know whats going on with all the weird stuffs that are happening to you, but i can relate to you on the feeling left out of cliques thing. as a matter of fact, reading some of the posts on this thread really surprised me-i thought i was the only one! it just always seems like everyone is so much older then me and more experienced on the computer...it kinda makes me feel like they think that im not good enough to be thier friend.

teen4truth

in real life i can make friends so much easier i think... but for some reason I suffer online a lot =/

Just a note to the people forming "The Rejects of CAA" club: Someone tried to form a similar club not too long ago and it was not received well by the staff. However, I think that if you're careful, it could be done.

Sonic_13 wrote:I've also been having this weird isolated feeling. I just want to be left alone a lot. I am beginning to believe there is no one in this town I can really like. I get along with everyone, and I guess people see me as a good friend, but deep down inside I don't really feel I have anyone as a REAL close friend.

I have experienced similar feelings. It could be that you are becoming more introverted. I was a major extrovert until 5th grade, and then I did a 180 and went completely introvert.

Sonic_13 wrote:I really have the urge to leave to. I want nothing more than to go out on adventures. Here there are lots of things to do, but I've done most of it. My adventures now consist of running, going through trails through the woods, or bike riding. The other day a HUGE thunderhead was approaching, so I jumped on my bike and rode into it. It was scary but a lot of fun. Thats not good... Im usually terrified of thunderstorms.

It's ok to want to be adventurous, just as long as you don't do something that would harm you (like riding your bike at a tornado).

Sonic_13 wrote:Speaking of terror, I am beginning to fear things a lot less. My number one fear all my life has been wasps. I couldnt get near them without almost passing out, yet the other day I saw one, walked right up to it and smacked it with my hand. eesh.... and I wasnt feeling fear at all. It was so weird, because I usually hide in my bed all night afraid there are wasps buzzing around, or cautiously moving around afraid a wasp will appear.

There's nothing wrong with conquering your fears. I used to not even be able to look at a spider without almost going into convulsions. Just today I found a spider crawling on my hand and was able to sit there and watch it crawl until it fell off on it's own accord (I haven't worked up the nerve to watch the 3rd Lord of the Rings movie yet, though).

Sonic_13 wrote:I havent been any less happy, I'm still usually upbeat and outgoing, but I just find myself feeling more annoyed around the people I am in contact with day to day. This isn't me... I don't know whats wrong!

I have had similar experiences. Again, I credit it to my introvertedness. However, if you are sure that this isn't you, (I'm sorry if this answer will be frustrating, because I have sometimes thought it to be so, but I've found that it often works) pray about it.

Hey Sonic_13(daddy^_^) Um, I dont know what introvertedness is, but I do think maybe these strange stuffs are happening because you are getting older and people seem to tend to change once entering adulthood. I guess its just the time that you start to figure out who you truly are.

in real life i can make friends so much easier i think... but for some reason I suffer online a lot =/

Actually, since i joined ive always percieved you as an internet social light! But if that doesnt make you fell better, then i will ofcourse be friends with you, and with anyone else reading this post as well:)

teen4truth

thanks for the words of support friends =) It's just been lately these abnormalities have been occuring.. .and I just don't feel like the older me... or is it younger me? The elements that make me who I am remain intact though =) My friends haven't noticed change in me, my family hasnt either (except the eating thing). Its so hard to talk about it, but talking to the people here seems very comforting.

Stress abo