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Ugh! I hate this... I feel like dying...

Why do feel like that?

I don't really know... I just feel like everyone hates me, and there's no point in living... I'm just really depressed right now... And I don't want to be.

aww zelly. i know that feeling all to well. but trust me...you aren't hated. ^^ a lot of ppl love you. ^^ *hugs zelly* if i didn't luv ya i wouldn't have given you a nickname! ^^ there is a point to living...i just haven't totally figured out my point but i know i have one...i think. plz zelly don't do what i did...it hurts. -_-

Yeah...

We Wuvs U!

You are who you are for a reason.
You're part of an intricate plan.
You're a precious and perfect unique design,
Called God's special woman or man.

You look like you look for a reason.
Our God made no mistake.
He knit you together within the womb,
You're just what he wanted to make.

The parents you had were the ones he chose,
And no matter how you may feel,
They were custom-designed with God's plan in mind,
And they bear the Master's seal.

No, that trauma you faced was not easy.
And God wept that it hurt you so;
But it was allowed to shape your heart
So that into his likeness you'd grow.

You are who you are for a reason,
You've been formed by the Master's rod.
You are who you are, beloved,
Because there is a God!

Russell Kelfer

Yeah, I'm just so depressed! I don't want to be sad...

Yeah.. I know what it's like... it really sucks. Everytime it happens to me I force myself into worshipping... it's usually really hard for me to start... but once I do the Lord makes it all go away... (at least for awhile)

Well, I actually kind of have been without realizing it. I was just singing a worship song.

I'll say it before Shooraijin-dono does. ^_^

If you kill yourself, you'll never be able to wake up happy. Remember, it WILL happen someday. ^_^

we're here for you, Zelda.

speaking of worship songs when you're down, my favorite one to sing is the Cares Chorus:

i cast all my cares upon You,
i lay all of my burdens down at Your feet,
and anytime i don't know what to do,
i cast all my cares upon You.

(if you want to hear the song, if you haven't before, go here: URL=http://www.higherpraise.com/MusicMidiC.htm]http://www.higherpraise.com/MusicMidiC.htm[/URL], and click on one of the MIDI files for it.)

and here are some Bible verses:

"Why are you downcast, O my soul? Why so disturbed within me? Put your hope in God, for I will yet praise him, my Savior and my God. My soul is downcast within me; therefore I will remember you from the land of the Jordan, the heights of Hermon—from Mount Mizar" (Psalm 42:5-6).

"Come to me, all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest. Take my yoke upon you and learn from me, for I am gentle and humble in heart, and you will find rest for your souls. For my yoke is easy and my burden is light" (Matthew 11:28-30).

and just for good measure:

Zelda27 wrote:Well, I actually kind of have been without realizing it. I was just singing a worship song.

yah...that's how i was a few weeks ago...and i think everyone remembers that. things will get better Zelly. i know they will. during that time for me i didn't think things would every be bright...but they are...i know when it's difficult you just want to just lash out...but don't...try to remember these verses...

John 16:33-
"in this world
you will have tribulations,
but be of good cheer
for i have overcome the world."

James 1:2-3 -
"Consider it pure joy, my brothers, whenever you face trials of many kinds, because you know that the testing of your faith develops perseverance."

1 Peter 1:7 -
"These [trials] have come so that your faith--of greater worth than gold, which perishes even though refined by fire--may be proved genuine and may result in praise, glory and honor when Jesus Christ is revealed."

1 Peter 4:12-13 -
"Dear friends, do not be surprised at the painful trial you are suffering, as though something strange were happening to you. But rejoice that you participate in the sufferings of Christ, so that you may be overjoyed when his glory is revealed."


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(kae i'm so glad you saw that add...if you hadn't i would probably have never seen these verses and would never been able to share them with so many...thanks kae)

Yeah, we love you, Zelly! Don't hurt yourself!

I don't want to seem like I'm waving my sufferings around bit this fits the occassion.

Zelda, don't ever and I mean it take your life for granted and even in thought, think it negatively. I have not fully understand the meaning of life until a extremely close friend of mine die this week and seeing all the grief, saddness, and hurt makes me not want to go through it again.

You may not fully understand the words "I feel like dying" to it's fullest but no one does and no one wants to see you die.

If I ever feel depressed (which is almost always), I use these songs to ease the pain:

"Promise" by Spoken
Yet another day seems like it’s wasted
You don’t feel you’re any closer to the prize
A dead end job where there’s no future
Praying that tomorrow things won’t be this way
Things will get better this I promise you
And I know that you won’t feel this way forever
Things will get better this I promise you
And I know loneliness won’t last forever
Yet another day, another tired morning
You’re catching up to your intentions
You’re thinking life has to be easier than this
Maybe tomorrow things won’t be this way
Loneliness won’t last forever
I promise with all that’s in me to leave this emptiness behind

Another song that helped me but it may not work for everyone is "The End of Heartache" by Killswitch Engage:

Seek me, call me
I'll be waiting
This distance, this dissolution
I cling to memories while falling
Sleep brings release, and the hope of a new day
Waking the misery of being without you
Surrender, I give in
Another moment is another eternity
(Seek me) For comfort, (Call me) For solace
(I'll be waiting) For the end of my broken heart
(Seek me) Completion, (Call me) I'll be waiting
(I'll be waiting) For the end of my broken heart
You know me, you know me all too well
My only desire - to bridge our division
In sorrow I speak your name
And my voice mirrors my torment
Am I breathing?
My strength fails me
Your picture, a bitter memory

Also look on the optimistic side, I am very pessimistic but at times, I force myself to be happy and optimistic.

"When you feel you have nothing to live for anymore, live for God who created you for a special purpose."

I apply that whenever I feel down and discouraged.

Yeah, I do feel a lot better today. Well, at least mentally...