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What if the only man who really loved you is someone you hurt repeatedly, for no reason other than you were too young to see through your own needs to the future?

WHat if you wanted him back with all of your heart and now the one person you need is soooo far away?

I had someone who loved me. He loved me more than I could ever have imagined until I hurt him and left him. Now I need him more than ever and I am too scared to even talk to him.

What would you do?

Lioness wrote:What if the only man who really loved you is someone you hurt repeatedly, for no reason other than you were too young to see through your own needs to the future?

I'd pray really hard. After that, I'd tell him just what you said there. That you were young, naive, and you didn't even know what was best for you. Then, I'd apologize from the bottom of my toes. I'd tell him that I was so sorry for hurting him, and I'd ask him if he could find it in his heart to forgive me. And then I'd have to leave it at that.

Some wounds can't just be "I'm sorry"-ied away. If that's the case, you may have to wait out the pain, and pray that God will give him the strength to forgive. Sadly, there is no fool-proof 4 step method to healing. . . *sigh* Sorry. . .

I don't know the specifics of your situation, so I have NO idea how relevent my advice is, but I'll pray that you'll have the discernment to act in the right way and to say the right words. This must be super tough, and, as I said, I'm REALLY sorry.

get the courage, and talk to this guy

I've been thinking since we talked last night... and I hope this doesn't be harsh, but it seems like you depending on this guy more then you are God. Have faith that God will provide for you, ask God to give you peace and comfort, He will provide all that you need. You gotta put God first, then maybe look into a boyfriend, but just remeber, if it doesn't happen thats because of God's will, and God will help you though that.

Vyse: I am talking to God, and our relationship is great.

I also need humans to 'love me', too. I know it sounds weird, and it is really hard to explain. You have God, but he gave you this need to erm....find the person he made for you. That kind of thing.

I realize that but... you gotta depdend on God to give you that person when the time is right, and we all love you here.

I thought he did, thats why I keep thinking that if I go back to this guy, Rene, things will get better. Cuase I believe that God gave me Rene, and I messed it up REALLY bad.

I know that but... you can't rely on a guy to make things better... you gotta relly totally on God for that, for He's the only one that will NEVER leave you or forsake you.

Vyse wrote: You gotta put God first, then maybe look into a boyfriend, but just remeber, if it doesn't happen thats because of God's will, and God will help you though that.

Yup. It's sort of like if it's meant to be and you talk to him and all goes well, then it was meant to be. But, if somethign happens... he might not be...

I've been there a few times where I thought I found the perfect one. He liked me, I liked him, but then... something happened. Well, that is to say nothing happened. I kept finding others thinking "well, who knows" but none were it either... You might be surprised and there could be an even better guy or something *shrugs*

But, you can always do what I do and think of every possibly outcome that might happen if you do or don't talk to the guy. Then you won't be overly optimistic over the whole situation. Of course, every time I tried thinking or what might happen, the one thing I never would've thought of, would happen!

But you'll never know until you try... this sort of reminds me of the movie 13 Going On 30 in a sense^^ To grow up and see what happened if you went down the other path of not talking...

If all goes well and

haha volt, thats cute ^_^

Ok, I have to step in here. I didn't even realize you had posted this, Lioness. Since I know both you and Rene, all I can say is take Mangafanatic's advice, and if you need someone to talk to, please AIM me.

I'll try to talk to Rene also, if you'd like. I'll pm you my AIM name and YIM username and we can talk if you would like to.

But honestly, Mangafanatic actually gave you the best advice. Please, just go and talk to Rene. If God opens the door and he accepts the apology then you know he is the man God has chosen for you, if not than feel blessed, because God has closed the door on one you were not meant to be with. I can give you story after story of all the guys God closed the door on before I met my husband - wonderful Christian guys too - so He really does have His best for you.

And, I don't doubt your Christian walk at all, because I have spoken to you in the past and know that you are just a young lady hurting and struggling, like so many people do. Every one of us struggle in life. But, our God is a God of blessings and goodness, so I will pray for you, DJ.

You take care and I'll talk to you later, Lord willing.

It doesn't matter anymore.....I can't live. I jsut can't. Everythings a mess and I'm alone and theres no one to talk to. My family is caught up with my brother's crysis......I just can't do this...

Woah! I may not be in much of a position to be saying any thing but... no! Just hold on a second there and for sake of God dont do anything rash! You're 18, you have a long time to find someone...please just... IM me or someone or somthing. Don't do anything dangerous though.

I TOTALLY agree with Mechana. God has a plan for your life, and doing something rash isn't part of it!!! Oh, please, don't do anything dangerous! There is hope!

Lioness...for what its worth I am praying for you. Somtimes life throws things that are hard and seem unfair....but be strong. God is in total control...and He will not forsake you in your darkest hour.

the Lord is always there by your side.

Matthew 11

28"Come to me, all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest. 29Take my yoke upon you and learn from me, for I am gentle and humble in heart, and you will find rest for your souls. 30For my yoke is easy and my burden is light."

go to Him...i will be praying

I guess if all you perfect strangers care about me, maybe there is hope after all.

First off I care about you and I know everyone out there does.
Everyone goes through hard times w/ the feelings of loneliness; me included. But after after searching for myself, I found there were people out there who do care. Even though I didn't realize it there were; family members, friends and everyone at CAA. Though I still struggle w/ these feelings from time to time I know there are people who really do care. Even for you.
*group hug*

Lioness...don't search. If God is willing that you have a loving relationship with a man, then it will happen.

Talk to him. Be courageous...you're a lioness.

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