what a weekend....
PostPosted: Sun Oct 31, 2004 6:29 pm
Well, I guess it's better to vent somewhere than nowhere because it's still not out of my head fully. May sound minor to some, but for me it has not been fun. So many days of misfortunes I need to date them, like a journal I guess.
Thursday:
Woke up feeling HORRIBLY from a cold. Didn't go to school. Fair enough, nothing much to worry about.
Friday:
Still feeling a bit under the weather and didn't go to school. Ok, whatever it's short day anyhow. Missed youth group which was just random games. Ok, just missing one little thing. Mom said I could go to my friend's BIG gettogether with the youth for Saturday (and trust me, fun and crazy things happen!)
Saturday:
Still not allowed to take a step out of the house INCLUDING watch a movie at the gettogether. They filmed a movie there that I missed out there (and it's so fun...) But they used "me" (aka my sock puppt substitute). I came up with the idea of it a while back but now I hate the thing. A sort of they treat it like it's me but it's not sort of thing. Sort of as if it's not that bad that I'm not there. Overall, upset that I couldn't go and even the parents left the house to watch a hockey game. I spent 2 1/2 hours on my own playing FF X-2 to ease me. My friend stopped by the house to give me something and I told her to tell other for a gettogether at my housee for Sunday so then I can catch up on stuff. (Not to mention that I felt pretty good today but not allowed out just in case cold got worse and I'd miss more stuff).
Sunday (aka today):
Found out some of my friends would be busy today (that make up the fun of the group of course). I asked her if my friend told anyone abotu the thing today and she didn't hear anything. So I told HER out of my church absense (yeah not allowed to go to church either and I feel GREAT) to go tell everyone. Guess she failed to do that too. Talked to some friends after church and one was having a movie but didn't invite me "because I wouldn't be allowed anyways". Then he said he'd go to the hockey game. I thought maybe people would show up anyways, but no. Parents went to the hockey game to so I spent another 2 1/2 hours on my own. I watched the Kenshin OVAs which with it's mostly clam scenes, relaxed me too. At least for the time being. Then just a few minutes ago I talked to my friend that I told to tell people last night. She said she didn't tell anyone in church cause she thought I was still sick! I tried contacting people, but I didn't want to phone nayone before churhc, just in case they were still sleeping. She said because I didn't phone or anything they assumed I was sick or something. But: NO ONE BOTHERED TO CONTACT ME OR SHOW ANY INTEREST TOWARDS IT. No phone convo saying "Hey how are you? Still having the thing today?" Nothing. Found out her and other went to my friend's house which I wasn't invited to, probably because of the "not being allowed" factor.... Not beign able to go to evening service tonight either was obvious too.
All and all I don't know what it is. The feeling of being forgotten sort of. And my cold is so much better now and I still wasn't allowed to take a step outside (literaly). But still.... I really felt like having someone cheer me up today. But not coming over because I was sick, sick people like visitors sometimes (especially those that don't FEEL sick anyone!) And the stupid sock that I've come to hate... the thing that replaces me and has everyone seem to forget about the real thing... Reminds me of a VERy painful time for me but I won't get into because I'm sure your all sick of this ranting already^^ It's just been... a lonely and depressing week for me. Didn't feel liek I was too important either. And then there's the whole parent arguing thing about the "going outdoors" issue all through the week....
So if anyone actually TRIED to read the whole thing, thanks for at least reading what I had to say. Hopefully my misfortunes will be ending soon...
*won't be surprised that many will comment or even look at this since I'm not too much of an important/well-known member on the site* *sigh* the whole importance thing again...
Thursday:
Woke up feeling HORRIBLY from a cold. Didn't go to school. Fair enough, nothing much to worry about.
Friday:
Still feeling a bit under the weather and didn't go to school. Ok, whatever it's short day anyhow. Missed youth group which was just random games. Ok, just missing one little thing. Mom said I could go to my friend's BIG gettogether with the youth for Saturday (and trust me, fun and crazy things happen!)
Saturday:
Still not allowed to take a step out of the house INCLUDING watch a movie at the gettogether. They filmed a movie there that I missed out there (and it's so fun...) But they used "me" (aka my sock puppt substitute). I came up with the idea of it a while back but now I hate the thing. A sort of they treat it like it's me but it's not sort of thing. Sort of as if it's not that bad that I'm not there. Overall, upset that I couldn't go and even the parents left the house to watch a hockey game. I spent 2 1/2 hours on my own playing FF X-2 to ease me. My friend stopped by the house to give me something and I told her to tell other for a gettogether at my housee for Sunday so then I can catch up on stuff. (Not to mention that I felt pretty good today but not allowed out just in case cold got worse and I'd miss more stuff).
Sunday (aka today):
Found out some of my friends would be busy today (that make up the fun of the group of course). I asked her if my friend told anyone abotu the thing today and she didn't hear anything. So I told HER out of my church absense (yeah not allowed to go to church either and I feel GREAT) to go tell everyone. Guess she failed to do that too. Talked to some friends after church and one was having a movie but didn't invite me "because I wouldn't be allowed anyways". Then he said he'd go to the hockey game. I thought maybe people would show up anyways, but no. Parents went to the hockey game to so I spent another 2 1/2 hours on my own. I watched the Kenshin OVAs which with it's mostly clam scenes, relaxed me too. At least for the time being. Then just a few minutes ago I talked to my friend that I told to tell people last night. She said she didn't tell anyone in church cause she thought I was still sick! I tried contacting people, but I didn't want to phone nayone before churhc, just in case they were still sleeping. She said because I didn't phone or anything they assumed I was sick or something. But: NO ONE BOTHERED TO CONTACT ME OR SHOW ANY INTEREST TOWARDS IT. No phone convo saying "Hey how are you? Still having the thing today?" Nothing. Found out her and other went to my friend's house which I wasn't invited to, probably because of the "not being allowed" factor.... Not beign able to go to evening service tonight either was obvious too.
All and all I don't know what it is. The feeling of being forgotten sort of. And my cold is so much better now and I still wasn't allowed to take a step outside (literaly). But still.... I really felt like having someone cheer me up today. But not coming over because I was sick, sick people like visitors sometimes (especially those that don't FEEL sick anyone!) And the stupid sock that I've come to hate... the thing that replaces me and has everyone seem to forget about the real thing... Reminds me of a VERy painful time for me but I won't get into because I'm sure your all sick of this ranting already^^ It's just been... a lonely and depressing week for me. Didn't feel liek I was too important either. And then there's the whole parent arguing thing about the "going outdoors" issue all through the week....
So if anyone actually TRIED to read the whole thing, thanks for at least reading what I had to say. Hopefully my misfortunes will be ending soon...
*won't be surprised that many will comment or even look at this since I'm not too much of an important/well-known member on the site* *sigh* the whole importance thing again...