Please Pray for Me

[PotBelliedCow]

I'm sorry I don't come around this board often, but I'm really in need of some help.

I don't know if this is against the forum rules or not. I'm not trying to pick a fight with anyone here, but I've been really struggling with my realizations over the last few weeks.

OK, here's the lowdown:

As you all know, I'm a Christian. I believe in God and Jesus. I go to church every week, as well as attend a Catholic school. I'm a good person. I try to go out of my way to do good things for people. That's just the way I've been most of my life.

But I realized just recently that I'm gay. I've been wrestling with this for the past few weeks, and this was the first place I thought to ask for advice and prayers. I know the Christian perspective on this is that homosexuality is a choice, not some inborn trait. But I don't remember choosing anything.

I hear and read anti-gay things and I feel hurt. Hearing remarks like "That's gay" and other jokes about gays while walking down the hallway are equivalent to taking a dagger and stabbing it right into my chest. The suppressing of discussions about homosexuality are kinda hurtful too. I feel like that I have to hide rather than be myself.

I'm fighting this, but I'm simply confused what I'm fighting for...am I fighting for my natural rights as a person, or against the fact that I may be gay...

Please pray for me. I really need it.

Thanks.

[ShiroiHikari]

Wow...um...I don't know what to say, except that I'll pray for you. *hug.*

I expect you all to abide by the rules with your replies...that means ZERO arguing. </harshness>

[Ingemar]

Interestingly enough, the Bible forbids neither being attracted to the same sex nor female-female relations. Only male-male relations are condemned. Whoever persecutes you is a bigot.

You have my support.

[Staci]

I will pray that you find happiness in your life. *hugs tightly*

[Mangafanatic]

I will be pray for you that God's will in your life will come to fruition.

You know, you mentioned being sorta confused. You're just fifteen. You might need some adult help to sort this whole thing out. I know you might not feel comfortable talking to you parent, guardians, or whoever's roof you're under. If you have a pastor or mentor who you're close to and trust to give you good GODLY advice-- you might want to talk to that person about what's going on.

[PotBelliedCow]

Thanks everybody...I feel a little better about myself now

ShiroiHikari--I won't spur up any arguments. I promise

I'm kinda "in the closet" about this whole thing, and I haven't told any adults yet. I've hinted it once or twice about my parents, but they're not getting it. I'm thinking about talking to my theology teacher now, to the advice of Mangafanatic.

I always knew I could ask you guys for help ^_^

[JediSonic]

Have you met Volt? He's a member here (with a blonde, horned guy as an avatar) and I think he might be able to help you. From what I remember him posting, he used to be gay but prayed about it a lot, and he would go back and forth between straight and gay until one day, God answered his incessant prayers and "cured" him! I'm just repeating what I think I heard.. you should really ask him about it with a PM though.

[Ashley]

Interestingly enough, the Bible forbids neither being attracted to the same sex nor female-female relations. Only male-male relations are condemned. Whoever persecutes you is a bigot.

First off I feel the need to address this statement's validity. In 1 Corinthians 6:9, the Bible makes no distinction between male or female homosexuality; both are equally condemned. And plus, think about the nature of God for a moment. He's perfectly just and fair. How on earth could you justify saying one act is ok for one sex and not ok for the other--or worse, calling one act a sin punishable by death for one and not for the other? That would make God the ultimate sexist. I think if you take "man" used in these scriptures to mean only the male sex, you are not seeing the full scope and instead I believe the Lord uses "man" to mean mankind as a whole. It just doesn't add up any other way.

But because this thread is not meant to be--nor should it be--a discussion of theology, I ask that any further comments on this be taken up with me privately.

Now that that's straight, I do want to offer you my encouragement Cow. I know many people who have struggled with this too. It IS possible to get over it. Like Mangafanatic said, you are still young and still changing. Who knows? It could just be your hormones are out of whack a little and will regulate itself out soon. In any case, the Lord promises not to deliver us into anything we can't struggle against--so that tells me that because He dislikes homosexuality, He doesn't want you to struggle in it. Just pray that He shows you the way out soon. I will definitely be praying.

[Fsiphskilm]

People are c

[ZiP]

wow, um. I didn't see that coming...

At the risk of saying somthing that might be offensive, ill just leave it there.

And I'll pray for you.......

[Lehn]

Volt pretty much summed up everything that we ever possible say (which was extremely well put man, huge kudos to you).

Just know that we're gonna be here for ya' no matter what and we're all praying for you.

[Vyse]

Thank you for clarifying that Ashley.

Cow, its a very very good thing you feel uncomfortable with this, that is a very good sign that you are fighting hard to reject that type of lifestyle, please stay strong in that fight, I will pray for you.

[Spiritsword]

I will pray for you.

[wiggins]

I will pray for you too.

[PotBelliedCow]

Thanks everybody for your prayers.

I've always been the outcast in school, so I guess it's just natural for me to feel "gay" in a "straight" world, since I feel like the minority in every aspect of my life, even in my earliest years. I remember liking girls when I was in first and second grade and all through middle school. My frustrations were simply targeted toward another direction, as Volt's was, and soon enough I had subconsciously conditioned myself to be this way, despite my guilt as a Christian.

I'm gonna to change, although I know it's gonna be hard

-Cow

P.S. Please don't argue about homosexuality, cuz I don't want any of you banned. I love you all too much!! *sniff*

[inkhana]

>I'm gonna to change, although I know it's gonna be hard

I'll be praying for you!

[Rogie]

I just want to say that you're an amazing person, PotBellied Cow. I can already see God working in your life just by the difference in each post you make on this thread. I'll be praying for you, and just remember that we all love you and are willing to listen and talk things over with you.

[Mave]

I always feel encouraged when I see such strength and hope. You have my prayers and support.