birthday depression + mixed feelings
PostPosted: Tue Mar 18, 2008 7:57 am
So ive got issues... who doesn't? I'd love it though if you guys could pray for me. I'm still struggling with my laziness, but recently put my foot down, and it feels good. I almost didnt go to class yesterday, but i did and as usual enjoyed it. Now i just got to get to the friday and saturday classes (crappy days to be in school!) Ive lost some weight, changed my diet recently, and its going to be the death of me. less then 60 carbs a day, and a lot of protein. BUT when i'm 199lbs praise God for carrying me through, and my trainer will give me my cheesecake he owes me(im obsessed with cheesecake lol)
Im trying to get over last year, this friday (the 21st) is going to be my birthday, and like last year, im getting into a depression again.
how ever im trying to look at it from the point of view a friend of mine gave me, and take this coming as a year to be successful. and that's one of the 2 things i wish to ask you guys to pray for me about. I need this next year to be a successful one. Im not feeling or thinking suicidal or anything, but i need something to live for. and i need some progress in my life so i dont feel that im living for nothing. i know that i should be living for God, but im having alot of trouble pulling that off. Im hoping that this year will be a year where i can pull that off. I think i know what i need to do, and that is, be successful business side, so i can focus on the kingdom.
The other thing im having issues about, and i need some prayer for is with relationships. Its not that i feel abandoned, i just feel left out i think. My best friend is in texas at bible college, and my other best friend is either really busy or in some diffrent state/country cause of his internship. and i dont have to many friends out side of that. I have friends online, but they rarely talk to me, so im usually feeling very alone when i get home. I guess what i need is to learn how to be a better people person. a girlfriend would be kool too
I do want to say that generally im happy, and praise God for that. some times im to happy and almost get into car accidents cause im to busy screaming/head banging due to emery - walls
Sorry for the very bad writing structure. Writing has never been a forte of mine.
Im trying to get over last year, this friday (the 21st) is going to be my birthday, and like last year, im getting into a depression again.
how ever im trying to look at it from the point of view a friend of mine gave me, and take this coming as a year to be successful. and that's one of the 2 things i wish to ask you guys to pray for me about. I need this next year to be a successful one. Im not feeling or thinking suicidal or anything, but i need something to live for. and i need some progress in my life so i dont feel that im living for nothing. i know that i should be living for God, but im having alot of trouble pulling that off. Im hoping that this year will be a year where i can pull that off. I think i know what i need to do, and that is, be successful business side, so i can focus on the kingdom. The other thing im having issues about, and i need some prayer for is with relationships. Its not that i feel abandoned, i just feel left out i think. My best friend is in texas at bible college, and my other best friend is either really busy or in some diffrent state/country cause of his internship. and i dont have to many friends out side of that. I have friends online, but they rarely talk to me, so im usually feeling very alone when i get home. I guess what i need is to learn how to be a better people person. a girlfriend would be kool too
I do want to say that generally im happy, and praise God for that. some times im to happy and almost get into car accidents cause im to busy screaming/head banging due to emery - walls
Sorry for the very bad writing structure. Writing has never been a forte of mine.