Inner Chaos!!!!!
PostPosted: Wed Mar 05, 2008 2:01 pm
I want to start by saying this HAS NOT been a good week for me. Last week I was sick with this stupid cough/cold that was really annoying. But everyone gets sick right? so w/e,
By being sick I have to now catch up on hw and I have ZERO motivation to do ANYTHING! I have been really depressed.... I suppose I should explain that...sigh* get ready to read ppl!!!*
Well. I have been having these REALLY TWISTEd nightmares for the past 3 months...sigh* I always end up with blood on my hands and then 1) Screaming my lungs off in horror at what I did 2) I feel nothing. It all depends on what dream it was. I have this one reaccurring VIVID future dream where my future husband (face blurred kinda) and I have to rescue a friend from a Christian concentration camp thing. Thats al good but when escaping the "future husband" ( for whatever reason I REALLY want to call him Mark...which is odd because I know no one with that name) is shot...and dies. So I go ballistic on the ppl at the facility and basically kill everyone....and then I go back pick up Mark** and walk off feeling....nothing....nothing at all...I've also had dreams after that about flashbacks before we go to rescue whoever is imprisoned...like the wedding and stuff...I know this makes NO sense but I just need some prayer alright?
HELP!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Not to mention I have been withdrawing from everyone...right now I'm skipping school...and I don't care. which is bad. and not like me.
:bang::bang:
anyways thats all....*sigh*
I feel like my life is pointless....
By being sick I have to now catch up on hw and I have ZERO motivation to do ANYTHING! I have been really depressed.... I suppose I should explain that...sigh* get ready to read ppl!!!*
Well. I have been having these REALLY TWISTEd nightmares for the past 3 months...sigh* I always end up with blood on my hands and then 1) Screaming my lungs off in horror at what I did 2) I feel nothing. It all depends on what dream it was. I have this one reaccurring VIVID future dream where my future husband (face blurred kinda) and I have to rescue a friend from a Christian concentration camp thing. Thats al good but when escaping the "future husband" ( for whatever reason I REALLY want to call him Mark...which is odd because I know no one with that name) is shot...and dies. So I go ballistic on the ppl at the facility and basically kill everyone....and then I go back pick up Mark** and walk off feeling....nothing....nothing at all...I've also had dreams after that about flashbacks before we go to rescue whoever is imprisoned...like the wedding and stuff...I know this makes NO sense but I just need some prayer alright?
HELP!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Not to mention I have been withdrawing from everyone...right now I'm skipping school...and I don't care. which is bad. and not like me.
:bang::bang:
anyways thats all....*sigh*
I feel like my life is pointless....