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Fortunately, this time it's not family. Otherwise, I don't know how well I'd fare. However, this particular person's death still touches me. He was one of the men from my old church, and it seemed that he always took time to talk with me whenever he saw me.

The troubling thing is that, since I left my old church, I basically dropped all communication with the people there (I didn't bother to tell anyone that I left). At the time, I was still working at Blockbuster, which was right up the street from the place, so I would see them from time to time. Since quitting, I haven't been in contact with anyone there for five months, so... I did not know that this person had died until this morning. I found an e-mail at an address I scarcely use anymore: an invitation to the memorial scheduled for yesterday that I should have received last Friday, but didn't actually get until today.

Frankly, I feel terrible that 1) I had no idea that he died, and 2) I didn't go to the memorial (because, had I known, I would have been there). I think he was too young to go, but we all have our time to leave, whether we understand it or not. Please, keep his surviving family in prayer and forgive the long post. I guess I just wanted you all to know exactly where I'm coming from on this.

hm...IMO i don't think it's something to feel ashamed of that you missed...i mean...sure you're going to miss the guy...but he wasn't even there. you know where he is. all that stuff is for others too see who they think cared about the person...and FRANKLY 1)it's not you fault that you didn't know. 2) YOU DON'T HAVE TO...not unless you want to go to be miserable and whatnot...

when mr. hammer died i didn't go to his memorial/funeral or whatever...to me it's where ppl go to cry...i didn't want to cry about it...i mean i did for about three days but that was for myself...not for anyone else...also...@___@ i'm just sick and tired of crying and whatnot. soooo yeah...~shrug~ >___>; sorry if i'm harsh.

I'll be praying for those he was close to...

As a quick question, did you have a phone number they could've reached you it? Emails themself are not always convenient, especially since I'm even rarely using mine.

Tenshi no Ai wrote:I'll be praying for those he was close to...

As a quick question, did you have a phone number they could've reached you it? Emails themself are not always convenient, especially since I'm even rarely using mine.

They might have... I'm not sure. Like I said, I left the church abruptly using the Edward Elric approach (let's leave and not tell anyone where we're going) and I've been gone for a year and a half without talking to scarcely anyone. I'm sure that, if they had my number in the first place, they probably would have gotten rid of it since I had been gone for so long without any communication. Granted, I'm almost certain that whoever is running that email list forgot I was even on it.

Of course, my mom and sister knew about it. They still go to that church, so it's unavoidable. However, I spoke with her today and she said she forgot to tell me. She didn't go herself because of a meeting at her work. Can't fault her for that.