I have a total of four exams for my online college courses which must be completed by Wednesday night.
I've done a mere fraction of the amount of studying I should have done/wanted to do over the past week because of a combination of lack of discipline and a strange confluence of events where finals study week became the week where I had the most non-school-related commitments of the entire semester.
Monday and Wednesday I had to go to my church in the evenings to help with various kids ministries, most of Tuesday and Wednesday were lost to a visit from my grandparents, Thursday night I had Bible study, and I spent today and yesterday (including the night in between) back at the church helping with a fund-raising yard sale for the mission trip.
The point is, very little studying has gotten done, there's very little time left to do any more, and I have little to no leeway on when I can take these exams to suit my schedule for the next several days; I'm being forced to beg out of another church children's event I was supposed to be assisting with anyway, because something has to give.
I really need to spend the rest of tonight until I go to bed studying, but I'm completely exhausted from spending 27 straight hours doing yard sale stuff with just three hours out of those 27 devoted to sleep.
To make matters worse, I've been well aware of this impending crunch all week long, and it's stressing me out, which is contributing to me being generally out of sorts for several days. I've been frustrated and impatient, I've frequently felt useless and inadequate everywhere I go and in all the tasks I have to perform, I've been depressed by the fact that old hobbies seem to either bring me no pleasure these days or just don't fit into my life anymore, and I've been wearied and disgusted with the way I still struggle with old temptations and with how weak and double-minded I am.
If you've had the fortitude to read through all this venting to this point, or if you were smarter and just skimmed down to the end, then please pray: that I'll have the energy, wisdom, and discipline to make the most of my remaining study time, that I'll have the knowledge, skill, recall, and calm and clarity that I need to do well on the exams themselves, and that God will demonstrate His power to me granting me successful results in spite of my inadequacy and lack of preparation.
Oh, and as long as we're at it...I'm waiting on SAT scores due in a week and a half, please pray they're really good or at least good enough I won't have to take it again if I don't want to.
Alright, that's all, finally...for now. *Exhausted exhale*