prayer

[ice122985]

I dont' usually ask for prayer...but I guess i just wanted talk about it.

I know I am not the best Christian and that i will never be. I am asking for prayer to help me in my Christian life. Often times, i see my life as a struggle between two people: my old, carnal nature and my new, spiritual nature. It seems as though they are constantly battling each other for control...and more often times than not, the new one is losing. One clear area of struggle is my pride. i was born proud and arrogant. i know i am supposed to be humble, but this does not come naturally to me. So, for me, humbleness has always been a conscious decision for me, something i have to force myself to do. As a result of my pride, i tend to be ...vengeful, and i always have to restrain myself from hurting others...especially my family. Another area is an attraction to pain, hurt, anger...that sort of thing. I seem to like pain and am always looking for it...in music, in movies. I enjoy fighting for its own sake rather as a means to further a cause, and i beleive that is wrong.

Don't get me wrong- i know that i am not the only one. I know that i am just another soldier with the same battles - stuff that everyone goes through. I just wanted to tell someone...so thanks for listening.

if you pray me , thank you

God bless.

[Gypsy]

I'll certainly be praying that God would touch these deep seeded problems. Most of them seem emotionally based, and that can be a difficult area to control, but nothing is impossible with God. Again, I'll be praying!

[Shinja]

yeah i understand, we all struggle aginst the sinfull nature, and that makes us all the same in our weaknesses, but when we are weak He (God ) is strong, and can help us through anything.

im praying for you, me, and everyone else too

[MillyFan]

Have you considered seeking counseling? Your behaviors and thoughts sound as if you could benefit from such help. Just my opinion.

[ice122985]

Have you considered seeking counseling? Your behaviors and thoughts sound as if you could benefit from such help. Just my opinion.

again, i know this is probably arrogant, but if i get counseling, i feel i am getting help from people instead of God. another thing is that i feel this is between me and God- no one else. but then again, why am i posting this?

[Kokhiri Sojourn]

I'll pray for you. Maybe you could find an accountability partner or someone along those lines that could help in fighting your problems with you. Thanks for being open. =^)

[Rogie]

Well, since you like fighting, etc., maybe you should "re-channel" that into reminding yourself that you're fighting the "good fight," as I think Paul says to Timothy. I know it's much different, but thinking of things in different ways may just be some small way of growing in Christ.

And, I like how you consider yourself and all Christians as soldiers -- that's kind of what I was saying about "re-channeling."

I'll be praying for you!

[Rashiir]

I'll pray for you...

[true_noir_chloe]

Ice, I will definitely pray for you. ^_^

Oh, and the problems you face will always be there. As we grow closer to Christ in our walk the problems sometimes disappear, but more often they only hide for longer periods of time until they show their ugly head after you have a family and children. I'm very prideful and I think Paul struggled with the same problem. Christianity means forgiveness, not ceasing of the sin nature. You will always struggle. I've been a Christian for over 25 years and still am growing and struggling and will be until the day I rest beside my Lord in Heaven. It's the horrible task of being a human being with sin. If you draw closer to Him with prayer and devotion, meditation He will guide your days. I am closer to the Lord than I've ever been today, but yesterday I still struggled with all the same things, just in lesser quantity.

[Spiritsword]

I will pray for you.