It was the single most devastating thing that has ever happened to me, and everything around me was already going wrong already... I don't think I have ever had a more miserable time in my life than the past year and a half.
But that said, I think God started healing me!
I noticed tonight that I hadn't been thinking about her, and when I saw a picture of her, it didn't hurt like it used to. She's gone after the world, hasn't been following God at all despite her profession (she started sleeping with her boyfriend as well, from all accounts), etc., but it doesn't tear at me like it used to. I don't feel that pounding in my heart like I used to.
In this long time, God made me into a better man, more mature and trusting in Christ; I learned to bring my pain to Him, and He has been taking it away slowly.
Just wanted to post this in praise of the Lord, and to assure those in similar siutations that yes, there is a light at the end of the tunnel! It's going to be okay!
-Blake
p.s. I do recognize my own humanity, though. Please pray that this healing continues, and that I don't relapse back into that kind of heartache. Thanks
