http://christiananime.net/showthread.php?t=40584
OK, here's the thing...
God may have given me a "way out" of this horrible thing. Or, to be more accurate, I've been given a way out, and I don't know if it's from God or if He wants me to take it.
I don't want to jump at this out of my own desires, because (obviously) it would be against God's will and it could lead to the same kind of problems as before.
On the other hand, I don't want to...well, strange as it sounds, cling to the awful thing I thought I had to do out of pride. I mean, like if Abraham had said to God, "Nope, I've come this far, you had me all set up to kill my son, I'm knocking the kid off anyway!"
There are so many thoughts swirling in my head. Please pray that God will show me clearly what He wants me to do and that I'll do it.