*headdesk* @o@

[Bap]

xD;;;

Well, more thought thingies again! D: But, just for variety, that's not all. ;;;

Um. Well, I sorta had a scary thought come up in my head, and well, I didn't like it very much. ;o; Like... a thought of an action? xD; And I know it's not really, really bad until you actually do it, but since... I don't know how it actually happens, just the thought of it scares me, 'cause just thinking about it makes me wonder if I'm actually doing it...? xD;;;

Sorry, that was probably confusing, and saying what it was might work better, but I just don't really like the thought... xD;;;

And, yeah. ;o; It's scary, because it's like, the thought makes me wonder if I put my eternity on the line. D: And I know that God won't ever leave me and stuff, but it's not God I'm doubting, it's more like... myself? xD;

I mean, before I was really freaking out and stuff, but now I'm better. D: And sorta calm about it, but I dunno why I'm being so calm about it. xD; Like, it's all, "well, durh. You'll always be with him, so it's okay. u_u" but then it's also like, "what if this is false calm! D:"

And, yeah. @o@

I've also been having some other issues, like... well, with school. D: We got our report cards today, and depending on your perspective, they might be better or worse than I thought they'd be... xD;

I guess you could say morale's been low for me, lately? xD; So I haven't been very motivated... D: And I just need some help with decisions too... ;o;

Um... yeah. @o@ Advance thanks~! n_n

[Tenshi no Ai]

I'll be praying for you through it all...

[RedMage]

[quote="Bap"]xD]

Christ said that fantasizing about committing a sin in your heart is as bad as actually doing it. Sin is, after all, something that originates inside, we just act it out and make things messier or not. Don't know whether that would make you feel better or worse. Either way, a prayer for you.

[Mr. SmartyPants]

I'm praying for you bap!

[Pinecone Tortoi]

RedMage - If what Bap's describing is what I'm thinking of, it's not fantasizing. Fantasizing implies that you WANT to think about it and think longingly of doing it (whether or not you'd actually carry it out). I think what Bap's talking about is an unwanted thought that just occurs to us for whatever reason. Like nightmares - we certainly don't want those, but they come all the same. And you might do stuff in nightmares that you hope and pray you would never do in real life and even if you know you'd never do it, it still be distressing.

I'll pray for you, Bap. And you know the saying - the temptation is not the sin. It sounds as though you're quite firm about 'not enjoying' the thought, so I don't think what you're describing is a sin. I'm also pretty sure you know what Jesus said about worrying. ^^ Don't. I know what it's like to worry about doing something horrible, but we shouldn't. We've both got God-given brains and can choose not to do bad stuff. You can feel like a dangerous/twisted person for even thinking about it, but you have the self-control and intelligence to be gentle and true. If you don't, you know Who to ask for it.

Love,

Piney.

[ChristianKitsune]

RedMage - If what Bap's describing is what I'm thinking of, it's not fantasizing. Fantasizing implies that you WANT to think about it and think longingly of doing it (whether or not you'd actually carry it out). I think what Bap's talking about is an unwanted thought that just occurs to us for whatever reason. Like nightmares - we certainly don't want those, but they come all the same. And you might do stuff in nightmares that you hope and pray you would never do in real life and even if you know you'd never do it, it still be distressing.

I'll pray for you, Bap. And you know the saying - the temptation is not the sin. It sounds as though you're quite firm about 'not enjoying' the thought, so I don't think what you're describing is a sin. I'm also pretty sure you know what Jesus said about worrying. ^^ Don't. I know what it's like to worry about doing something horrible, but we shouldn't. We've both got God-given brains and can choose not to do bad stuff. You can feel like a dangerous/twisted person for even thinking about it, but you have the self-control and intelligence to be gentle and true. If you don't, you know Who to ask for it.

Love,

Piney.

I was totally gonna say that XD but my computer freaked out on me...

Yeah what Piney said, We aren't responsible for random thoughts that enter our head. It's only if we continue to think about them and enterain them, then they become dangerous. I know this full well, actually.

You know what really helps? (at least me?) whenever something like this happens, I usually go open a word document file and just start free typing a prayer to God. I don't stop my thoughts and I just type what I think. I type praises to God, my concerns and my desire to serve him. Stuff like that. It really helps. Why choose a word document? Well 1. You can SEE what you are saying and you don't get lost in your thoughts. and 2. you can always go back and read what you wrote when something like this happens again.

I will be praying for ya! ^^

In Christ!
Kitchan

[Bap]

Thanks everyone! @o@~!

[Ryupower]

I'll pray for you. And yes, as previously stated, thinking of a sin is already as bad as commiting one.

Example, Jesus said:
"whosoever looks at a woman to lust after her, has already commited adultery with her in his heart."

( or if female: "a man", "committed adultery with him" )