On having peace and the grace to forgive.

[Debitt]

When I decided to attend the college I'm at right now, I was aware I was going into an environment where a handful of people would harbor hostile feelings towards Christians. I thought I was moderately prepared to deal with these people - I wanted to challenge myself spiritually, and I didn't want to lock myself into a Christian bubble, because I knew that would do me more harm than good.

Yes, it's been a challenge, yes I think I've grown. I've found myself actively seeking fellowship, actively reaffirming my beliefs, not wanting things to be handed on a platter to me, but at the same time I've found myself feeling angry or hurt by some of my peers who profess to be "anti-religion". Today wasn't the first day that I've cried and sworn and asked myself "what's wrong with the world?"

I don't want to feel angered or hurt by these people, or by the condition of this world. It's emotionally draining. It doesn't feel right or productive. I want to stop saying "I hate people" and cursing them for the things they say. I want to be able to first find peace for myself, then to find the strength to forgive and pray that the Lord will find a way to reveal to these people the same love that He's revealed to me.

m( _ _ )m thank you in advance.

[Tenshi no Ai]

It definately is tough being in such a world as this, and can be even tougher in that form of enviornment. I personally want to go to Bible college to help strengthen myself, and be in a place for a temporary time surrounded by family and those able to help you up. I'm not sure how I could personally have myself deal in a different sort of college...

I'll be praying for you...

[K. Ayato]

I've felt the same way you do, Ko-Dai. I'll be praying.